So...have placed myself widely, including, at length, Italy, NYC, Greece, Oakland, India, the Sierra Nevada; worked variously--with kids, with plants, with food, these days bodies. Did experimental theater, dance; now a dedicated writer. Always, the project is creative expression. That's meaning, for me, and what I live for. Pleasure is meaning. Loss is meaning. The big collective story is meaning. Funny is meaning. Dreams are meaning. Eating is meaning. Beauty is serious meaning. As long as I know I’m taking it in—body a conscious gate; mind tender, meticulous—I’m good. Whatever promotes fear or confusion, I’m against. If this sounds too serious, let me be clear: the best is when you get to laugh. I consider this period in my life a watershed for debunking truthless stories, bucking self-limitations—a juicy and strenuous time.
Built paradoxical: Pleasure-loving but discerning and will cheerfully do without rather than settle for less. A self-reliant introvert with crack social skills and a selective outgoing dazzle. Disciplined and hardworking, but skeptical of mainstream/conventional values: will take time over money in a heartbeat (but wouldn't say no to both). Shallow roots and itchy feet notwithstanding, I build charming, eccentric nests. Inquiring, eclectic, iconoclastic—also deeply loyal, trustworthy, ethical, kind, an old-fashioned idealist. The older I get, the more I like how I look, relish who I am. In others, I most appreciate curiosity, soulfulness, prowess in anything, kindness, self-investigation, trustworthiness, creativity, spiritual sensibility, a sharp quiet eye, a vibrant physical life, intrepid hearts/minds.
Note: I live mostly on Whidbey Island, for big views and focused work and an everyday relationship with nature and better weather and the beach under my bluff and because I was offered a deal I couldn't refuse...and partly in Seattle, for income and social circulation. The arrangement is as flexible as I want to make it--am definitely not married to the island, or for that matter to the northwest. Open to change of all kinds.
As for this online experiment: no TO DO list--moving slow. I do want a partner/mate/beloved--perhaps even for life--but comfortable approaching that one day at a time, thank you. Perspective, humor, and patience with the process, please! (not to mention a skeptical regard for the random inanities of the robot...)