I keep having to rewrite this, dialing up and down the sad/angry ratio, just like on my iPod. I used to be a really sad girl, but while I'll always have squishy melancholy insides, my candy shell is sticky cynicism and misanthropy.

I believe that no matter how unhappy you are, if you have a sense of humor about it, you aren't pathetic at all. That's why I love Morrissey.

I am a polyamorous geek groupie with socio-economic angst and a finely tuned attitude problem. I grew up poor and if you didn't I will think you are a spoiled brat (I will also think it's hot if you can fight back when I ask uncomfortable and pointed questions about it). I have a long list of things that don't impress me, and your college degree, good genes, neo-pagan sisterhood, universal acceptance policy and loving family of origin are on it. The short list of things that do impress me probably include your quite well-executed wit and well-rounded life experiences, the kind that don't come from the semesters abroad and outward bound excursions your parents bought you.

I am not moved by the mystical powers of womanhood and I'm consistently disappointed that so many otherwise intelligent chix0rz get all caught up in that racket. Gender-exclusive endeavors are are no more attractive to me than race-exclusive ones, and I sincerely believe that my own personal strength has absolutely zero to do with feminism. Feminism in its current incarnation is a self-esteem stick that liberal arts proponents bludgeon adolecent girls with so that they'll be productive members of society. How about finding that strength within yourself and using your difficult life experiences as steppping stones in self-development. That's fucking strength and independence, kids, not this victimhood sisterhood shit Tori Amos has you all choking down.

I am not religious or new-agey and I don't get much satisfaction out of quality time with those who are. Religion is the opposite of therapy, which you need. Seriously, you do. Your madonna/whore complex called, it wants its sense of righteous indignation back. Yeah, whatever. Your mom.

...becoming memorable to as many people as possible.

I'm also an accountant. No, really.

Emoting. Writing in cursive. Listening. Polyamory. Boggle. Making out. Reading people. Telling stories. Applying eyeliner. Remembering lyrics. Introspection. Being on time. Holding a grudge. Socializing with people with poor social graces.

...physically, my shaking hands, my disheveledness. ...interpersonally, that my entire life is an open book.

a.) I read a lot of non-fiction: Helter Skelter (Vincent Bugliosi), Sybil (Flora Rheta Schreiber), The Bell Jar (Sylvia Plath), One Child (Torey Hayden), The Stranger Beside Me (Ann Rule), A Father's Story (Lionel Dahmer), but I also love Stephen King and Clive Barker and I'm known to pick up occasional erotic or dark horror or Heinlein, naturally.

b.) Fight Club, In the Mouth of Madness, Monster, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Event Horizon, Flatliners, Happiness, Short Bus

c.) Morrissey, Depeche Mode, The Cure, The Magnetic Fields, Travis, Marc Almond, BabyBird, Rialto, Jonathan Coulton, Pulp, Antony & the Johnsons, Casiotone For the Painfully Alone

d.) vegetarian Thai food, white rice, tofurkey, eggie weggies

vices, lovers, fake meat, technology, interpersonal intensity, the socially inept

The past. The nature of longing.

This question used to be about who I wanted to 'trade brains' with, and it was kind of a lame question, but I had a satisfying answer so I'm dismayed that it disappeared. Anyway, I would choose one of my enemies.

"If we could read the secret history of our enemies, we should find in each man's life sorrow and suffering enough to disarm all hostilities." - HWL

My answer to this question used to be "gothing at ManRay or being anti-social, or both," but truthfully said nightclub closed several years ago, and I haven't been social. I play Xbox360 and watch Japanese horror movies and sleep as much as possible.

My greatest fear is loneliness.

You are affectionate, you appreciate introspection and you know yourself (or at least you want to). You will fascinate me and be fascinated by me. You are an honest and open person but you don't need me to be your therapist. You have social grace in a non-traditional way. You don't care about scene credibility. Your lifestyle and attitude are compatible with mine.

Currently I have a career, night school, and two significant others, which, as you can imagine, keeps me rather busy. I do however, maintain the above as the types of people I'd like to know, if and when my life allows for it.