i act thus: quiet until you break my shell, and ridiculous afterward; pretty goddamn ocd sometimes; kind of a silly empath (especially when it comes to other species); one of those people who prefer utilizing the handy window-side tree to the stairs; somewhat a social freak but still an amusing drinking buddy.
i am addicted to the following: caffeine; effexor xr; weimaraners; the affection of fieval; self-deprecation; freerice.com; xkcd; questionable content; facebook, myspace, and okcupid stalking; that crunchy ice from hospitals.
i am moderately okay at the following: drawing, painting, other artsy crap; making things from popsicle sticks; talking to mice; general medical advice; reading way fast; correcting grammar; making cinnamon rolls; getting sucked into furious diatribes on mental illness.
i am ridiculously talented at the following: jigsaw puzzles; crosswords; remembering facts that rarely do any good; caring for ducklings; giving domesticated animals sensory overload to the point that they obey my every wish; starting ivs; tangential thinking ad nauseum.
i am bad at the following (not limited to): telling people no; expressing myself as quickly as some people want; just generally not being passive-aggressive; luring mice out from behind bookshelves; taking my vitamins; finishing projects; forgiving myself for doing stupid things; dancing; scheduling.
i don't like to hurt people or disappoint them, but i end up doing it anyway. trying to please myself and not who i believe i should satisfy is an uphill battle. if you yell at me i will become physically afraid of you and may never get over it. i do not believe in blaming people for where their mind takes them, especially when their mental state is a product of misfiring neurons. (read: if you believe that crazy people bring it upon themselves, then i'd rather not talk to you...ever.)
i am an apologizer. i apologize for things. if you tell me not to, i will apologize for not having stopped sooner. it's a trait that can be annoying, and i know that. if you want me to stop, i COULD say tough shit, but that's not how i am. i'll just say i'm sorry.
I am conscious, barricaded, and colorful