So i did what i have seen many bisexual girls do on here, put my orientation as gay (sorry to all you gay gals that get PO'd from that). And so I got like one true stalk. WTF is up with that?! its like women don't have the balls to view other chicks profiles. So I resigned my gay status and am here as I am...

The moment I said it,
The moment I opened my mouth
Lead in your eyelids,
Bulldozed the life out of me

I know what you're thinking,
But darling you're not thinking straight
Sadly things just happen we can't explain

I have many shelves where I place the most important people in my life; familial, lovers, loves, friends, enemies, humanity. The highest shelf would always house me, but the fact I could have someone stand beside me would be the greatest gift life could bestow upon me. You’re right, you never made any promise to me and that’s what this entire experience was based off of - no expectations.

I cut the cords that relay to my heart every so often because they weigh me down to the point of burial. But this time I look down, my hands are empty, and I see as I’m gaining altitude you’re the one holding the blade.

You never crossed your fingers behind your back, nor did you tell me you would give me the world, let alone yourself; so it is my fault that I assumed this would be best for you and me. You constantly create new cords with others when I am not so sure I want to be connected with someone who does so, so passionately without forethought sometimes. But promises were not made and so my physical body shakes as my mind trembles and my soul shatters. I am not promised to anyone, so why do these strings hurt so much?

Promises may not be kept, but it is the intention behind them that really matters to me.

I look at my shelves that are relatively empty because of false promises and understand why you refuse to give any. I am supposed to not expect anything from you so it will be easier for me (and you..) when you leave. I pick you up and put you under the shelf labeled ‘loves’, because I see there isn’t any promised future. It is unfair to lead myself on so this is why I am thanking you for freeing me.

This is Me, My Ego, My Heart...not making any promises.

(Female buddy preferred, but if you catch my interest...)

Looking for a buddy to go do activities with, for instance:

Karaoke - Whoa I love to do Karaoke! If you like to watch or even better, like to get up there and sing, then come join me!!!

Rafting - Start at Sunrise and go down to Goethe Park on my raft. Yes, I have a raft.

Shopping - I like to browse thrift stores and the like for things. Come join me!?

Travel - Want to go to the coast? Or perhaps a casino for fun...

Gym - I go to the Sunrise and Coloma 24 hr fitness in Gold River (AKA "non-ghetto" Rancho)

Belly dancing Class - I am looking into different studios to start my journey into learning Belly Dancing. I really like Tribal and Fusion, but I also like traditional.

2nd Saturday - Every 2nd Saturday... Downtown

Ren Faire - Fair Oaks Park's Tudor Faire

Gun Range - If you're anti-gun then obviously I wouldn't ask you to go :P