I'm a human being, with all the failings, madness, laughter, tears,
passion and despair that comes with it. I'm polyamorous, a
Dom/sadist, a feminist (que heads exploding), a nominal Buddhist,
occasionally funny, moderately intelligent, sometimes articulate,
and all around fucked up.
Oh, and to answer a question, I put straight rather than bisexual,
because I'm actually pan-sexual not bisexual, and frankly the
skeezy guys bug me in between the constant stream of messages they
inundate you ladies with.
What I’m doing with my life
I've helped the people I care about as best I could as often as I
could. Now I'm trying to rebuild myself and my life. Long term, I
want to get into options trading, short term, I want to be happy.
Wait, make that last thing long term too. I suppose short term,
wishing I was with my beloved fiancee and cursing myself for the
failings that lead to my being stuck here while she's had to leave
this miserable place.
I’m really good at
Helping those I care about as best I could. It's rarely enough in
Caring for my little ones as best I can.
So far I'm good at keeping breathing.
The first things people usually notice about me
Some say it's my cute butt, some my "dominant" stare, some the
vacant way I look thru them, my "intensity", or that really
obnoxious way that I unconsciously tap sometimes.
Really, people probably think notice nothing at all about me. I'm
fairly unremarkable in appearance and presence generally.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Nietzsche, Lovecraft, Mel Brooks. The particulars of my likes and
dislikes are such that I can't honestly say something is a
favorite, only that I really like it. How do you compare Blazing
saddles to 2001: A space odyssey to decide which is your favorite
The six things I could never do without
I can narrow it down to two, hydrogen + time.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
How much I wish my deepest dreams would come true, they won't
however unless quantum mechanics pulls a tunneling on me. Also,
making money...and sex...and good food...and then sexfood.
Well, maybe not sexfood...that doesn't usually work out well.
Lately, the past. I spend a great deal of time thinking about all
the ones I've lost, all the times I've had, and all the times I'll
never get to have, while still concerning myself with my companions
and their well-being.
On a typical Friday night I am
Looking for something to do, failing going out somewhere doing
something I'll be at home playing video games, reading, or
something else in the company of my companions.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
My memory is corrupt. I remember so little of the "good times" and
all of the bad. Unfortunate, yes? As a result, I spend a great deal
of time snapping photos or making "home movies" with my phone so
that I can go back and remember all those little moments the rest
of you take for granted.
How I envy you "normal" people.
Also, just because I care...
You should message me if
To be honest, I can't think of a single good reason to do so. Those
I care about may disagree, but to myself I see nothing really
remarkable. I suppose that's true of everyone, we so rarely see
ourselves save in the reflection cast by a sleeping loved
Anyway, message me if you like I enjoy talking to interesting and
sometimes even boring people. Though if you're a bigot or an
imbecile don't bother. You'll know because reading anything I've
said was offensive to you or you had to look up the word imbecile,
Though, I will say, if you claim to be "monogamous" yet engage in
random hookups rather than relationships, and are off-put by my
poly, do us both a favor, and save your clumsy attempts at
including me in your ill-thought-out dalliances. I'm not looking