UNDER CONSTRUCTION

I am a geek, and this profile is long and filled with geekery.
Just getting that out of the way now.

As the SN implies, I can be very affectionate with sweeties. Physical attention is more important to me than sex. I appreciate my partner and like to show it as often as possible, in whatever ways I can. This can make me excessively sweet and attentive and I sometimes have to remind myself to leave my girl some breathing room.
I have a calm, sensitive personality, with a normally-subdued playful side (sometimes "impish") side. In person I'm usually very quiet (or verbaly awkward when I'm not). Online I come across as much more confident and articulate, and people often come to me for advice, or just to complain when they've had a bad day (I don't mind). People have said I should get into psychiatry but I think that would ruin it; I make a better friend than a shrink.

Speaking of my "impish" side, I've always had a warped sense of humor. When I was ten I wrote a story about a giant blob of lime jello rampaging through my home town and eating my friends (of course, I was the first "character" that I killed off). Very few things offend me.

I'm also a bit of a cryptophille. I have always had a thing for anything creepy. I want to sleep in a haunted house before I die; I want to see something I can't explain, I want something to pierce the axiomatic reality-is-reality rationality of my mind. I love ghost stories, horror flicks, creepy pictures; anything that tickles that dark edge of your brain. My "dark side", as it were, also extend to graveyard humor and playful cynicism, but I'm very rarely a "downer" to be around; you won't always see these things in me, and when you, I'm having fun with them.

I might come off as meek or timid, but it's more that I'm easy-going and like to please. I certainly assert myself when it's necessary; I just don't when it isn't.

I'm definitely shy, and when people flirt with me I'm as likely to grin and blush and stare at the floor as flirt back. And that's if I'm comfortable with them. This may be part of be being genderqueer, and some have described me as a bit of a coquette- I'm guilty of going out of my way to do those subtle things that others find "cute", encourage the very sort of attention that makes me want to curl up and hide (while secretly grinning to myself).

Which is funny, because I'm just over 6'3 (though often mistaken for a girl from behind in spite of this). I'm clumsy in some ways but not others (I'll drop something then snatch it out of the air before it hits the ground. Then walk into a door frame). I've been told I have 'amazing' hands, a cute (or just loud) laugh, and a very soothing voice.

Interests:
I roleplay, freeform, online. This means that I get into chat with another person and we cooperatively tell a detailed story, with me primarily focused on the actions and responses of my character and he/she focused on hers. If not for the flowery prose this would be called "playing pretend".
In my case, these stories are usually kinky, cuddly, or romantic.
An example character:
http://profiles.yahoo.com/warm_scaley_caresses
I have many others. If this actually interests you feel free to hit me up just for rp. Conversely, it's alright if you think that this is all, in fact, immensely weird. Because, well, it -is-.
People say I'm good at this kind of writing and I enjoy it way too much. I have this weird dream of one day writing smutty dimestore romance novels, except that instead of being about bare-chested foreign men and unsatisfied housewives they'll all be about dashing young mages and dragons and catgirls.

I'm a creater, a concocter and a dreamer. If it's useful I probably suck at it, but I do like to be creative.

I also have sort of a "toymaker" personality, in that I find great pleasure in creating something that another person enjoys, or in crafting a positive/fun experience for them. This is the biggest draw for writing fiction for me. It's also part of what draws me to running tabletop games, and is really the main thing that has drawn me into "the scene".

I love D&D (and similar games) and like writing new rules material. I got published in Dragon Magazine shortly before it went under and am super-proud of that.
I enjoy running games and teaching the game to new players. Any experience level, any playstyle; it's all good.

I'm an animal person. I like cats, dogs, rabbits, snakes, most birds, reptiles, cows, pigs, miscellaneous rodents, and just about everything else. Animals usually warm up to me quickly. If you can introduce me to a genet or an asian bearcat* I'll love you forever.

I love kids (which I personally think is very similar to loving animals. No offense, parents).

I haven't played many videogames in the last few years but I can still pick up a controller and have a good time. In small groups (or just with a good friend and a good multiplayer game) it's one of my favorite passtimes.
I have confirmed that certain medieval technologies (Chess, Checkers.. Settlers of Catan?) are actually capable of delivering comparable fun-levels in small doses. It's remarkable, but true.
I somehow avoided the WoW-disease that most of my friends have battled with varying success. My defenses included being too poor for monthly subscriptions and having a computer that can barely run Starcraft.

I like going for long walks. When I move to a new place it's not uncommon for me to just wander out around noon and come back at dusk, 'exploring'. I'll bring a good book with me and stop if I see something interesting, like an art gallery, a river or a pizza place. I like going for walks at night, no matter where I am.

