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My self-summary
Preliminary information: I can't see who likes me, so just message me if you do :P On to more important stuff..

"I'm kind of a misanthrope. Not a choice, just a fact"

- The Art of Getting By -

A quotation for every occasion, that's me..I don't get along very well with people in general. I can, if I want to, but what's the point of putting on a different mask depending on who you meet? Given that the real me is rather complicated and/or broken it narrows down the choice of potential soulmates.
What I’m doing with my life
Still trying to figure that one out. So far things I did have only ever made sense to me when I had someone meaningful to me to share them with. Sort of fixated on relationships.

But in general: giving lessons in Mathematics, English and supervising Badminton courses at the university.
I’m really good at
Logic. Abstract thought. Understanding problems and, up to a certain degree, people. Badminton (well, good enough to know that I'll never be good at it). Interacting with animals.
The first things people usually notice about me
It seems like I look angry when I'm sad. Given my natural state of mind which, due to the awesome fun I have living among this wonderful bunch of friendly fellow human beings, is depressed, I might be giving off the wrong signals. Just as a clarification: never intentionally harmed anyone and almost definitely won't start it anytime soon.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Friedrich Nietzsche, Spiel der Götter, The Astonishing Adventures of Fanboy and Gothgirl, Schlafes Bruder, Wheel of Time, Die Einsamkeit der Primzahlen, Das Silmarillion, Terry Pratchett, Good Omens

Klass, The Art of Getting By, White Oleander, Girl Interrupted, Chronicle, Angel Beats!, Butterfly Effect (especially the alternate ending), Fight Club, Fullmetal Alchemist

The Newsroom (!), Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother, Breaking Bad, Kyle XY, Malcolm in the Middle, Doctor Who, Babylon 5, Scrubs, Dr. House, Death Note

Songs with meaning and/or feeling. Songs which move, touch, hurt and reflect me. More often than not Metal/Rock or piano music, both classical and modern ballads. A few selections:
Placebo, Shinedown, Annett Louisan, Silbermond, Stone Sour, Subway to Sally, Schandmaul, Nightwish, Within Temptation, The Rasmus, 3 Doors Down, Savage Garden, Seether, Reamonn, Meatloaf, Mest, Flyleaf, Phil Collins, Bryan Adams, Plumb, VNV Nation, Curse, Jason Walker

Lots of things...barbecue, potato pancakes, pizza, casseroles, chips, crisps, sushi, sandwiches, salads, ..
The six things I could never do without
- PC
- Animals
- Music
- Books
- Sport
- My soulmate, which, given my continued existence, I'm proving wrong
I spend a lot of time thinking about
The relationship between myself and mankind in general, fleeting individual contacts in particular. The fact that we all carry our prisons with us and I built mine rather sturdy.
On a typical Friday night I am
Sitting at home, listening to music, watching a movie/series or playing some games and drinking. Pretty sexy routine, I know. Honesty, one of my worst faults.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I strongly doubt that any of you will truly understand me.
You should message me if
You feel more alone in company than when being alone and/or enjoy these quotations:

"Are you the one?
Who's love is like a flower that needs rain
To wash away the feeling of pain
Which sometimes can lead to the chain of fear"

- Within Tempation -

"I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. You hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside."

- Girl, interrupted -

"Alkohol und Rauschgifte sind nie die Antwort. Sie helfen nur, die Fragen zu vergessen"

- Willy Meurer -

Ich bin ein Stern am Firmament,
Der die Welt betrachtet, die Welt verachtet,
Und in der eignen Glut verbrennt.

Ich bin das Meer, das nächtens stürmt,
Das klagende Meer, das opferschwer
Zu alten Sünden neue türmt.

Ich bin von Eurer Welt verbannt
Vom Stolz erzogen, vom Stolz belogen,
Ich bin der König ohne Land.

Ich bin die stumme Leidenschaft,
Im Haus ohne Herd, im Krieg ohne Schwert,
Und krank an meiner eigen Kraft.

- Hermann Hesse -

‎"...ich kann all diese Freuden, die mir ja erreichbar wären und um die tausend andre sich mühen und drängen, nicht verstehen, nicht teilen. Und was hingegen mir in meinen seltnen Freudenstunden geschieht, was für mich Wonne, Erlebnis, Ekstase und Erhebung ist, das kennt und sucht und liebt die Welt höchstens in Dichtungen, im Leben findet sie es verrückt. Und in der Tat, wenn die Welt recht hat, wenn diese Musik in den Cafés, diese Massenvergnügungen, diese amerikanischen, mit so wenig zufriedenen Menschen recht haben, dann habe ich unrecht, dann bin ich verrückt, dann bin ich wirklich der Steppenwolf, den ich mich oft nannte, das in eine fremde und unverständliche Welt verirrte Tier, das seine Heimat, Luft und Nahrung nicht mehr findet."

- Hermann Hesse -

"Loneliness is the human condition. Noone is ever going to fill that space"

- White Oleander"

Some say the world will end in fire;
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

- Robert Frost

Der Tod findet seinen tieferen Sinn in der Sinnlosigkeit des Lebens .

- Peter Rudl -

What sin did I commit
to deserve being alone?
With my wrists being slit,
I whisper: all I longed for was home.

- Meine Wenigkeit -

"Wenn du vor mir stehst und mich ansiehst, was weißt du von den Schmerzen, die in mir sind und was weiß ich von deinen? Und wenn ich mich vor dir niederwerfen würde und weinen und erzählen, was wüsstest du mehr von mir als von der Hölle, wenn dir jemand erzählt, sie ist heiß und fürchterlich. Schon darum sollten wir Menschen voreinander so ehrfürchtig, so nachdenklich stehen, wie vor dem Eingang zur Hölle."

- Kafka -

"Still wanna compare fucked up families?"

- Garden State -

"Mangel an Vertraulichkeit unter Freunden ist ein Fehler, der nicht gerügt werden kann, ohne unheilbar zu werden"

- Friedrich Nietzsche -

They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats.

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.

- Philip Larkin, This Be The Verse -

"I spent my life learning to feel less. Every day I felt less. Is that growing old? Or is it something worse? You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness."

- Jonathan Safran Foer -

"Man verdirbt einen Jüngling am sichersten,wenn man ihn verleitet, den Gleichdenkenden höher zu achten als den Andersdenkenden."

- Friedrich Nietzsche -

"I can't afford to let myself feel good, to let my guard down, to think for a single moment that I belong. Because I don't."

-The Astonishing Adventures Of Fanboy And Gothgirl, Barry Liga-