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My self-summary
(I'm not perpetually "Online Now." The phone app never actually logs itself out.)

I'm new to dating; like, actually new. I'll say dumb things therefore because apparently talking to real people isn't the same as talking to myself.... Baby, you've got to be more discerning.

I enjoy milk dispersing into coffee, history, late nights and good books, tasty food, half-filled notebooks, scarves, anti-bad-spelling-club, mockery, perfect symmetry.

I do not speak as I think, I do not think as I should, and so it all goes on in helpless darkness.
— Franz Kafka
What I’m doing with my life
anxiety yo.
I have a consulting firm.

also HAHAHAHAHAHAH what a dork.

I'm thinking of moving to the west coast. Seattle or Portland. Somewhere bike friendly.

Bret Easton Ellis understood. He talked about "my own isolation and alienation at a point in my life. I was living like Patrick Bateman. I was slipping into a consumerist kind of void that was supposed to give me confidence and make me feel good about myself but just made me feel worse and worse and worse about myself"

That's exactly how I was. Isolated. I would buy things and eat nice food in an attempt to fill myself with comfort.

I feel like I'm growing now, but it's mostly stumbling around. I've decided to face reality and live the rest of my 20's properly (in conformity?) and still come away with enough to call it my 20's. Harm reduction?

I should accept the loss of my 18-25 demographic. Move far away and explore. Make a new home in a little apartment. Stay away from university and student housing. Work odd jobs out in the wild. Drop the pretense of academia. Take a break from that which I was never an authentic member of but sorely miss.

I won't be moving until summer's end, but I'm beginning to dread the inescapable shift. I'm sitting here in the fifth floor lounge on one of the new dorms. It's quiet here. I spread my things and play pretend. I'll read into the night as if in a gigantic version of the graduate cubicle that I never had a chance to get. When the young students come in, I'd like to think I'm one of them. I wonder if any of them suspect me for a squatter. Do they sense the incongruity of my demeanor? That apprehensive enthusiasm tourists reek of. Or maybe I just look around too much. I like to take a little glimpse often to reassure myself of where I am. Perhaps its actually the way my face looks every time I do. The abrupt metamorphosis between awe and anguish.

edit 2012
Ok I'll settle for a terrestrial job, my health ain't gettin any better..

I'm studying computer engineering. I want to work at NASA one day and go to space with my Beagle; you can come too :D That's my goal in life.
I’m really good at
Imagining things.
Talking a LOT.
Sleep & wake marathons.
Tasting beer.
The first things people usually notice about me
They have to notice me.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
reading now:
Godel Escher Bach
Hikari Murakami
Sophie's World
Banana Yoshimoto
Miranda July
This Jealous Earth
Lars Iyer
Wool (Hugh Howey)
Neil Gaiman

movies I would watch again
2001: A Space Odyssey
Willem Dafoe & Ryan Gosling
Moon, Coriolanus, Robocop 2 please nuke me please, Spirited Away, Melancholia, WALL-E, Safety Not Guaranteed, Survive Style 5+, Forrest Gump, Collateral, Star Wars, The Future, American Psycho, 28 Days Later, The Silence Of The Lambs, Oldboy, Elephant, The Shining

The Simpsons
Arrested Development

music on rotation:
minecraft all day long.
Taylor Swift better recognize.
That dubstep guy, Tegan and Sara, Rilo Kiley, Janet Jackson/1986, Com Truise, La Roux, Daft Punk, Fleet Foxes, Spoon, The Black Keys, Alabama Shakes, Matt & Kim, alt-J, Feist, Goldfrapp, Royksopp, The Civil Wars, Hot Chip

squid ravioli in a lemon grass broth with goat cheese profiteroles
swordfish meatloaf with onion marmalade
rare roasted partridge breast in raspberry coulis with a sorrel timbale
grilled free-range rabbit with herbed french fries
greens & vinaigrette
smoked salmon; DIY gravlax; salmon anything
eggs & thick cut bacon
new england clam chowder in a bread bowl.
wood-fired brick oven pizza
real burgers
rosemary-basil tomato soup
hot wings
Swedish fish is the only candy I ever eat
shrimp scampi
Campbell's soup in a Can-tainer on a snowy morning school bus ride about 15 years ago.
Six things I could never do without
my Beagle
music on-the-go
pen & pad
fast lens
soda pop
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Random things from bygone times. Most notably stuff from 1998-2002- best time ever. How to cook gourmet stuff. How to stay young.

Mmm. I'd often fantasize about hanging out at a soda shop with a partner and sip on milkshakes and then we'd get into a '65 Thunderbird convertible and roll into a drive-in theater that's already halfway into Star Wars IV. lol.

How to become an astronaut.
It probably has something to do with how I can never settle for what I can do; always bent on ignoring the reality of what I'm actually capable of but instead I'd be looking up at the stars, reminiscing about the sweet sweet Apollo days and how my only victory in life will be to take America back to that kind of glory.

Sideways Stories from Wayside School
On a typical Friday night I am
either at the library or at a bar. If I'm at the library I'll have a hip flask and if I'm at a bar I'm probably reading...go figure.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
If I'm watching a on a great movie, book or song I would frequently "overload" with feelings so that I have to pause and take a breath lest I suddenly die from said feelings. Some books and movies I have left off long ago and never finished because they're so good I don't EVER want to finish.

I'm bipolar and neurotic, but I'm pretty caring so I guess that makes up for it.
You should message me if
YOU IS A HIPSTER WANNA GET FAMOUS or really open minded.

Don't. You're an intelligent and interesting cutie pie. Go find someone tall and dapper.
The two of us