69lovelorn
27 Kuching, Malaysia
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My self-summary
i'm a laid back, straight-acting & closeted fella . where i'm from, society highly frown upon people who are different from the stereotype *normal*. most of the people i know of either dislike, refused to associate and for many disgusted with people who are *out*. and because of that i've been building walls and shutting my heart to everyone because it's easier to isolate and be alone than to be exposed to anyone who may hurt or harm. an observer in life who fades to the background doing the supportive role, someone who wears his heart on the sleeve and have it smashed to smithereens, been burned and became jaded many times in the dark. hopeless romantic who enjoy the little things in life. empathic in nature with a listening ear. would help another soul in trouble to forget my own. listen to my favourite tunes on my iPod while baking away. a foodie. a pluviophile & chrysalism; also love the scent of freshly cut grass and of petrichor :) somewhat quixotic. a victim of hyperthyroidism :( an INFP.

“Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.” — Leonardo da Vinci

would love to experience many things in life that i've missed the chance or haven't been able to. for example, i've never build a sandcastle before, never been kiss (i hope that my first kiss would be unforgettable as if i've been saving it for someone special) nor have the privilege of knowing my grandparents's lives or that they have any family recipes/traditions that i can learn from. i would love to experience the small things in life that often; most people take for granted, which normally meant a lot to me; even though sometimes it may seems silly to others.

intrigued in surfing waves in the beach but there isn't waves big enough to surf here; only skimboard at best. often dreamt of making different kinds of coffee origins rooted from different type of beans; like a barista could, to mixing different potent drinks as a bartender would. or that I would be a great DJ in the booth mixing and spinning for clubs to dance the night away.

“The little things are infinitely the most important. “
— Arthur Conan Doyle

it takes a fair amount of time for me to warm up to someone new, but when i'm comfortable with someone there's no telling what degree of friendliness i may display. so if you're someone who patient and genuinely looking for a relationship. write me up.

“I have just three things to teach: simplicity, patience, compassion. These three are your greatest treasures.” — Lao Tzu
What I’m doing with my life
aside from searching for a love, seeking true friends whom i can share my life with and laugh wholeheartedly without prejudice & discrimation. forming strong, healthy relationships that are real and not based on temporary causes, hidden agendas, drama filled, broken promises or otherwise. guess I shall just allow the right people to come in my life when they're ready or willingly be part of.

figuring out the next step in my life, just as art imitates life and vice-versa, a debate that has been on-going for a long time. spending time wondering how we may be insignificant in this world, but like a water droplet returning to the pool of water, it resonate and creates waves that impact. we can choose to either be a droplet or a body of stagnant water.
I’m really good at
singing, baking, photography (not at myself), listening when someone needs an ear or shoulder
The first things people usually notice about me
i do not know what people notice, but someone once told me that i'm gentle in nature.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
books: more of a movie person. but once in a while a thriller/suspense/mystery/horror fiction genre, the Good Book. have been thinking of getting romance genre but i always resisted the impulse whenever i walk by that aisle. Quotes, poems are something I like a lot too.

movies: mostly comedy/romance/musical (Les Miserables, Joyful Noise, Rags, Pitch Perfect 1 & 2, The Sound of Music, White Chicks, Sister Act, The Ugly Truth, Bridesmaids, Bride Wars, 27 Dresses, The Devil Wears Prada, Armageddon, Monte Carlo, Never Been Kissed, Princess Diaries, Love, Rosie, A Walk to Remember, The Notebook, The Vow, P.S. I Love You, Kung Fu Panda, Shrek, Beverly Hills Ninja, Wall-E). once in awhile thriller/horror, suspense/action/adventure (Fast & Furious, The Conjuring, The Mummy Trilogy, 21, Bourne Trilogy, HP, Charlie's Angels, Gladiator, Indiana Jones, Pirates of the Caribbean, Rush Hour Trilogy, Transformers)

shows: animes! (Kimi no Todoke, Itazura na Kiss, Toradora!, Gosick, Zero no Tsukaima, 07-Ghost, Bleach, Trinity Blood, Gintama, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!, Saiunkoku Monogatari, Ouran High School Host Club, Kuroko no Basuke, Free! - Iwatobi Swim Club, Avatar the Last Airbender + The Legend of Korra, and of course Sekaiichi Hatsukoi, Junjou Romantic) just to name a few.
series like (Supernatural, True Blood, Charmed, Dark Angel, Mr Bean, Glee, Victorious, Desperate Housewives, Fantaghiro: The Cave of The Golden Rose, Noah's Arc, Queer As Folk) :been meaning to watch Game of Thrones, American Horror Story that seem to be highly rated, but have yet to begin:

