I believe in the integrity of being. I feel that if you need to escape life through faith, magic, sex, or drugs that you are missing something essential, and I am not interested in filling up the holes in your life.
We are ALL connected. Filling in the missing pieces of each other only works if every person is willing to become healthy for our collective. As long as there are people in the world with diseased minds, we will suffer when we allow ourselves to give in to the downward pull.
I want you to live near me. Like within a couple miles of downtown proximity. I know there are thousands of amazing people who live miles and miles away from me, but I don't like to travel more then necessary. I know too many married couples and too many crazy bazonkers college age peeps. The couples are too busy sinking into each other and the bazonker peeps are too into fucking random objects.
Something in the middle would be most excellent. People who want to form lasting relationships and go on adventures and take over cities would be perfect.
*yawn* now that I have that out of the way, let me babble on a while about myself like a self-absorbed jackass.
Mostly I am here hoping to find other artists and creatives who want to hang out a lot and work on projects together. It could just be being productive around each other and enjoying conversation, it doesn't have to be collaborations per se...
I have been trying to be careful about who I spend my time around because I don't think its a bad thing to be picky about that sort of thing. Once you let someone into your life, it can change everything for better or worse. I am dedicated to doing the hard things in life to be happy, so why not find others who resonate with that?
I no longer like the term "everything in moderation, including moderation."
I am creative, calm, and curious
yes, that is me in the black outfit with the ray gun.
and stuff like this:
The girl in this video is not me, I just did the modification to the Nathaniel's violin.
That is what I do.
I am a dimension traveler. I have lived bits of many lives across time and space, although mostly I stick to the Earths in parallel worlds because it is a relatively nice place in the grand scheme of things. Fairly predictable planet, somewhat stable so far. Anyways, I go around and check out art and fashion in other places and I bring those ideas with me to worlds that lack them.
I used to need tools to do this traveling, but after doing it for years, I fell into some sort of awakening event and now I drift dimensionally on a day to day basis. Makes it hard for Chords to form, so I've been a bit diaphanous lately. I think I am looking for something solid to keep my interest that I can truly believe in because there are so few constants when it comes to this sort of life.
I see consciousness itself as layers of metaphor piled on top of each other, so on some level... everything we can imagine has an essential truth to it. We just need to find the proper lenses to see the world by.
I hyperbolize on occasion.
I suppose you could say I am good at it.
I have achieved some fairly astounding states of being through meditation from time to time, so I suppose that is a kind of success.
Coping. Very little breaks me down. I once went 3 weeks without sleep and entered into a fully hallucinogenic psychotic/manic state for about 2 months after. It took a while for people to notice. I was able to put up with a lot and still go about my business.
I probably shouldn't have mentioned this, since it was a rare one time only thing... and its not like I am planning on ever doing that again. It was quite an interesting experience, but contrary to what it may seem like in my profile, I am a pretty big fan of lucidity. I call her Miss Lucidity and we lunch every so often.
But I am not kidding when I say I am honest. (haha did you see what I just did there!?) I believe that trying to impress people too much is a sign of insecurity. I mean, I know I am impressive in some ways... but I'm also an awkward dork sometimes so why not just get it up on the table? You can't connect with someone if they are being shifty about it. Social cues change from world to world so much, I have found it easier to just sit back and observe people for a while before trying to interact.
To any gangsters or sky pirates named Shifty, I am so sorry... but it is not meant to be.
No, my style is not meant to be taken as a serious dark comment on the nature of life or any pretentious BS like that. I just like being unique, and I make or alter a lot of my own clothes toward this end.
Many call what I do Steampunk, although I feel less attached to that term than a lot of people. I simply don't like to label things, in all honesty, because I fear that identifying yourself with a label tends to drive your thought patterns into dogma.
I am always searching for a specific something, I haven't quite found it... but I can feel it out there pulling me. I don't want to lose track of it because of labels.
This something is...
