life is my school and i am getting the most i can out of all the instructors, willing to pay my tuition for what i'm getting, and asking more and more to learn through pleasure. i really want to know the big picture "why's" and am learning to have patience, trust the moment, and see that my being is perfect. doings are icing. i want to give my gifts from a place of love, not as a strategy for feeling valuable. i am on a quest to better understand which gifts to give, to whom, when, and how in order to do my part in creation.

see above. through making art, music, dance, radical experimental baking, ritual, conversations with spirit in all her forms.

i started out my adult life pursuing a PhD in philosophy and teaching but professional doubting made me miserable and i have been in search of better uses for my wonder (the "feeling of the philosopher" according to Plato) ever since.

i am constantly reading and experimenting to learn about sound, physics, psychology, color, line, dance, energy, human nature and development.

i compose both music and art and have developed my own form of bodywork. am developing workshops to share insights that have come through me that i think can be of help to others. wondering if/when/how all the different streams of my life will reveal a larger plan and path. have been flirting with getting a degree in psychology, but that's not quite fully on target. patiently watching/listening to learn what is more so. gathering acorns of wisdom and paying attention to where they are needed.

i do various kinds of consulting from musical coaching to space/landscape design stuff to developing personal rituals to help people with life transitions.

listening, holding grounded safe space for transformation and learning,
generating new ideas, making outrageously beautiful original paintings, experimenting with the sonic possibilities of my piano,
chanting, drumming, making spaces warm and beautiful and inspiring,
creating and leading ritual, matching the magic of small children, hugging for real, enjoying having a body, getting inside of new worlds of information quickly, communicating with metaphor...

earthy feminine luxuriousness that dares them to play and be real. a deep caring for all beings. a grounded, very attentive, highly intelligent and curious presence.

Currently reading lots on Reichian Psychology and energy work. Have gone through big phases of early attachment literature, purpose work, physics, theories about trauma and healing. Favorite books I'd like a partner to read, understand, and share as references: John Welwood - Journey of the Heart, and Love and Awakening; David Richo - How To Be An Adult In Relationships; Cloud - Boundaries.

Music - mostly folk from all over the world, jazz, classical. i like some contemporary stuff, but don't know much of it.

I have not owned a TV in many many years and love having no connection to it.

tilden - particularly the inspiration point trail - nature in general
regular hugs (the good kind where both people really sink in)
my piano, flutes, drums, voice, paintings - all things that resonate with beauty and expression
my nephews
joy
regular growth and learning
dancing
chocolate

how to be a more energetically and spiritually awake, conscious, and self-responsible sacred human showing up fully in life to give my gifts.

what makes humans really joyful and alive and what blocks us from experiencing this more often.

what that squirrel was trying to say to me over breakfast.

no real typical:
most often at home hosting a concert or an impromptu gathering of magical beings to laugh, chant, drink tea, and make beautiful music or
curled up comfy with a book or a film

at dance jam

going to theatre, music, movies

hiking till dark

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(if you can decode this, you will know my special secret)

i am quite open but discriminating about who i share with.

the idea of me hanging out doing sidewalk chalk art in a clown suit strikes you as sexy; you have beautiful, mature, healthy boundaries; you like to dance, be domestic, and hang out in bed reading separately together; you are hungry for real co-creative partnership in life; you have spent enough time in some kind of therapy or other process to have real self-awareness, the ability to show up in the present moment as a grown up most of the time, and to know and feel ok sharing/working through it when you are coming from a younger place with old strategies; you like to share attention, affection, appreciation, acceptance, and allowing with your loved ones; you connect deeply with yourself and the natural world; you love children and are open to the possibility of not having your own; you are not much into TV; you don't mind that i inconsistently eschew Capitalization in Computer Communications; you like alliteration. :)