-- Helen Keller
Do you sometimes get the feeling that there is something inside of you, something buried, something special, that you have no way of expressing or getting out? And you know that if you could express that deeper you, that greater freedom, then you could be more than what appears on the surface, the outside view. You can see it, almost, but it stays in its place because of a pragmatism that we all fall into. Almost all of us. If you know what I mean; then read on.
There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,
Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.
I may be very rich. Or I may be very poor. I may be very smart. Or I may be very stupid. How would you really know for sure? You don't. You can't. Do you want an adventure? Or are you the kind of person who uses that word lightly? Do you live in a well defined comfortable box, or can you break out of society's confines? Do you do things; or is adventure to you watching other people do things? Nothing is what it seems. Who said that? Who knows. And if I was from another place; a really different kind of place, how would you know? How could you? What would be the possible signs? Maybe you will catch on. Maybe you won't. So read my profile - carefully - and try to psyche it out.
I am very independent and I have been living in a Colorado ski resort for the last 9 years. I ski, hike, mountain bike and I have been working on an algorithmic trading system. When my dog died I carried her on my back and buried her in the mountains at 11,000 feet. Her grave is the only grave I have ever visited. I worked on wall street for about 20 years as a derivatives quant and risk guy but it wasn't challenging anymore. I'm in Boulder for a break and while here will look for funding/investors/partners to take my system to the next level. I will be back in Telluride Jan 5. Can't wait to get on the mountain.
I have talked to people in London, New York and Chicago and Boston but if I had my druthers I'd like to be in Colorado. I've been funding my own development. I've been living free for a long time and investing in building my system. Now I am again in the mode of leveraging off of something creative that I built myself which is very important to me. I have to create or I'd go nuts and that is more important to me than stability. I don't like manipulative or dishonest people. I don't like bureaucrats. I think they just live off of other people by manipulating rules. Conformity is a weakness to me that I don't have. I don't do well with people who see things in very simplistic ways; the kind of person who makes a statement of belief without even thinking through implications. I like intelligent, confident, passionate, adventurous, caring, empathetic, decent people. Not too easy to find. Perhaps not possible. Know that being with me is a ride that you have to be willing to take.
I haven't been with anyone for a long time. People tell me I'm too picky. But I want a woman I am attracted to, who is intelligent and has it together. Any one of those three characteristics is hard to find. I don't want to compromise on those basics because I know you pay for those compromises in the end.
And it is not so easy to find those three things. It is if you are an average person because most people are like you. And I am not putting down being average or near average, hell, society is designed for you. But suppose you are not average. Take this with a bit of humor but figure you are attracted to one in ten people. That I would say is very optimistic. Don’t you think? Now let’s say for somebody who is looking for intelligence and whatever they mean by that, it is maybe one in twenty people. Now when I say I want someone who has it together, I mean I just don’t want to be with someone who has serious problems. That also may be relative but we can probably all agree on the extremes. Anyway, say one in twenty. Now of course, I am a mathematician and this could only be fun for someone like me but it means that even with these somewhat optimistic estimates, you’d have to meet 10 * 20 * 20 = 4,000 people. So you can only be with one in 4,000 people. And then you might meet that 1 in 4,000 person and they also are looking for that 1 in 4,000 and you are not it. I think more reasonable estimates are 20 * 20 * 100 = 40,000. So if we meet each other and we like each other; it’s a big deal. That is why most non-average people end up compromising lots - more than they are likely to admit. If we like each other, have dynamite all-afternoon sex, and we don’t have to compromise all that much; we are very lucky. And although I am looking for something that fits all this and a connection, if you have nice legs; nice legs can go a long way.