My name is Brianne, but most of my friends call me Bree. I'm currently 20 and this is my first journal entry on this site, I have an account on gaiaonline.com, my user id is True Angel Of Darkness if you wanna look me up on. I have a journal on there too. Well anywho, I decided to write this entry to try and explain myself a little better than in my profile thingy, I'm not realy good at the whole online date sites yet. I tried out the yahoo personals one and it wasn't all that good, but now I'm here so ya. I have a little girl who is 11 months right now, she turns one in December. She is the light of my life and I am trying to start dateing as much for her as I am for me. What I'm looking for is someone who will love me for me and accept all my faults, no matter how minor or severe they may be. Not only that but if it ever gets serious, will love my daughter as if she were his own, and give her the love of a father that she deserves. When it comes to her biological father who I refer to as "sperm donor" he is not in the picture and if I have anything to do with it he never will be. You see, he was very abusive on all levels. I met him in march of 2008, and I have the problem of seeing the good in people. He was realy nice and sweet and I fell for his act. I moved in with him and things were good for a little while, and then he started being a little controlling. It started with having to have sex with him whenever he wanted it however he wanted and I didn't have a choice in the matter. It didn't realy bother me that much, and I figured that in time it would settle down, then he started to get pissed whenever I would talk to any guy, didn't matter who it was, I couldn't talk to anyone without him. It got to the point where I couldn't even talk to my own mother without him listening in on the conversation, or go wver to her house without him. Then it got physical, if I ever said no, or we got into an argument and I tried to leave the room to calm down, or even go to bed before him, he would hit me and slam me against the walls and choke me to the point where I couldn't breath. It wasn't even two weeks after we had found out that I was pregnate when we got into an argument and he choked me and said that if I ever tried to leave him he would beat me untill I lost the baby, beat me untill I died and then kill himself because he couldn't live without me...I didn't get the opertunity to leave him him untill almost a month later. I know this is a lot to just let out for everyone and their dog know, but of you are interested in me you should know. Now he is in jail, unfurtunately I was not the one to put him there, but at least I know where he is and I don't have to worry about him showing up and trying to hurt me or see my little angel. I don't have very many lingering issues because of him anymore, I am perfectly fine when it comes to meeting guys and dateing. There are some issues I have when it comes to sexual things or having somones hands around my throught, but I don't have panic attacks or anything like that. I'm back to my normal self, sort of. I know this might hurt my chances at anyone messinging me, but at least I know that anyone who doesn't message me because of this isn't right for me or my daughter. I'm a realy kind, sweet, loving person, and I just want the best for my daughter, and I will do my best to give that to her. So, if you have read this far and are still interested in me please message me and don't be afraid to ask me any questions, I will do my best to answer them. Thankyou.