Discovering my sexuality and what I want from a relationship/relationships, has been a strange and challenging journey. And after 23 years I’m finally starting to figure it out. Definitely not something that I can describe with one single identity, plus it is constantly changing. Thats whats cool about your sexuality, you define it yourself not any person or label.
Graysexual/Demisexual - I occasionally experience sexual attraction, but my interest in sex just isn’t as high as most other people. But I still enjoy intimacy; kissing, cuddling, massages.
Panromantic/Lesbian - I can be romantically attracted to all genders, but I am only sexuality attracted to women.
Polyamorous - I’ve never been in an open relationship, and I am not necessarily looking for multiple partners, but I’ve recently realized that societies standards of monogamy might not be meant for me. I want relationships with my own set of expectations and needs filled.
Genderfluid/Non-binary - Everyone experiences gender differently. My experience with gender is different everyday, somedays I feel more feminine, somedays more masculine, somedays a bit of both, and somedays neither.
These are all parts of myself and my identity that I am still discovering and learning more about every single day. At the moment I am mostly interested in friendships and platonic romantic relationships that could possibly lead to more, it just depends.
I want to meet someone that makes me feel the way music does. I want to wake someone up with breakfast and cuddles in bed. I want to grow a garden with someone. I want to travel the world with someone. I want to read someone books/poems until they fall asleep, and someone who will do the same for me. I want to take someone on adorable dates such as bowling and putt-putt golf. I want someone to spend all day laying in bed with watching anime, horror movies, and doctor who. I want someone to collect moments with as well as stones and crystals. I want someone to share my most unexplainable thoughts with. I want to surprise someone with nice warm baths prepared with candles and rose peddles. I want to bring out the best in someone. I want to love someone unconditionally. I want to be the ying to someones yang, the person who keeps them balanced. I want someone to meditate and raise cat children with. I want someone who can accept that I enjoy my alone time. I want someone who will play/brush with my hair and give me back massages. I want someone to share and experience new things with. I want to spoil someone ratten with meaningful gifts only they would understand. I want someone I can learn from, a relationship where we are constantly expanding each others minds and knowledge. I want to help someone achieve their dreams. I want someone to go on random camping and hiking adventures with. I want someone who wont give up on me or our relationship when we’re dealing with a hard time even if it’s the easy thing to do. I want someone that can handle my random waves of depression and anxiety. I want someone that can appreciate all music. I want someone I can take to shows and introduce to new music. I want someone to make art and create new things with. I want someone to build a life and future with. The wanting comes in waves.
Besides that my life mainly consists of: playing drums, cooking a lot and experimenting with new recipes, making colorful hemp jewelry, taking care of my shiba inu puppy named Mochi, occasionally booking bands for the Rockin Tomato, reading, exploring, and researching random topics I find interesting on the internet.
Books: Running With Scissors, Looking for Alaska, The Art of Asking, The Alchemist, Into The Wild, Room, Perks of Being a Wallflower, Game of Thrones Series, This is Your Brain on Music, Girl Interrupted, The Doors of Perception, On The Road, The God Delusion, The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo Series, Everything is Illuminated, Collected Poems by Allen Ginsberg, The Time Travelers Wife, Brave New World, and any music related book or comic I can get my hands on.
Shows: Adventure Time, Steven Universe, Girls, 30 Rock, Sword Art Online, American Horror Story, Daria, Doctor Who, The Walking Dead, True Blood, Game of Thrones, Fullmetal Alchemist, Orphan Black, Breaking Bad, Lost Girl, King of the Hill, Orange is the New Black, Death Note, Mushi-Shi, Eden of the East, Elfen Lied, Witchblade.
Movies: Spirited Away (or anything Studio Ghibli), The Evil Dead, Kill Bill, Psycho, The Shinning, Silence of the Lambs, Nightmare on Elm Street, Donnie Darko, Pulp Fiction, The Fifth Element, Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind, Being John Malkovich, The Science of Sleep, Pan's Labyrinth, Wayne's World, SLC Punk, V for Vendetta, A Clockwork Orange, Amelie, Scott Pilgrim vs The World, Room, The Skin I Live In, Black Swan, Cry Baby, Citizen Kane, and Taxi Driver.
And if not any of those, just playing video games/binge watching Netflix sounds like an ideal date.
You're interested in being friends before anything. And wouldn't mind being patient with me to very slowly warm up to physical contact with you.