Rebellious, passionate, performing artist and myth-maker. A poet, dreamer, romantic, iconoclastic intellectual, and excitable idealist.
I’m fond of genuinely nice people who aren’t prone to bitterness, jealousy or spite. My purpose in life is to make the magic come alive.
I am that same kid in his play room, lost in his imagination, where all his toys are alive and immersed in a unfurling story where the creator and audience become one and the same. And having seen the divine therein, has no intention of ever returning to the place others call reality.
Or to quote Heraclitus; we are most nearly ourselves when we achieve the seriousness of the child at play.
My background is one that merges the very privileged with the acutely painful. I desire a slow-paced life in the heart of beautiful natural surroundings, far away from the hectic pulse of human hysteria and competitive status-seeking.
Better to be the fool who loves too much than the monster who loves too little.
Ok, so I recently downsized my previously massive profile (on the suggestion of a friend) in an attempt to not scare off the tl;dr crowd or the people who can’t handle *all of me in one go before they even know me* (I can be rather like staring at the sun), but it’s resulted in me getting a lot of messages from people who are unprepared for what they’re getting themselves in for, and I also feel like I’m being dishonest by omitting parts of myself.
So, with that in mind, some further reading:
I’m warm, like a friendly dog, and exuberant – often to the point of mania. I lust for life, I lust for the stars. Intense enthusiasm, playfulness, wonderment, and a traffic jam of thousands of racing thoughts characterise my everyday life. Some of those thoughts are surreal and mad, others are genius, I boldly walk through the line that Oscar Levant erased. I want to experience everything, and I want to live forever. Even in my calmer moods I’m likely to sound like I’m high on life or jugging dozens of crazy schemes or ideas. I’m also ridiculously honest and open, like loose-cannon honest and open, but at the same time I can keep a secret and have never broken a promise in my life.
I relish luxury, comfort, beauty, politeness, courage, and progress. I have little time for futilitarians. I am a perennial optimist who advocates making the world a better place. Dare to dream. I take a deep personal interest in people, and I like it when people take a deep personal interest in me. Superficial banter bores me.
I drop in and out of temperaments and in and out personas. Sometimes I’m wildly charismatic and stunningly confident, other times I’m chewing over anxieties and demons, and will retreat into my shell. One-on-one and in-person, you’ll find the real me, a relatively humble introvert. In group situations you’ll find a raconteur who looks to give the audience a memorable evening and keep them talking for weeks or months afterwards. Some people like both, others only like the ‘real me’.
If you intrepidly state your opinions, you’ll be perceived as arrogant. If you remain reticent, you have to live with the knowledge that you’re a hypocritical coward. I felt the latter option was more sinister. Caught between a rock and a hard place, I take the liberty of gate-crashing the minds of almost everyone I meet.
Once you’ve earned my trust, I am extremely loyal and loving. By contrast, I am excessively cagey around people who I think don’t like me. And in my low moods, I’m hypersensitive to stress, and a little paranoid.
The things I hate the most are; hypocrisy, cruelty, and death.
I often enjoy subtly winding people up without them knowing. I find ludicrous exaggeration hilarious. When playing a role, I never break character – and I’m content with being misunderstood in the name of art. As my best friend said “I was just thinking I’ve never met anyone as actively *living* creativity as you, you just go off like a nuclear reactor all the time”.
I’m mildly bipolar and fully a polarizing figure, many people either love me or hate me. It used to be about 50/50. These days it’s more like 90% love, 10% hate. That’s progress. My empathy and emotional intelligence has increased dramatically since the headstrong days of my late teens and early 20’s. I remain profoundly individualistic though.
So yeah, you’ve probably gathered by now that I’m quite the head case, but the harmless kind. Love and empathy are my premier values and I spend much of my time agonising over how to make people happier.
If you’re one of those people who doesn’t like people to be “full on” then you should probably avoid me, I am pure unhindered energy, and an unconventional ever-evolving challenge.
Most of the time (these days) I really don’t like text-based communication, so ask me for my skype or phone number as soon as you feel comfortable, and I’ll almost certainly give it to you (addendum; my skype is now at the end).
I have a preference for charismatic geeky girls, and/or intellectuals, that said, being the megalomaniac that I am, I quickly adore anyone who seems to like me.
