This time I'm going for a brutally honest self-assessment. If you are not in the mood to read something heavy, I will give you a moment to click back and go read someone else's profile. I hope you find sunshine and unicorns.
Where to begin...
I'm a rescuer by nature. I go charging in on my noble steed in full battle regalia: polished gold armor with white embellished lions. You see, I grew up with stories of my fighter's blood. On my mother's side, a Cuban Freedom Fighter who helped to liberate Cuba from Spain. On my father's side, a knight for Queen Isabella I of Spain. I grew up with a culture that taught me how to rub elbows with royalty, while fighting the campaigns of war mentally on the battlefields of old. I see a threat, and I charge in to eliminate it. I protect the innocent. I bring peace and order to those who are wronged.
Metaphors and upbringing aside, the biggest problem with this is that I live in a different time and an alien world. The innocents know how to take advantage and I find myself charging in when I am being baited to do so. I will often come to the rescue of those who not only cannot rescue themselves, but are looking to become parasites.
This has lead to many a failed relationship, but I can honestly say that I am stronger for the experience. I know what I need despite my nature. I know what I'm looking for. It boils down to this...
I want a financially independent woman who is ready for a relationship with a dedicated and loyal man who would stick with her through to the end. No matter the circumstances, I'm looking for someone loyal, honest, and dedicated with whom I can spend the rest of my life fighting for and alongside. I want someone who recognizes my worth and appreciates my willingness to be self-sacrificing while also recognizing my need to stand on my own and for who I am.
This translates to something as simple as a woman who is willing to go Dutch every now and then while also appreciating it when I decide to treat. I treat the woman I love like royalty and pull out all the stops to please, sometimes even to my own suffering or detriment. I need someone who understands this and allows me to grow.
I am always looking to better myself and I am ambitious, but my growth happens on my schedule. Someone patient and with a gentle hand would do best at guiding me in the vision that she may have for me while not stomping on my individuality.
I'm looking for a true collaboration, a partnership, and eventually a connection on the deepest level. This can only happen with someone who understands, communicates, and nurtures.
I repay many times in kind. All that you grant me, will be granted to you, and then some. I want happiness, love, and growth for the woman I love and will go out of my way for her cause(s). I need someone who will reign in my exuberance and show me just how far is far enough.
If you can't tell, I'm a very passionate person and I just want happiness. I've searched the world over for her (maybe you) my entire life and I just want to start the next chapter of my life.
Well, I feel I've gotten to the heart of the matter. I will put my masks back on and carry on. Thank you for reading.