It has been a long time since I wrote this, and it is time to rewrite it.

I'm in a room. The colors of the walls keep changing to the color of my emotions. There is a dining table in the room, there is food on it. I get a little closer, the smell of meat reaches my nostrils, I sit down to eat.

The meal is most enjoyable, the walls are turning to a light purple. The glass of red wine is slowly disappearing into my mind. I take a moment to ponder over a painting that is covering one of the walls, one of my favorites, Louis Royo. The woman in the picture is seductive, and I feel like she wants me to get up, so I do. I walk towards the painting with a clear mind.

The painting is gone, there is a door behind it. I open the door cautiously and peek inside. There she, standing behind it flesh and blood, holding hands with Lionne, my love. I smile at them, they smile back, a soft giggle escaping their lips. They turn to face each other and kiss. I walk towards them and hold them both in my arms, one on each shoulder, giving them both the love they need, the love of a man. They kiss me on the cheek, a warm loving kiss, and move on to leave through the door I came through.
The dream is over, my dream of polyfidelity.

I am alone, in a garden, the garden of my life. I walk down my road of career. I get bored quickly, it is only work, I do it because it needs doing. I take a left turn into my creativity, this is a much better place to be in.

I can see games, games I designed, played by numerous people of different ages. I see a half finished story being acted out on a stage, suddenly ending as there is no ending. Three young women are standing on a bridge.
"Twisting turning
Flipping over
All night long" One says with delight as the other continues.
"Taking right
And left again
Restless days
Restless days!" The last word coming out with poetic beauty.
And the third one maintains:
"Followed truth
To solve a case
Open up a brand
New space
Busy
Busy is your job"
I love that poem, I love writing poetry.

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• Kotodateru

I most often hear the phrase: "So, what do you do?"
And then I usually hear an answer on the lines of "I'm work as a secretary in a lawyer's office" or "I'm currently a student and work as a waitress".

Is that really what people do?

I do not.
I think. I create. I explore.

Logic and creativity. Yes most people think those don't come together but they do. I Like creating things and I like being innovative but I do it in a logical manner, I understand things and create them in an (hopefully) appealing way.

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• Kotodateru

It all depends on the observer.

They may notice I have piercings, or that I am overweight.
They could notice my head is shaved or that my skin is tanned.
They might notice I have rolling laughter, that gets people to join me.
Depending on the situation they might notice I am bright, or creative.
And if someone looks at me in an odd way, they might notice my distress.

I hope you notice I am a person that can love, and love a lot.

Devil's Advocate, Labyrinth, Princess Bride, Fight Club, Matrix, Lord of the Rings, Daywatch, Nightwatch, Memento, Le Grand Bleu.
Ender's Game (along with all the sequels), A door into summer] (and everything else by Heinlein I've read), Ringworld, Discworld, Neverwhere, Broken Wings, Risen Empire, Killing of Worlds .
I listen mainly to Gothic Metal, but I have a wider taste than a category. Flowing Tears, After forever, Therion, Within Temptation, Sonata Arctica, Kamelot, Epica, Blind Guardian.
Gourmet, sushi, and anything else that's well made.

Editors

• Kotodateru

In no particular order:
Mind
Independence
Body
Intimacy
Creation
and the people I love

Inventions of mine, from small to groundbreaking.

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• Kotodateru

I prefer not to go out on a Friday night, I dislike the masses.
You would most likely catch me at home or with friends playing various board games likes Carcassonne, Citadels, Pandemic and Agricula.

When I'm alone with loved ones, I sing out of key.

You care to talk to an interesting open-minded person, and if you're likewise an interesting open-minded person.