The first thing about myself really.... Is that i kinda have my own persona really figured out. No more of those ominous ridiculous nights of questioning myself "Who am I really?" Nah i got all that figured out now. I know what I like, i know what i don't like. I know what i need in this life, and I am quite aware of the things that should be/really are left alone and outside of my life. No.... I'm not perfect and no....I'm also not the knight in shining armor that i had always envisioned myself to be growing up. Unfortunately, I didn't become a super hero. I realized that I too....also have a dark side. That I have flaws in my personality that make me "villanous" And for the longest time, I hated those traits about myself. I hated not being wholly good....But...like many other things that have become apparent to me. It's quite ok, and furthermore, its good that i have a bad side... It makes me human, and it makes me unique. And that has become somehting more important to me as of late then ever before.
Secondly, I realize now that i cannot go through life with exactly zero enemies. Well I mean I COULD do that, i have for many years. But the simple truth is this. People who are truly happy in life and have the things they want and exactly the way they want them.....those people made a few enemies along the way. Not taking anything for myself and not truly being "ALPHA" has made it so inconsequential because no one gets angry at the hand that doesnt pick from the basket. They simply "let you be" They do nothing for you....they do nothing against you....BUT......they WILL ask things of you. And thats just it though. I have learned that its time to take matters into my own hands, life is NOT going to reward me for being such a good person while i sit on my hands and wait for them to be given to me.. Life is going to SHOW me opportunities and will leave it up to me as to whether or not im going to TAKE them or not. But for every one thing taken. Something else is lost....thats the balance of things. I know i will lose people a little more common than i am comfortable with. But i gotta start doing things for me. Time to stop trying to make the world happy and work a little more on what makes ME happy.
Funny that I actually came across this ideal, even more hilarious that I am only realizing it this late in my life. Love has been so buffed up by our society and so praised and so worshipped for the simple opinion that "true love is hard to find". Well Im not gonna say this is true for everyone, but i have found that it is true for me, its an opinion. True love is exactly what its name says it is....its only prerequisite is simply that it needs to be "TRUE". I can find true love anyday of the week, i do not believe there is a certain someone out there destined for me. I DO believe however that a human heart is as simple as its owner allows it to be. If I find a woman that i am attracted to , and she is sweet, loyal, fun, not judgmental of others and accepts me for the person that i am. I could easily learn to love that woman. It could be anyone. Its that easy. Look past the flaws of a person and see them for the person they WANT to be and the way they treat you. People need to quit worrying about finding that "special somebody", and worry more about finding that someone that "treats you right" Of course there needs to be an appropriate level of chemistry present first....but thats about it man....Find yourself a mate....and MAKE THEM your soul-mate. Dont sit there and wait for that person to just appear. You can easily turn the love switch on...anyone can...i happened to have enough experience to turn it back off when the time is appropriate. Its a simple code to live by really. "Love your woman, be loyal to her, give her comfort and make her feel special" Thats it man. If you cant be loyal dont be in a relationship. Better to be a player than a cheater remember that.
MY last note here and probably the most important one is this. Whatever way you chose to live your life...... Either it be partying, gaming, working, adventuring, learning, teaching, praying......whatever way you choose to live....make sure you live the FUCK out that life man.... Dont let a moment pass. I have had my own close encounters with death and it just makes me realize how temporary I really am. Get out there and fucking LIVE THAT LIFE.... In whatever way makes you happy!!! some people live sociable lives. others never see the light of day...but which ever kinda life you choose....make sure you seize every freaggin day...
So in conclusion, My outlook on stuff has changed quite a bit... and maybe they will change more as my life goes on....But the main thing is that through it all....im still happy....and that my friends...is the most important thing of allme :D
Well....thats alot of freaggin information, sorry if i bored you lol... In any case if you got this far than let me first congratulate you on your diligence and patience, and secondly, why dont you shoot me a message??? hell you gotta be a pretty cool girl to have wanted to know THIS much about me. I promise you wont regret it. In any case, thanks for reading my about me, happy hunting in your search for love!!!