i have no idea why im doing this, because i dont really care about my profile, but i need to post something long, really long, so here goes nothing i guess...so basically im just going to spit out random stuff, like why is music such a big thing in my life, i mean i know that i love to play my trumpet and listen to music, but what on earth about it makes me want to take all the necessary classes and what not to become a music education teacher? well to begin with i first heard and payed attention to a trumpet in 4th grade when some high school students visited my school and demonstrated instruments for us young lings. then later that school year someone gave all the teachers mouthpieces and stuff to let students try, i think i tried a French horn mouthpiece, but i cant really remember. but anyways i think I've always known that id like the brass instruments and not the woodwinds and strings, and so far i haven't regretted to play trumpet, or at least not until this year when i started playing it college level. but all through high school i was considered one of the better trumpets, but i dont feel like i improved a lot, i mean freshman year i was 2nd chair middle band, sophomore year i was 4th top band, and junior i was 2nd top band, and finally senior i was principle chair top band, but throughout high school i feel like the only thing that improved was my music reading skills, not my playing, but this year in college, i feel like ive made improvements, but i don't get half of the stuff that my professor talks about still, and the other half is kind of hard to do, like yelling "hey" into my horn, it doesn't make sense to me that it would work, but it actually does, but i can't do it consistently enough for it not to frustrate the crap out of me. and now my professor tells me that yelling in my horn and singing are two very important developments that i have to make to get better, and its very frustrating and discouraging, but i think i might be starting to get it, so alls good there i guess. another random question i have is why is it that up until high school i survived pretty well as a loner, but not in college, i feel the need to branch out a little, be social, get drunk once in a while. now that im past my first year of college, i feel lost without my friends now that im home, like i dont know what to do, and i get so bored during the day. on the upside though i can just drive back every once in a while and hang out with my friends still, but its just not the same i guess...as far as the rest of my life goes, its crazy, i almost feel like im lost in the dark or something. i guess i feel like i dont know or have a purpose right now, other than improving my trumpet and musicianship that is. but i also feel like i have too many secrets in my life, i feel like i cant act myself around other people, but i also have no one to confide my secrets in, i have good friends, but not ones that i feel i can trust secrets too.
and that concludes my random thoughts post towards a more complete profile.