I like anime. I haven't watched much anime in years; there are tons of good anime that I have never seen. Please watch anime with me? Not that that's just another excuse to cuddle, or anything.

I can cook. Kind of. Okay, not really. I make a mean curry and a pretty decent chilli but as of now the rest of my menu is relegated to frenchbread pizza and similar bachelor-chow. I'm fixated on the idea of cooking, though. In a year's time I'll probably be pretty good at it.

If you have soft hair I will wish to touch it constantly. Please keep a stick on hand to drive me off with. A spray bottle is more humane, but less effective.
Major points if you have a pretty voice. If you can sing I'll swoon. If you indulge in any form of artistic expression you can expect me to take a sincere interest in your work.

I have a fetlife account, to which I plan to move all the jabber that used to be here regarding my genderqueerity and sexual preferences. I'm listed as just "cuddleslut", so search me if this link doesn't work:
http://fetlife.com/users/38178
(you have to make an account, but they don't ask for a lot, and it's a great site anyway. You'll probably make an account just to view someone else's, then end up fleshing it out and joining groups like I did).

Also to repeat, um, I'm shy. Just saying. People who only know me online are often surprised by this (just as those who know me in person would be surprised by what I say online...). I don't think I would have sex with someone before getting to know them well. This doesn't offend my morals or anything, but... It's so much better when there's a human bond there already in place, and conversely, less enjoyable if I'm not secure around them.

* They smell like popcorn! I'm not making this up!

What I'm doing with my life is figuring out what to do with my life. I'm still at a stage where I wish to see and learn and experience more than I wish to accomplish. Life is short, yea, but I think I have time to look around a little before I decide where I'm going. I'm working odd jobs, trying to meet new kinds of people, and looking for excuses to move around

I haven't held many jobs and am not sure what I'm good at. At Wendy's the customers wrote notes on napkins telling my managers how nice I was to them. At Tim Hortons they fired my ass for dropping all their doughnuts on the floor. When I was cooking for firemen out in the woods they loved me because I worked 18 hours a day without grumbling or complaining about it. I'd like to find a gig like that last one again sometime; it's good money, and it's satistfying work.

Here there used to be a lot about how I had moved out to the far corners of the country to live temporarily with people I met online and would be willing to do so again in the future. With my current sweetie living here in Maine, though, I'm not sure how applicable that was; at least at the moment.

I think that people who have short, succinct answers to this question are either very wise or very simple.
Perhaps there really isn't much difference.

Writing. Gaming. Most creative/imaginitive things.

Dungeons&Dragons. Roleplaying in general (I don't think that other people with that keyword are going to mean what I mean).

Giving footrubs. Giving hugs. People compliment my hugs. Cuddling. Petting people. Making them feel wanted.

Giving good criticism. Everyone says I have a talent for critique, even when I don't think I know what I'm talking about (like with art).

Playing Pac-Man. DOMINATING at Pac-Man. Playing Mario Bros. Playing Tetris. I broke the scoreboard on the GBC version of Tetris, no joke. 9,999,999 points, around eight hours of play. Am I leet yet?

I look like a hippy (shaggy hair, jean shorts, possible tie-dye) and there's a book in my pocket. That's usually what you notice if you see me in public. You'll see me smile often and laugh occassionally but speak seldom.

At least at first.

I don't read very quickly or watch a lot of movies, buuuut...

Currently dabbling in Anne Rice; definitely cheesy at times, but her wordcraft and characters are keeping me hooked.
I usually read more as brain-candy than for serious mental exercise.Redwall (Favorite book from my childhood, plan on rereading it). Hitchhiker's Guide to the Universe. The last few Harry Potter books weren't bad; they catch a lot of flack for being "for stupid people", but they're very imaginative and have some *tight* storytelling. The Silmarillion kicks ass. Occassional pulp Sword&sorcery (Forgotten Realms, Shannara, etc), a lot of dorky D&D suppliments and rulebooks.
Following the "brain candy" theme, I adore sci-fi and fantasy short stories (very high density of cool ideas: they introduce a new world but don't give it time to get o;d) and can occassionally be found with an issue of Aasimov's or Realms of Fantasy, or else lugging around an ancient hard-bound Hugo Winners compilation that I found in an old thriftstore.

It's cream-of-the-crop sci-fi from over 40 years ago. It has stories about super-computers built with vacume tubes. It speaks of robots which are opperated by paper cards with holes punched in them. Do you know how awesome that is?

