For what is life, but what we tell ourselves to get by? I am a prime example that telling yourself something is working, does not mean, it is fact IS working. Life is a game of cards, but, what would i know about that?

“The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on"
-Chuck Palahniuk

i am more of a fighter than a lover. however, i am in love with love. i fight for my friends, for my family, and for what i believe in. i am a strong opinionated woman. i love movies and music, and am really into all forms of art. i really love to write, anything from poetry to short stories, and am currently working on a novel. all that said, the number one most important things in my life are my children. i suppose i am looking for someone who will treat both them and myself with respect, love, and loyalty.

it's been a long time, i am sad to admit, since i've trusted someone. i am always skeptical of people, and the things they say. not that, you wont think that i don't trust you, for all you'll ever know i trust you just fine. it wont be until you REALLY get to know me, and all my little quirks that you will find who i really am, and i refuse to admit that here.

i have been in many a long relationship and i absolutely LOVE being devoted to someone, as long as they are devoted to me.

I'm a sucker for a cute, funny quirky person. what everyone else finds weird i find endearing.

I am funny, cute, and straight-forward

Trying to put the pieces back together. Up until now i thought myself invincible, but the ongoings of present have been quite humbling...

working on my novel. i really like to go out and be the life of the party, its what im good at, its where i excell.. ive ever met anyone who didnt like me, honestly. i mean im really easy to just BE around, and thats the way i like it.

Seeing something for what i would like it to be, rather than what it really is.

writing, both of my novels are somewhat sexual based. and they are based on two very different women. one, a stay at home mother, who looses love, and then looses her self. and two, a pornography editor, and her detailed account of her OWN sexual history. both are very fun, and both are not nearly done.

loving, ive always wanted love, and both times i thought i had it, it was one sided... i loved a man, and ive loved a woman. and they both ended up leaving me for someone else. but it's all good, i've learned many things from both of them, things that i intend on sharing with the world.

technology, i built my own computer. with help. i love video games, and ipods and basically anything new that i can figure out =]

mario party, i ABSOLUTELY love all mario partys, i would have to say that number 5 is my favorite, but i love number 8 for the wii as well. i have 7 and the one for the DS at home, and i usually battle my roomate at least once a day =]

and making people laugh everyone always laughs with me, or maybe at me... im not sure. but either way i look at each new day as a new performance, and im a lifetime entertainer. i will now, and forever be, the funniest person you know =]

my hair, because its always changing. then my eyes, their brown, but turn gold in the sunlight. my smile comes next, because i am ALWAYS smiling and its hard not to notice, and then my chest, because of not only my tattoo, but they are kinda big i guess. okay, i lied, maybe my chest is first... lmfao

my favorite book is the house of the scorpion by nancy farmer. then the thief of always by clive barker. anything by chuck palahniuk.

my children, food, air, water, holding hands, and paper and pens/pencils.

My life. I would say I'm a realist, often it makes it hard to see the whimsical side is things, especially around the wrong company.

i also love to think about the way people tick, i mean when someone says something, anything, i am probably thinking about what they might say next, or what fueled them to say what they said in the first place.

another thing i think about often, is everything on a microbial level,
bacteria, germs, things like that. and no, i would not call myself a germ freak.

Hiding in my room, lol just kidding. I'll do anything as long as it doesn't hurt too bad. Lmao :)

that i am terrified of alot of things. some i can hide, others i cannot.

you are looking for a new friend :) or have something intelligent to say. I love to text, especially with someone mentally stimulating.