Hello I'm Merissa, i am not your one night stand, i am 21 and I own three ferrets. i dont deal with drama if i dont have to, and i dont put up with most people's bullshit. I really am just kinda looking for friends right now relationships and i obviously dont work out very well and im not ready to get back there. also please no one over 27, no one with kids, and no criminal record, i have 10 piercing six ear lobes, 1 cartilage, 1 belly button, and nipples. i also have 2 tattoos, due for more soon. and i smoke weed. I am currently looking for a steady job, BUT thats hard in this economy so hopefully ill be going to NCC for their computer systems information certification. im not sure... at this point im just kind of living life one day at a time and im trying to be blissfully ignortant because if i keep thinking about things the way that i do i will never do anything.
i am extremely confusing and complex. i love making friends but my anxieties stop me from going out and actually making friends and meeting people. i need someone who is willing to go out of their way and make me meet them or hang out with them, someone who is willing to show up at work just to be sweet or send me flowers. ive never really had one of those and i want romance, i want love, caring, and someone who isnt going to just give up because i have a vast sexual appetite or i cant talk about alot of things i should be able to.

the most basic bio of me i have tht explains me a lil better is:
I am crazy. i am a 21 year old with out a plan, i had a plan, but the plan just wasnt working for me so now i am just rolling with the punches and going where life takes me. i am single, not really looking, but no strings attached is fine. i do miss having the stability of knowing there is most definitely someone there that loves me, but ill live in this uncertainty until i find someone i think is worthy for me to give up this single life for.

I am Merissa. i own three ferrets named antonio, lil girl, and ziggy. i am controversial, i say shit as i see it and i am wicked sarcastic. i am a born n bred east coaster and have a hard time adapting to other parts of the country. we east coast people are rather rude, inconsiderate, stressful, fast paced and fucked in the head. i went to Western michigan university for a semester and found out the hard way that i dont do well away from my inconsiderate people. the slow paced midwest drove me insane, and the fact tht i live in the middle of everything (stores, movies, malls, concert venues) didnt help when i loved in the middle of nothing but cornfields, alcoholics, and rascism. i am not racist, yes i make racist remarks, but i really do just hate everyone. you can speak ur own language and practice ur religions, eat ur food, i dont really care, just dont come to me start talking in ur language and expect a good reaction, its rude and inconsiderate to purposely speak in another language just because you know the people you want to talk shit about dont understand you.

i am very in touch with my music, i need it to relax and to awaken, i also like my tv shows and my movies, but not as much as my music. i have an xbox 360 and my gamertag is xfairyofnightx. i love resident evil. i can play halo, but prefer not to. my netflix is a god send. i used to be heavy, now im not. im working on toning and flattening my belly by doing cardio belly dancing. it works. i like to sing at the top of my lungs in the car with my music blaring, i can scream, but i tend not to if people are listening. i also like to dance when im alone.

i am very sensitive. i have been diagnosed bipolar, but i dont take meds, i toke up instead, but if u push me just right i am prone to taking heads off without thinking twice about it. i wear my heart on my sleeve and i get hurt because of it, but i wouldnt know how else to live without it there. i am a hopeless romantic, and i am viciously loyal. i care too much about things i shouldnt and not enough about things i should. im impatient and can be a wicked bitch. if i like you, ur interesting or we would make friends im a good friend and person to have in ur life, but if you cross me, listen to rumors or play games i am a cut throat and i will make you miserable.

any questions?

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• FreePancakes

Letting it fall apart.

writing, reading, talking myself into corners, taking care of my ferrets.

eyes and body parts.

Books:
off the top of my head' all harry potters, blue is for night mares series, wicked, vampire chronicles, a great and terrible beauty series, trickster Queen and Tricksters Choice, daughters of the moon series, lucky santangelo series, uglies series, REsident evil series, lord of the rings, and the twilight saga etc.
Movies:
off the top of my head; star wars, the women, enchanted, little mermaid, peter pan, finding never land, the tudors, M*A*S*H, X-men, harry potter series, jeepers creepers, ten things i hate about you, never been kissed, grandmas boy, the holiday, last holiday, lord of the rings extended, Bourne series, etc
Music:
off the top of my head; a7X, underoath, silverstein, bless the fall, evanescence, paramore, leona lewis, seether, three days grace, lots of different things
Food:
i dont eat much, but i know i dont eat pork unless its pepperoni pizza or something like that, but i cook alot

my ferrets, writing, sleep, baths, free speech, and weed

What the hell i am actually doing with my life. i thought i knew but now i have no idea.

Nothing.I have no life because i have no car.

im really bad at relationships.

u want to talk, have any questions, or if youre not a whoreish perv