Its sort of like when you have a word on the tip of your tongue... you can feel the word in your head and you just can't speak it. This thing is just like that, except replace your tongue with your soul and your head with a fractal the size of the universe named Synthia. Divide by 3, carry the remainder. Lather, rinse, repeat. f o r e v e r. GOTO LINE10
Its either that or some nanomachines. Either way, I'm good.
Dada meaning father-like, the way Darth Vader is the Father of Han Solo. Zen meaning nonsense, and koan meaning orange traffic cones as seen under car tires on Real Stories of the Hiway Patrol (as seen on TV). TV in this case referring to the psychic network used by the Bee People to slowly take over the world.
its a living.
The Tao Te Ching is one of the few things I like to reread. I like coffeetable books of strange subjects. Like the REsearch books, or the Big Book of... series. Art and travel books, for inspiration. Head Trips was pretty interesting. Does Wikipedia sort of count as a book?
Actually, I am illiterate. I'm not even sure how I filled this profile out. What is the internet!?
Movies. They are good. I like a wide variety, as long as its either good enough to inspire me in some way or bad enough to keep my inner monkey child ocupada.
Serenity, Waking Life, Fight Club, The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari, Princess Mononoke, Spirited Away, Howl's Moving Castle, Kiki/Totoro etc... (like everyone else on Earth apparently, I dig Miyazaki), City of Lost Children, The Royal Tenenbaums, Coraline, Metropolis, Eternal Sunshine of the Yadda Yadda Yadda...
TV, I don't watch... but I have been a total fangirl for Doctor Who since I was 7. Its about the only fandom I will count myself a part of. That and Buckaroo Banzai Across The Eighth Dimension because that is the exact life I want to live. Including being tortured by Red Lectroids.
NO! *Especially* being tortured by the Red Lectroids!
Also, I've been following Battlestar Galactica with some interest since, you know... its totally a documentary and stuff.
Music... I am sort of a freak for it. I primarily listen to music while I work on art, and that means I listen to music many hours a day, so I have a lot of it. I have really particular tastes that have nothing to do with how popular a band is. I love it when a band I like gets popular, I am all for someone making a living off their art. Its a rough time to be an artist right now. But over the years I have nonetheless usually found myself talking excitedly about bands no one in the room has heard of.
Anyways. This is what I am listening to lately: Andrew Bird, Beirut, Devotchka, Regina Spektor, Amanda Palmer, Beats Antique, DJ BC, Cloud Cult, EQ Lateral, Jedi Mind Tricks, Hallucinogen/ott, Shpongle, Pendulum, Pit Er Pat, Crystal Castles, Pentaphobe, Rasputina, Viva Voce, etc...
I resent food. It takes away from time that could be used in more interesting or productive ways. Unless *you* are cooking, and then I LOVE FOOD. hahaha... actually I am not a bad cook when I try, I just hate doing it. I can enjoy fancy dinners at unpronounceable restaurants AND stuff that you can purchase and eat while remaining inside a motorized vehicle! Horseless carriages I believe they are called by the youth...
5. My glasses. I can't see well without them. Yes, I am willfully eschewing metaphor here.
4. Lists. Dearest rotting god, I love lists. And Sarcasm. And Nipples... cant forget the damned nipples!
3. My muse. He's a vindictive ass, but he keeps me busy and never comfortable with status quo.
2. People. I am staunchly 'pro human' and there is little you can say that will sway me. Even you, Xenu. You scamp.
1. My self awareness! Yay, meta answers for-the-win. Without my self awareness, there would be no me as I currently know myself to be to do anything at all. I may move to higher or lower forms of awareness in my lifetime... and but I hope there is always some essential part of myself that remains in a positive way that I may continue to enjoy this amazing planet.
Fuck. I'm a hippy?
What is the greater good and the true evil of the world? Is selfish desire all we are capable of in this skin and this society?
What it would be like living on a real commune or having a sustainable house with friends.
Possibly procrastinating on an art project, or projecting an artful procrastination of possibility.
Perhaps our benevolent computer overlords have erased it from my memory?
You like the idea of being a model for an artist from time to time. I love the human form and will gladly paint any gender or age.