I HATE BEING MESSAGED ABOUT CYBERING AND HOOK UPS. If all you are looking for is sex or someone to jack off to over webcam, FUCK OFF. Not only is that SOOOOO degrading and rude, it's just plain gross. There is a reason there is so much free porn on the internet, go make use of that.

My name is (message me if you really care to know). I am afraid of rejection. I can't stand stupidity. I can be very shy if I don't know you very well and may seem childish at times. There are a lot of things that I have never done but wish I could. I am afraid of heights and bridges, and as much as I try not to, I am squeamish as well. There are a lot of things about me and my past that I will not tell you unless I 1) deem you trustworthy enough to tell and 2) am comfortable enough with you not to fear your reaction.

I have lived in the Bay Area my whole life. I have a love for the bizarre, and I try to be as original as possible, despite the fact that by this point everything claiming to be original is but a copy of a copy of a copy. But as they say, imitation is the most sincere form of flattery. It takes a while for me to figure out whether or not I can trust people, and sometimes this can come across as cold or disinterested. I'm pretty quiet, I don't go out and party on the weekends (not necessarily by choice, I just don't get invited to things ever) and spend most of my free time with my family or my two cats, Cody and Zoe. I do still live at home, first of all because I would rather focus on getting my life started than trying to make ends meet, but also because I really can't afford living on my own (the only reason I bring it up is because I know that can be a deterrent from... associating with a person I guess). I am easily amused, I can spend hours watching movies or reading. Um, anything else I guess you'll just have to ask me :)

I work part time as a lab technician in a small biotech research firm. I also work part time at an organic frozen yogurt shop. I do some volunteer work, like working as a tutor at the local youth community center, whenever I can find the time to do it. I joined Greenpeace recently. :) Recently I have become very apathetic about school. I find it really hard to care about a lot of things recently, it's like "Why am I here, doing the same thing I have done for the past 12 years when I am young, intelligent, full of life? I could be doing something to change the world or at least my community but instead I am stuck in a classroom, writing essays about stupid shit that doesn't matter or apply to my major, etc.." Unfortunately without a degree it is next to impossible to be considered for a position where one would be taken seriously enough to have enough influence to make change. It's a huge fucking Catch 22, which is something I totally hate.

I will probably take some time off from school to sort out my priorities and then hopefully I will be able to get back into the swing of things. Education is very important to me but if I can't focus I don't want to waste my time and money.

reading, writing, sewing, book making, drawing (at least I think so), singing, costuming, wasting time.

For more info about what I'm wasting my time doing (lol), check out my deviantART, http://xxxsupaelxxx.deviantart.com/

Making people happy. Falling in love.

physically: my eyes I think. or my tattoos (I have stars all the way across my shoulders). or my hair cuz it's weird.
other than that they probably notice that I really do know what I'm talking about when I start talking. I don't half ass or assume I know the answer, if I'm stating it as a fact, 99% of the time it is a fact. The other 1% I'm just honestly mistaken or confused.

Books: Naked Lunch, Lolita, Stiff, In Cold Blood, The Picture of Dorian Grey, Brave New World. Pretty much anything well articulated or with interesting subject matter. Too many to really name here. Just ask me about particulars. I've just recently started reading about the RAF and Baader-Meinhoff trials.. Quite fascinating stuff.
Movies: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, The Fountain, What Dreams May Come, Repo! The Genetic Opera, The Jacket, Downfall, Pan's Labyrinth, Donnie Darko, the list goes on and on...
Music: Wow I can't even begin to explain this one. Techno (most subgenres included), rock (except pop rock... mostly... ok that's a lie), metal to an extent, tons of indie stuff, and even a little hip hop and country (<3 Taylor Swift...). Basically, if it exists, and I have heard it, chances are I probably like it.

1) my iPod
2) a crap-ton of books
3) pencils/pens/colors
4) blank paper
5) my DS Lite and r4 card
6) someone else to talk to

these are going beyond the obvious of:
1) a planet with the ability to sustain life
2) an atmosphere containing approximately 21% oxygen as well as a combination of other gases such as nitrogen, argon, water vapor, carbon dioxide, and other trace gases
3) Water in liquid form
4) Sustainable food source
5) Protection from the elements and/or predators
6) Intelligence :-P

a lot of useless/random information.
"Why DOES the y-intercept always work out to the initial value???" Uh...

band names. My little sister and I are totally gonna start one called AfroBots.

Weird shit that you might never want to hear about.. Thank you, the internet.

what will happen when the current government is overthrown and what can I do to make sure that I survive the aftermath.

why is it that as soon as you think you have life figured out, life throws something at you that you hadn't considered?

at home, reading or sleeping. I know, super exciting, right??

possibly watching a movie with someone.

doing homework that was due sometime in the middle of the week because Procrastination is my middle name.

hanging out with friends, wreaking havoc somewhere.

I've been to the E.R. more than three times. That is quite a lot in my opinion. Anything more private than that shouldn't be posted where everyone can see it or else it wouldn't be private, now would it?

I am way too concerned with being accepted by people and that it makes me indecisive or wishy-washy about some issues since I am afraid of offending someone. In the back of my mind, I know exactly what I believe in and what I stand for but I have a difficult time articulating this to a wider audience.

you are friendly, quirky, looking for a good friend who will stick by you for a long time. Must like large families, pets, and staying at home sometimes.

you know how to make me happy. Or want me to make you happy.

you would like to give me something else to do with my time instead or editing my OKC profile...

you are ok with just being friends.

As I stated above, DON'T MESSAGE ME ABOUT HOOKING UP OR CYBERING. Thank you.