Kong-Fu Panda, Jurrasic Park, Wall-E, the Lord of the Rings trillogy, Star Wars (and I liked Ep. III, sue me), The Fifth Element, Sin City, Gothica, Cloverfield, Spirited Away, Mulan (yea, yea..), Fight Club (duh?), Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, Fearless, Kill Bill, Happy Feet.

ZOMG ANGREH MUSIC! D: I'm not an angry person, I swear, but I find it empowering. Uplifting, even (and even though the lyrics usually aren't).Disturbed, The Offspring, Linkin Park (hate that "k"), Godsmack]], [Thousand Foot Krutch (HAET that "k"), Rammstein, She Wants Revenge, Megadeth, Metallica, AC/DC, Korn ((THAT FREAKING 'K'!!), and probably one or two songs from everyone in modern hard rock/alt rock.
Depressingly mainstream, I know. I'm very open to new sounds however (my friend is trying to get me hooked on j-rock and it's starting to work).

I do pay some attention to the local scene here in Maine. If you've any taste for hard rock check out Dead Season. They're local, they're awesome, and they're about to sign with a major label. You heard it here first.
I hope they fair better than Ra did. I was so psyched when those guys went mainstream, but asside for hearing "Fallen Angels" playing in a hot-topic once it doesn't look like they made it very far.

Ummm... Pizza, fried foods.. . . . chocolate? Oy, this isn't looking good.
I'm a bachelor, cut me some slack.

Music. Books. The interweb. Friends. Wordpad.EXE. Caffeine.

You know, a lot of these get repeated from profile to profile. I think "friends" is on everyone's list.

Made-up things of all sorts. What would make a cool story. What would make a cool book or movie. What would make a cool videogame if I was ever, somehow, in a position to design one. What would make a cool D&D monster for tomorrow night's game. I have a very creative personality; not that I'm necessarily good at making things up, just that I enjoy it. And I love creative things even if I have not made them; I love fantasy. Standard geek thinking, I know, but I don't feel it's about escapism so much as exercising the mind.

Though, to be fair, fantasy is more a playground than a gym. It's fun, and it calls to be explored. Then again, sometimes I find something really cool out there, and that's where the "work" (*snicker*) starts. Because finding a cool idea out in la-la land is easy; it's dragging it kicking and screaming back down to earth and communicating it to another human that's the hard part.
And then I have to start thinking about medium: RPG mechanics, writing styles, and other specifics take up more thought than the ideas themselves.

People. Personality types. Sometimes I'll glance (read: try not to stare) at a stranger and wonder what their life has been like up until then, what mood they are in, what their own mind is occupied with.. People fascinate me, and I'm compelled to try to understand them (collectively if not as individuals) even as I tend to feel very apart from them.

The connectedness of things, or relationships between things. I'm always looking for connections, and I love it when a new point of view on something occurs (or is shown) to me. Every idea looks different in terms of another. Duality of viewpoints (for example, how love is just a chemical reaction within the brain; and yet, is no less precious for this, and is still love).

I think too much. It's a hard habit to break. On the upshot, I am very rarely 'bored', being prone to long musing whenever I have a quiet moment. Restless, perhaps, but rarely bored.

Probably in front of a computer. At least, right now I am.

Well, I've already listed a LOT of private stuff (that I'd never say to anyone I know IRL), but...

Sometimes, when my partner is asleep, I'll slip under her arm and nestle back against her before drifting off myself. It's awkward, me being twice the size of most girls, but I love being held.

-You're just a nice, intelligent girl who likes my profile and thinks you would have fun around me. There are a lot of types I find attractive, and I put a lot more stock in the personal writeups on this site than in the matching system.
-If you're poly, you still believe in deep and meaningful emotional connections. You don't consider "romantic love" a joke.
-If monosexual, you still think that a short-term relationship can be a deep and and enriching experience. You aren't in the market for a husband but still want real companionship.
-You're a kind, light-handed dommie who wouldn't mind teaching to a willing pet, or you're another BDSM-curious switch and want to explore new things
-You're cuddly!!
-You think we'd make good friends, online or in person. Dudes are fine in this respect, sexuality asside. I've figured out that I'm not going to catch The Gay textually.
-You are a freak in any sense of the word.

My biggest turn-off, I will admit, is a girl that's just too normal. New or different is exciting and fun. I made this account when I realized that most of the people here were highly literate, intelligent, and weird. This is awesome.

Remember ladies, words are like your e-boobies. You might be the sexiest little creature on earth behind the monitor, bt if U ytpe lIEK dis, you look ugly.
Mistakes happen (hell, I had to spend like fifteen minutes on spellcheck.net to make this presentable, I'm terrible), but effort counts.