I'd like to think it would be impossible for one to sum up the total of their being in a few short paragraphs.

I'd like to think I'm more than a statistical print-out thats been judged, catagorized, and pushed aside with firm assumptions denoted as facts, and promptly labeled as a certain something. I'm more than just an INFP personality or a tick on a neuropsychological scale.

I'd like to think that even I don't know who I am, or who I can be. Yet.

I'd like to think that answering that question is the most importing thing in life.

Who are you?

I am open-minded, curious, and empathetic.

It's been almost over a year since graduation...and my attempts at 'striking out' outside of retail and getting an impactful career? Not going all that well. Maybe its me: Sloth is the vice of the creative mind, where unique works are left neglected and unfinished. I'm trying to slay that demon and add my worth to the world. Honestly? I've been tempted to just up and walk away from it all, and see where it takes me. But too many years of pseudo-Christian guilt tend to keep me from that rather selfish (and possibly suicidal) path.

I just hope I don't spend so much time trying to figure out what to do or to do so much, that I end up doing nothing. I'm in no mood to squander my adulthood with delusional manchild fantasies, of which I've been generiously (if lovingly foolish) overallowed due to a blessed life. It'd help if I had someone else REALLY kicking my ass, but depending on myself is something I'm used to after fifteen plus years being a latchkey Navy kid.

Heres to 'doing', then.

Pretty much just thinking and talking. Writing, perhaps, but I'm discovering I'm more into editing. I'm a good listener, but I'm an even 'better' conversationalist. If you're interested in something, chances are I have a few ideas on it or would like to hear yours.

I'm addicted to information, regardless of the subject matter. If its weird, occult, cerebral, eldritch, or just interesting...I probably know SOMETHING about it. And SCIENCE. God. If I had the memory for terminology and a head for math, I'd probably be a far better scientist.

I've also apparently inhereted the so-called portuguese trait of "Desenrascanço", or as one of my buddies in Brazil explained to me, basically the ability to solve problems you're not educated for in novel and unique ways, to reshape a problem to work for you with less planning and more intuition and imagination. I'm HONESTLY not sure if thats good or bad.

I look like I know things. Fun Fact: I'm faking it, and freely admit this.

I guess I just have that type of face, and I AM a bit of a useless info hound. Emphasis on the useless. But I'll still probably try to help you or sort out whatever mess we're in. I'm kinda bossy that way.

Hmm. Let's just keep this with my current interests and fixations, since I'm the type of person who will willingly watch, read, try almost anything. (Updated 10/09/10)

Time to update some of the books I'm working on:

Never did get around to 'The Crime of Galileo' by Giorgio de Santillana, or 'A Means To An End: The Biological Basis of Aging and Death' by William R. Clark. But 'The Future of Man' by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin was great. Best book I've read since The Global Village by Marshall McLuhan.

Still eating anything I can on GMOs, sustainable farming and the like. My fiction binge of Michael Crichton's 'Next', R.A. Salvatore's 'Road of the Patriarch', Issac Asimov's "Nemesis", and Neil Gaiman's 'American Gods' has ended recently, actually, with me getting into the works of Jared Diamond. Finished [Guns, Germs, and Steel and currently working through Collapse: How Societies Choose to Fail or Succeed. Gotta say, I prefered the prior work. Not that 'Collapse' is depressing, but I enjoyed the focus on global communities a bit more. Maybe it'll get better near the end.

Current movies: Can you believe that Hot Fuzz was the last movie I saw in theaters? Good god. Been a DVD renting snob lately. Not to mention using Hulu.com like mad. Which reminds me, I gotta dig out my copy of Broken Saints out of storage sometime. Oh. And watched Mouse Hunt a few times. Good cheap slapstick laughs when doing the dishes.

Current music: Stupid sexy Fallout: New Vegas (read 'RED FLAG', darlings: manchild distraction) has me going through all the Andrew Sisters and Inkspots lately. But my strange mix of VNV Nation, Tool, NiN, cobbled with bursts of Frank Sinatra and other Golden Age Lounge Music era singers still holds strong.

Current food: Never underestimate the joy of a good hand-made sandwich. Ever.

Current shows: I'm late to the party, but finally enjoying Firefly. Which'll cue the following list of childish fixations: watching old Justice Leauge reruns, and digging Batman: Brave and the Bold. But I've started branching into animie, too. (read: SECOND 'Red Flag'.) And as someone who was raised more on Spider-Man/Captain America, I gotta say: Yakitate! Japan is freakin' insane in the best of ways. It's an anime that mixes Iron Chef with DBZ (I just made ten thousand animu fans flinch with that comparision, didn't I). Check out Great Teacher Onizuka if you get a chance, too.

-Oxygen. -My ability to communicate. -Free Will. -Other open-minded persons. -New ideas. -A healthy diet plan.

Practiacal, and a bit personal, matters lately. But they eventually get pushed aside by my insomniatic brain's fixations; Like the roles/goals of humanity in Nature and Reality itself. God. The Omega Point. Strange little questions. Like: "Would me swapping my brain out with a mechanical replica also swap who I really am?" Think about it.

Or don't. In that case, can I answer 'giant ten-story robots'?

More than likely not having as much fun as you are. Or studying\pondering\working on one of the following: Post-humansitic concepts, Bioethics, Genetic Engineering, Epistimology and Metaphysics, Biotechnology, Utopias, Gothic Horror, The Occult, and various other things with big strange names.

Is that sometimes I really, really, REALLY need a hug from someone.

-You're bored.

-You're looking to learn something. Just ask about a topic.

-You're mildly intelligent and pick up on wit and enjoy conversations about the most pointless of things.

-You're not intelligent at all and tend to miss on subtle verbal jabs.

-You're in my house and watching me right at this very moment.