I am a complex person who is looking for something very particular. Twice I have thought I have found that but have come up short for a variety of reasons best left out of a self summary dedicated to attracting perspective people. What I want in a person is inexorably tied to who I am. If I was going to chose a series of words that captures me I would chose the following: intense, dedicated, noble, difficult, romantic, logical, and . You will likely not meet many people like me and for the bulk of people they will never know that they have. I have a stoic exterior that is the byproduct of genetics and a view on life that could be described as reserved. For most of you that may read this, I am likely not worth the difficulty involved. I accept that fact, it’s the nature of life. I should pause and mention that this is only true for deeper connections, the kind that can be built into something amazing, which is what I seek.
For all my vaunted stoicism I am quite good at talking about just about anything. Get me in a discussion and meet me in the middle on keeping it going and I can talk forever, be it through messages, IMs, or in person. I am opinionated, and often have one about even the most inane things. I know very odd assortment of things and carry an array of interests to go along with that. If after reading through this profile, or perhaps the old one, you wish to chat with me be willing and ready to help me carry the conversation. I can talk about anything but that does not mean I want to be the one asking all the questions, or blabbering on just me. It is import to me to feel engaged by the person that has piqued my interest. As I said before, for most people I am not going to be worth the difficulty it takes a unique person to handle me. Endearing? Again it takes all sorts of unique people…
Some help for what may make you wish to carry on with me? I love books, specifically fantasy which will be more apparent below. Within that what really draws me is in depth characterization, unique worlds, and books that keep me turning the pages because I have developed an emotional connection to the characters. The same can be said for video games, TV, and movies. These are just stories with a visual component or an interactive one. I will play games and watch movies and shows that are not story driven, or bring something unique but my favorites, the ones that stay with me, are when characters and story really grab me, be it comedy, drama, or even action.
Yes, I am a gamer. Board games, dice, role playing, video games, the whole gambit. I am happy to be a nerd as it pertains to my interests but to do not confuse my self proclaimed nerdom with some form of short coming in terms of my ability to interact with the world. My interest in computers, books, science, and knowledge are matched by an enjoyment of the outside world, travel, good food, cooking good food, sports (though I much prefer to play things like ultimate Frisbee, racquet ball, and volleyball), fine arts, and so much more.
I love music as my giant library will attest to. When I find a sound and voice I like I tend to really get into it, regardless of genre. I am terrible at remembering who sang what song though, or what a song is called unless I have deliberately committed it to memory. This means I often go digging for a song I hear on the radio to find what it is, sometimes on a hunt using one small phrase I grasped.
I am an aspiring writer. I have created a world; I have populated it, and start to tell a story set there. It is ever an ongoing process that is refined and developed. Few things make me happier than finding someone earnestly interested in hearing all about it, but how much I divulge is completely dependent on your level of interest and what you ask me. I have an entire world… so that’s a lot to tell. Why did I do all this? The short answer is because I wanted to see if I could and it went from there. I have finished one novel start to finish, corrections, additions, and alterations notwithstanding.
I have recently finished my Master’s in Microbiology. It was a very difficult thing that took a lot out of me the last two and a half years. But it is done and I am glad for that and the finished product. That said I am recovering from the hours and hours spent writing the thesis and the experiments needed to produce it. It was a huge stress in my life that needs to be gotten rid of.
That is a good overview of talking points, specifics will be found below in the lists.
Now more importantly to me is what I am searching for. I love new friends, I like meeting new people and learning about them. When it comes to the romantic, and why not this is a dating site, it is more complex than just talking about stuff.
I am looking for someone who I can talk to for hours and not notice. That is not to say that eliminates all those who are shy or slow going to start, but the truth is if I am not challenged then it will not go somewhere higher. I need the back and forth, I need the push and pull. Optimally I would like to find a person that likes to get at what makes a person tick as much as I do. I just find that I am more interested when the person across from me, literally or figuratively, is asking me questions and the conversation flows. I know this thing here is a very hard one and takes a lot of time to develop, so of course I am not assuming a person will just pop up without the weird getting to know you period. I know what I want, so I hope you do too.
Shared interests make a lot of this easier but I am passionate about mine and I like that kind of fire in another. But teach me something too; introduce me to your interests. I learned a lot about makeup and the art that can be done with it because I met some one that was passionate about it. I like learning new things. I have always been attracted to those that can do art, music, or the like. Things I cannot do but have a high appreciation for.
I place a large emphasis on earning trust and keeping my word. I am different to those I trust and there is much that goes on in my mind that does not translate directly to my face or body language. Like I said, difficult. I seek love and will not settle for less than that kind of connection. I expect the worse and hope for the best in all things. It is a duality that is both pessimism and optimism.
I am a romantic, not hopeless I hope. I have written a story of love and dedication in my novel. I would very much like to write a better one in this world. I have learned a lot from failures and experience in the past. I try to do better and learn from mistakes. When in a relationship I do strive to do my best. I once made a seven course meal for Valentine Day, in case anyone was looking for good boyfriend credentials. I am dedicated even if I get it wrong the first time. In the end I am worth being bet on because I will amaze you. I may be looking for amazing but I am not foolish to believe I cannot offer the same in return while expecting that.
I can write forever, but let’s not.