music: a wide variety: Emeli Sande, Cherish, Sweet Talk Radio, Kelsea Ballerini, Corrine Bailey Rae, Alessia Cara, Lil Eddie, Ginuwine, Usher, Zaho, Maroon 5, Sean Paul, Joseph Vincent, Tyler Ward, Boyce Avenue, Utada Hikaru, Lana Del Rey, Enya, Macy Gray, Stacie Orrico, Adele, Josh Groban, Andre Bocelli, Tina Turner, Stevie Wonder, Harry Belafonte, The Temptations, The Beatles, Steadman, Charice, Priscilla Ahn, Angela Aki, Michelle Branch, Kelly Clarkson, Dami Im, Jojo, Natasha Bedingfield, Chantal Kreviazuk, Jordin Sparks, Coldplay, MLTR, S Club 7, M2M, Loreena McKenitt, Natalie Imbruglia, Dido, Celine Dion, Beyoncé Knowles, Whitney Houston, Christina Aguilera, Nicole Scherzinger, Lady Gaga, Shakira, Ricky Martin, Enrique Iglesias, Justin Timberlake, Sam Smith, John Legend, Michael Jackson, Smash Mouth, Sugar Ray, Pink, G.R.L, Switchfoot, Coldplay, Incubus, Linkin Park, Avicii, Timbaland, Flo Rida, Jason Derulo, Nico & Vinz, Timaya, Craig David, Sara Bareilles, Ellie Goulding, Spice Girls, The Corrs, Ladysmith Black Mambazo, Banks, Troye Sivan, Hozier, Oh Wonder, Jaymes Young, Imotep Heap, Mecca Kalani, Cher, Gabrielle, Bessie Smith, Louis Armstrong, Ella Fitzgerald, Stevie Wonder, Ornette Coleman, Voctave, Libera, 2Cellos, Thomas J. Bergersen (Two Steps From Hell), Kitaro, Yiruma, Erik Satie, Chopin, Vivaldi, Lindsey Stirling, Pentatonix, Madilyn Bailey, Jona Selle, Arlene Zelina, Birdy, Clara, Kina Grannis, Zack Knight, Syesha Mercado, Brooke Fraser, Fujita Maiko, KOKIA, 曲婉婷, Chris August, Beckah Shae, Skillet, Yuna Ito, a touch of oldies from late 60s, 70s & 80s, also classical artists from Baroque, Classical, Romantic era till now.

i should say that i have a strong attraction towards vocals and stringed instruments; such as guitar, bass, violin, cello, viola, sape, erhu, pipa, guzheng, koto also flute, and piano. in the voice/hands of a prodigy, can they draw out its full potential and evoke deep & powerful emotions when they solo or form in groups. Grew up listening to pop & rock music but am influenced by much R&B/Soul as well and trying to pick up jazz, blues & ballad on the way.

food: japanese, greek, italian, dark chocolates, matcha, cold desserts & pastries
The six things I could never do without
God
true friends
music
scrumptious food
soul mate (when i find him) :3
I spend a lot of time thinking about
my future, good food, baking/creating food, my significant soulmate
On a typical Friday night I am
home baking, or surfing for recipes. searching music/movies/animes etc to curl up to. occasionally to hang out
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
afraid of falling head over heels over someone and will likely be bashful to tsundere towards the one i like (both to friend and lover)

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
― Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones
You should message me if
First to all who successfully read it to the end; i, thank you for bearing with me. should have similar interests or would like to be friends. after all, every relationship starts with friendship. someone who genuinely seek to have a relationship or is searching for their soul mate. Drop me a message if you're interested to know me or would like to be friends. To all who've liked my profile; i, thank you but i can't reply/view who you are since I'm not a premium user.

“It is not the length of life, but the depth.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

preferably someone who's masculine and mature (not necessarily in terms of age), one that possess the qualities of a good man. taller than my height or same height & love cuddling! if you have a deep voice, that's another bonus! <3 someone who hate to see another in pain, and would do anything to protect/ease their suffering. a person who would tease you, try his best to make you laugh even if it makes him looks silly and would not let you go when you are down. :)

“It takes courage to love, but pain through love is the purifying fire which those who love generously know. We all know people who are so much afraid of pain that they shut themselves up like clams in a shell and, giving out nothing, receive nothing and therefore shrink until life is a mere living death.”
― Eleanor Roosevelt
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