Never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for me.

Gag. Most designation suck. I have experimented a little with other guys and I am honest with myself and for that I MUST self-identify as bisexual. I mean I haven't sworn them off.

But really I think about the other gender quite a bit more. Man I shouldn't say that. It sounds like I am trying to give a cold shower to any super-cool guys that I might meet here. Plus it's just stating that I am basically pretty hetero-normative, ho-hum. It is lose-lose really, oh god, I should change that sentence. Yeah let me do that.

Anyway before I do that, I've been married before. I'll tell you all about the break-up if you want to know. I am currently in a long-term open relationship with a queer girl, whom I live with. In fact she talked me in to joining this website as way to meet friends, regular cool friends and somewhat naughty special friends. 15 points if you can figure out who this queer girl is.

^^^ All that is to avoid the massive disappointment game that defines dating.

Man, ok well the rest in summary is I am somewhat streety_con_ hipstery, sometimes working class bad boy but also with a little dandy side that kind of gets out of the genie bottle at times. I try to keep the wild dandy from destroying everything in my life. I love cycling, love, love, love. I could hump cycling. Secretly I am really smart but I'd never admit it because well mr. smarty guy where is your fancy advanced degree and cool projects? None-the-less I am genetically good at interpreting art and literature, and I have a knack for code but..eh..that's a sore subject, and I continue to live in the shadow of a father who was a cooler boho than me (when will my day come?). Ooh I am so moody and interesting.

I identify as a philosophical anarchist and I come from a long line of anarchist minded people.

That's about it.

Oh and I have fucking great credit. Booyah!

I am self-replicating myself on the internet

I just produced a zine about postapocalyptica and postmodernism.

Going to school..being poor (its more of a rags to riches to rags story) and off the unbeaten path that is off the beaten path. Seriously it is a fire trail or something.

Cooking stuff. Debbie Madison is amazing.

I am down with that Luddite trend and I resist the sad success of specialization. I know sad success is important for making babies though. I'm not stupid. If I have to choose, and I think I do, I'll choose myself over a baby. I haven't made the snip yet because it's close to the wire but it's my version of right-to-choose; I'm not building a safe nest for babies right now. There is construction debris, poisonous solvents, carcinogenic electronic components, porn, booze, marijuana, occasionally other drugs, loud music (sometimes deafening live music), and random post-post-punk teenage relatives and their numerous friends crashing here at odd hours. It's a deathtrap for babies here.

Listening to the 80s music that didn't make it for the second coming.

I already covered some of that but, I am analytical by nature. Driven to evolve socially, more than materially. I like the brawn of classic analysis but like after a good video game session, I feel a little robbed of my time.

I've realized that I play the muse. Not a male nude model, because few non-queer male people idealize the male body. No, by that I mean I am constantly bringing in material and nurturing the creative lives of people I am close to. Some people do not believe in muses anymore or think of them only as a product of women's limited options earlier in history, proof that it wasn't acceptable that they could become the artists. That muse may be obsolete but as one with many social qualities (like most people), I subtly play that role for people I am intimate with. Occasionally, I really do make art. Usually I just think of theses and fount fresh material.

Other specialties may include handling emergencies and other forms of chaos, and helping people heal, though I am no savior.

1st thing: My name. It's pretty fracking rich. But since this is the internet with it's billions of socially exhausted men, I'm not going to be playing all my cards at once. There is no point.

2nd: Tall, good-looking, contemporarily stylish, much of it in how I carry myself, as opposed to how my unphotogenic qualities behave. I just don't like cameras much yet. Also how much younger I look than that sun damaged number the internet displays for me for my age. Another internet handicap. On the silly internet, I live more in my age number whereas in real life I am more age-anonymous. Ironic, no? I laugh at you internet. Ha ha ha!

3rd: If you get to know me my humor comes out. Again an internet distortion but this time I appear more socially comfortable than I really am. Other things that come out are my interesting life story and sometimes the "oh he's smart. no I mean, he's really smart." which always surprises me but it shouldn't.

Books: I am currently reading essays about Mary Shelley. I am often on a short story thing. Or Im reading literary criticism, I actually prefer to read criticism over literature because Im sick in the head. Favorite full length novel as of yet was Motherless Brooklyn by Jonathan Lethem. I am a prose whore.

Movies: I have seen too many already but I still can't stop.

Music: Today Electralane is my darling. Yesterday it was Les Savvy Fav. The day before that it was The Go! Team, before that Add N to X..and so on and so on

Pesky Pescatarian as of this year. I earned my vegetarian badge, and I'm keeping it.. 20 years a veggie, I mean c'mon. That's in hardcore range. Even though I'm a pescetarian now.

They didn't mention favorite art but I love Jeremy Blake. I was so upset when he killed himself. I like Zak Smith on principle. Some others but I'd be surprised if anyone knew of them. I probably shouldn't go this route; It'll lead to appearing pretentious. I love artists. Hey gay guys that's something, if I loved your art I would totally be gay for you. It's true. I would suck Jonathan Lethem's dick, I would suck Jeremy Blake's dick...etc etc.

Thank god it's not only 5 things.

por ejemplo:

I hate talking in emails.

When you get that feeling, when you've overheard a conversation in a room with someone you don't know but you want to get into it, the urge to speak overcomes your shyness, your reservation, your memory of every awkward result that had followed similar butt-ins but you can't in email. You can't say something. Not when it's email.

No instead you must type in the night. Plus the entire conversation happened days ago, and the interesting person you wanted to talk to is in another head space, another world away from you, and you are just trying to talk this person's foorptints.

The orality of the internet is a shadowy fragmented version of who we are and what we feel. When you've gotten that feeling, the butting-in feeling, on the internet you end up leaving with something less gratifying even than that feeling that comes after leaving a voice mail.

And I have that feeling. It's such a shame that the internet is a waste of those feelings.

Everywhere else the music is too loud and the drinks are too tall. The world is made to fail so that it can't disappoint.

That's what I was thinking about today (08/24/2008).

Doing something.

I listen to Ultravox.

** Hey hey mui grande update!

Currently I have changed my interest from dating another person to include dating two other people. I don't mean I am looking for casual encounter threesomes, I mean actually DATING two people at once..getting to know them both..as they get to know eachother at the same time...the excitement of appreciating new people and being appreciated ..discovery..conversation..good times ...all without the allergy to strong bonds that comes with casual encounters. If the other two are just getting to know each other in the same way..that's what I want the most. I can be a third wheel and appreciate meeting established couples, still two people at once, but two things: I would be the only one experiencing this level of experience and also a disproportionate amount of attention would be on me. I have yet to go on one but I have gotten 2/3 of the way there twice, once with TehErk (which is still open).

This is complicated business but I don't care. I have become experienced in some of the poly ways. Bring it!