I'm 29 years old and slowly push the big 3-0. Kinda sad really. I originally signed up to this site to communicate with an old girlfriend, but sadly, that didn't pan out the way I had hoped. So, now I'm deciding to add a little bit on to this profile and maybe someone will notice.

I'm terrible meeting girls. Yes, I'm almost 30 and still call women, girls. I debate on that one, but I guess because I am not at a time of my life where I have a real job or any career on the horizon, I don't consider myself the type of person that a female who has those things would look for. I realise I have a "unique" look, that a lot of girls see and they immediatly have an opinion about; which is fine. While if I had the will power and energy, I certianly would change the size of my body, I don't mind that my long hair and silly facial hair turns people away. Like I said, I'm not happy about my weight, but otherwise, I am who I am and hopefully somewhere out there is a person (preferably female...and by preferably, I mean, definitly) who isn't turned away by my looks and hell, maybe they even dig it. I dunno.

Personality wise, I'm all about joking and laughing. Not that I don't have a serious semi-itellectual side, but I'm most known for my sense of humor. I'm not a jolly fat guy who uses my insecurity about my weight as a crutch. My humor is very dry and sarcastic, sometimes downright dark and mean. Again, as with the way I choose to look, it's not something that everyone will be into. Girls lways say they like a guy with a sense of humor, but I've found that most have rarely given me the chance to show them that side of me.

Admittedly, I am a very shy person around strangers. If engaged in conversation I'm not awkward though, as long as the person I'm talking with understands that I don't have much of a filter on my opinions. I'm not stubborn, but I am opinionated. Like I said before, there is an intellectual side to me who will talk about anything from religion or politics. Those are two things that people always say aren't good conversation because of how deeply passionate people can feel about them; but I'm of the mind that if you aren't going to say what is important to you and the other person doesn't get to know what you're all about, then you might as well just be back in high school and dating who you think is "hot." Don't get me wrong, physical attraction is important. I won't even put a caveat on that, because it's a fact.

So basically, after all that crap is said, I best can sum it up with: I'm a multi-layered guy with lots of the usual interests guys have. My sense of humor is my best feature. I look the way I do because it's just an extension of my personality and am hoping to find someone who finds these traits intriguing.

What am I looking for? Who knows. Someone to talk to. Someone to make laugh. Serious? I dunno. Depends. I'm a major work in progress so I don't expect a life changing situation in the very near future. But meeting someone to grow with and the like; that's probably what I'm looking for.

I am introspective, Funny, and even more funny

Not a while lot. Piecing it together slowly. Just trying to maintain my edge without becoming so cynical that I hate life and everything and everyone in it.

Making people laugh. skills wise? was an avid photographer till I realised I couldn't afford to do it. Love doing radio, looking for a chance to do it for real one day

My hair and my size. I'm a big guy, both height and weight. The latter is something I've dealt with for a while and lately has been a really bad source of (lack of) confidence.

My hair because even at the near ripe ol' age of 29 my long locks still hold a lot of meaning to me to represent my individuality no matter how much better I would fit into "reality" better without it. It's mostly been blonde for 4+ years, the degree varies, but i try and take care of it unlike most guys with long dirty, greasy hair.

Books, right now, I actually have one. It's "A Lion's Tale" by Chris Jericho that documents his journeys throughout his teens-20's trying to become a professional wrestler. It's a very funny and inspirational book. I rarely read cause my dyslexia makes it tough to sit through a book, but this one was amazing.

Movies? Kevin Smith movies (Mallrats, Clerks 2, Clerks,Ocean's movies are fun(11, 12, & 13) are all good ones. Love a lot of brad Pitt (Fight Club tops the list for him) flicks as well as Edward Norton (Rounders tops the list, with Fight Club behind it). Also am a Tarentino mark. I'll take Pulp Fiction over 99% of movies ever. Oh, and Matt Damon is pretty damn good too.

Food? simple stuff. Mostly bland. I have the taste buds of a 10 year old.

sadly, right now:

My Laptop
An internet Connection
A Car
My XM Radio
My Friends
Cigarettes

Life, love and the pursuit of happiness. No seriously, just about myself and my place in the world; constantly conflicted on whether I need to be more of an individual or "grow up" as they say and conform. Things I could do differently and things that would make me happy and to what lengths and depths do i need to achieve those things.

Either at a wrestling show or just flipping around the TV or catching up on old TiVO'd material. I'm not a big club person. I enjoy small parties with people I know and have been known to travel a few hours and spend weekends doing just that. It all depends. I'm not the same kid who could go away for 3 or 4 days come back and be ready to go a day or two later anymore.

I can be an emotional roller coaster. It's been said too be bi-polar and some doctors have said it's not. I try to put my heart into whatever I do, and a lot of times doing that gets me hurt, even if it's no one's fault but my own

Personally, I'm changing this question to: "You should NOT message me if:"

If you don't like someone with a checkered past. If you don't want someone who is honest and who isn't afraid to show their (in my case) mental scars. I'm not a sugar daddy, and have basically no money right now and live day to day. If you can't handle those things, then don't bother. I'm not here to save anyone or looking to be saved.

Oh, and a dude. No offense, but I've met plenty of male friends in my life. No offense, and if you bring a cool story or sumpthin to the table, then you can try, just not looking for many dudes in my life.