Lurk me, I don't care >_>
I can pretty much guarantee that you will not like me. Everyone on here seems so happy, energetic, and outgoing, with balanced lives and spirited personalities, and has been to almost every country, and on top of it, you're pretty much like, all beautiful. How are you all single and using a dating app? That should be reserved for us unbalanced, awkward, emotionally-crippled folk. Okay, let's do this. :: deep breath ::
I'm looking for someone with a weirdness that's compatible with mine ^-^ Someone with shared interests who wants to talk about their day, who wants a best friend to be semi-adventurous with or just play board games with, maybe do something creative together. I'm looking for something real and long-lasting. I want a partner. Let's do more than make small talk- let's talk about heart break, what haunts you, something not so vanilla.
I'm a socially awkward, mostly quiet dork who likes cartoons and games. I'm a little introverted (and not in the cool, mysterious kinda' way! n_n), but I've been trying to be more outgoing. Personality-wise, I'm pretty easy going and relaxed. I'm somewhere between appreciating adorable, cute things like Disney and kittens, AND liking ultra-violent action movies with bad plots. Or no plots even.
I like chai lattes because they taste like x-mas. Autumn is my favorite season, I like hoody weather.
I moved back with my parents after we lost my younger brother. I know that's an automatic turn-off for some people, but as much as I don't get along with my family, I do kind of care about them and they do come first. Losing my brother really changed my outlook on life and I'm trying to worry less about how self-conscious I am and live a little more outside my comfort zone. I don't really know too many people. It's all been a pretty big adjustment! But I think it's about time to start apartment hunting again, and time to start looking for that special someone to one day share it with.
There have been a lot of challanges- thankfully, you're never too old to hide under the covers. Or maybe you are, but that sure doesn't stop me. I know everyone has their baggage and has been heart-broken. And I'm not perfect, and I'm not the best-looking ( I know, you're so turned on right now, It's okay, you can admit it.), but i'm honest and a romantic, and I try my best to make others feel appreciated.
I like to doodle, it's my constant but it's just a hobby and I'm not that good. I would really like to make friends who pursue creative interests in their down time (or just like to watch dorky things, I'm not picky!). I'm learning how to sew, /trying/ to be less fat, and trying to learn to be comfortable in my own skin (It's going slowly). I am a total WIP.
Srsly tho, I have no clue. So, being clueless maybe? I started trying my hand sewing. Yeah, that's right, I said sewing. With like, a needle and thread and stuff. Pretty studly, if I do say so myself. Just little things like pillows and character patches for now. I want to be a better cook, learn how to airbrush, practice more with acrylics, learn anatomy properly, learn how to crochet, and I just started experimenting with wood burning. I'm shy and on the quiet side, but I like to try new things.
I like to think I'm a pretty open-minded and empathetic person (most of the time), but I know I still have a long way to go to being a more decent human being.
I can't even begin to guess. My resting bitchface? I hope it's not that I'm a chunk :x My bad skin? Who knows, maybe they think I'm awesome :3
Maybe it's my eyes, deep and dark like a tar pit that murders dinosaurs. Actually, people usually comment on how quiet I am, or tell me to smile more, so that I guess. I'm just really shy at first, I promise I get more obnoxious and offputting once I warm up.
Oh sweet, I get to make lists now! Best. Day. Evarr!!1!one!
+Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut
+She's Come Undone (my favorite book) by Wally Lamb
+The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
+Harry Potter by that British chick, I don't think anyone knows her name.
+Bug Mushy Happy Lump by Sarah Anderson
+Go Ask Alice by anonymous
+The Art of Racing in the Rain by...I forget
+Fight Club (but srsly, who doesn't get a book boner from Fight Club?)
+art books of all kinds (maybe not modern or post-modern art. I DON'T UNDERSTAND COLOR FIELD PAINTINGS. LIKE IT'S JUST TWO COLORS ON A HUGE CANVAS. WHY DOES THAT BELONG IN A MUSEUM?? )
+endless comics and manga (this should actually be #1 on the list)
I like country, rap, and everything in between...it's called variety! Get used to it! :3
+Pentatonix (I saw them in concert <3)
+Ani Difranco (My favorite <3 )
+Frou Frou (and Imogen Heap)
+The Birthday Massacre
+Lana Del Rey
+Shiny Toy Guns
+Hans Zimmer (Inception score!)
+Postal Service & Deathcab
+Bat for Lashes
+anime theme songs
+a little Bruce Springsteen
+weird gurgling noises
+Amélie (A movie about a very shy girl and possibly my favorite movie)
+Mary and Max
+Kung Fu Hustle
+Edward Scissors Hands
+Lost in Translation
+Wall-e (Definitely makes me teary-eyed)
+The Little Mermaid <3
+pretty much all those comic book movies. You know the ones.
+Rocky Horror Picture Show
+Black Butler, Attack on Titan, Ouran Host Club, Cowboy Bebop, and blah, blah, blah- you get the idea.
+Gilmore Girls <3
+The Adventures of Pete & Pete and anything 90s Nickelodeon :3
+Steven Universe (the feels, man. THE FEELS)
+the Regular Show
+The Last Airbender <3
+Teen Titans and Justice League
+Firefly, The Guild, Dr. Horrible's Sing-a-long Blog
+Super Smash Brothers <3 (best way to settle an argument >:3 )
+sewing pillows with little characters on them
+abusing my cat, or my cat abusing me
+making lists! har har harr..
+ music & audiobooks (nuh-uh, that totally counts as one!)
+ a clean, "strategically-organized" art space
+ youtube and anime
+Zzzquil- I have to wake up suuuuper early, like 4:45a early.
+ my cat and only source of affection, Binxly <3 Wow, that's depressing...time to drink and draw! And we've come full circle.
Pet Peeve: Why do people write things like "water" and "air" in this section? Like, that tells me nothing about you as a person, other than that you are, in fact, a person.
If I could ever go back to school for artz.
How 40 million people use dating apps and I'm still lonely.
If there's such a thing as "the one".
And now let's throw in some insightful, identity-defining quotes for good measure, courtesy of Mr. Augusten Burroughs:
“Although I was able to maintain a pleasant expression, I was mentally throwing up in her face.”
“It’s a wonder I’m even alive. Sometimes I think that. I think that I can’t believe I haven’t killed myself. But there’s something in me that just keeps going on. I think it has something to do with tomorrow, that there is always one, and that everything can change when it comes.”
“I saw a monkey walking on a leash and thought it was an ugly foreign child.”
-if you're more interested in hearts than parts
-You wanna' talk nerdy to me <3
-if it's September 19th at 1:46 am, this is non-negotiable!
-You like making art and listening to music
-if you're a criminal and want to hatch a scheme
-if you have any information on what really happened to the dinosaurs and their current whereabouts (don't you dare try and tell me they're birds now!)
-if you're jaded and full of disdain for the world, pure and unbridled.
-if you can teach me something, sewing, piano, math even! Well, not math. Anything but math actually.
-if you just want someone to chill with and watch a movie together. You should def message me then.
-when all is said and done, you'd like to have made a positive dent in the universe.
And yes, I'm aware that I wrote entirely too much and no one will ever read any of it. I'm complicated like that.