Guys message me too – I like making new friends. Only two guys have ever messaged me on this site, and they both became good friends who are a part of my life to this day. If you’re male, statistically you have a 100% success rate of becoming my friend. I am of course, straight though, but girls, if you’re looking for friendship, likewise, message me – even if I’m hot for you and it isn’t reciprocated, I’ll happily ignore that to make new friends. Love transcends sex. Friendship transcends everything.
If you’ve read this far; you’re epic, give yourself a hug.
And yeaaaaah… that pretty much scratches the surface of the iceberg that is me. Want to know more? I’m an open book. An open book that is liable to cause your head to explode, in a colourful way. <3
I'm currently writing a fantasy book series based on a game world that I've been building for the last seventeen or so years. And periodically editing my controversial memoire about... (let's just leave it at that, for now).
I'm sure I will be famous in a few years (jump on the bandwagon now), but even if I'm not - I'm fortunate enough to have enough money to never need to work again. This doesn't diminish my appetite for self-actualisation though. I'm extremely self-motivated and believe I owe it to the world to bare my heart, soul, and incredible imagination.
- Martial arts / mma.
- Being imaginative.
- Being non-judgmental, kind, and empathetic to anyone or anything that isn't going out of its way to harm me.
- Creating imaginary worlds.
Music - Jeremy Soule, Claude Debussy, Pyotr Il'yich Tchaikovsky, Rachmaninoff, Erik Satie, Ludwig van Beethoven, Inon Zur, Nikolai Rimsky-Korsakov, Dmitri Shostakovich, Aram Khachaturian, Yūzō Koshiro, Neil Innes, Jean Sibelius, Paul Dukas, Johann Strauss I, Gustav Holst, Nobuo Uematsu, John Barry, George Gershwin, Giuseppe Verdi, Franz Schubert, Frédéric Chopin, Camille Saint-Saëns, Igor Stravinsky, Johann Sebastian Bach, Rage Against The Machine, Mark 'TDK' Knight, Linkin Park, Alanis Morissette, Imogen Heap, Blue Oyster Cult, Ralph Vaughan Williams, Henryk Gorecki, Jim Johnston, The Birthday Massacre, John Williams, Mr.B The Gentleman Rhymer, Susumu Hirasawa, Our Lady Peace, Sheridan Tongue, Serge Prokofieff, The Prodigy, Ludovico Einaudi, Edvard Grieg, The Peatbog Faeries, Placebo, Radiohead, Franz Liszt,etc.
I enjoy music as an inspirational backdrop to my thoughts and daydreams.
Food - anything vegan.*
*I hate violence, domination, and slavery. The way humans treat most animals -just because they can- is horrendous. Factory farms and slaughterhouses are evil, yet are somehow in the 'moral blind spot' of most people.
4. Love / Empathy
5. Will to originality
You're a creative/intellectual type or enjoy being a sponge for others' imaginations.
You don't mind the fact that I think modesty has nothing to do with virtue. For those who need translation, that means I'm a proud, kind-hearted braggart and will not change.
You accept that as a friend or lover, I will stand out like a sore thumb, inevitably say weird stuff, and break every social taboo. I'm capable of acting normal; I just don't want to. Sooner or later I get bored of the pointless façade and look to shake things up. ...Fans of normality or nuthuggers of the status quo need not apply.
You're a nice person. Seriously. I read people really well. If you are a bitch I will smoke you out so fast it will make your head spin.
You’re perceptive, have a broad mind, and have a very good sense of humour – with me you’ll need it. Much of what I say or do isn’t meant to be taken literally. Comedy is a big part of my life on various levels, as is mischief, satire, absurdism, parody, and roleplay. You really do need to able to understand irony and make-believe, and not be easily offended. In my opinion, no topic is too sacred to be made fun of, and that includes me. I am completely shameless and will happily make a fool of myself in public if it gives people a funny and memorable experience.
MOST IMPORTANTLY OF ALL. I would prefer not to conduct a back and forth text based conversations, they make me very self-conscious - I'm always second guessing myself, they're unnecessarily time-consuming, (and I've got plenty to write for work as it is). And they're just kind of... fake. You can't hear people's spontaneous reactions, or mine. I also find it very hard to work out someone's interest / intention over text. So, by all means say hi, but if you're going to know the real me, we need an audio chat.