"It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"
The above quote, sums up things nicely. I have made it a challenge to myself.
I have had a pretty unusual life so far, and my lifestyle is also - pretty unusual.
Things were complicated while I was growing up.
In the end, I've kept my own company for most of my life so far. I am
the original Lone Wolf.
I'm not lonely. But, I am also challenging myself - to prove to myself that I can live amongst people, and love, too. It's been an endless private debate through my life - whether I can or can't do those kinds of things, that most other people do, and which I never seem to have gotten around to.
Some people have judged me, or felt pity for me, because I have very few friends, and even fewer loved ones. At times, I have done the same.
Since then, I have learned. Now, I know better. That how I have lived and continue to live, is a good way to live. That it is not bad, to live outside the bell curve, to be an extreme out-lier. At times - it has been very lonely. At other times, I have been very content and happy this way. I am happy and content now.
However - to stay in one place, unchanging - even a happy and content place, is also - in many ways - to stagnate. I continue to grow and learn and better myself and my understanding of things and the world and people in general.
Change is a good thing.