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I don't know where to start here. There is alot to me, so I won't be able to relate everything that has been a part of my Life experience here and now. I like to learn new things; every day in some way, if possible! I don't operate by Ego, and so, am not attracted to Ego. I operate by Soul or Spirit and am attracted to that in others as well. I have a silly sense of humor: puns and that type of thing; not gags per se. I think it's important to laugh every day; together if possible! Something that I heard, as an unintended pun, during a serious TV report, which a PBS reporter said, was "The problem of obesity is growing." That kind of thing LEAPS OUT at ME (figuratively)! LOL : )
My prayer is that I meet a God-loving man who has a heart to love me (and my tiny pet bird too)! The deepest Desire Of My Heart has ALWAYS been to be a Homemaker in this life, since I was probably as young as age 2! [TO BE VERY CLEAR HERE, because some men have seemingly MISSED understanding the IMPORTANCE of THIS to ME, as being both 'who I am' and 'what I offer' here: A definition of 'Homemaker' . . . A homemaker is a wife who has the SKILLS and ABILITIES to MAINTAIN the HOME, and ACTIVELY FUNCTIONS in THAT CAPACITY within the marriage relationship. THIS IS AN UNSALARIED POSITION, but of GREAT WORTH to the RIGHT MAN! THIS is what I AM SEEKING HERE. I am what I am! So please take that into account if/when messaging me here, so we don't waste one another's time if that is NOT what YOU want as YOUR woman. I don't care if we're rich or poor; live in a house or apartment; have steak or hamburgers, or if we don't 'keep up with the Joneses' or have every new gadget out on the market. I just want to share peace, laughter, joy, happiness, simplicity as much as possible, and real love with a good man that wants and appreciates what I DO and CAN OFFER to HIM! That's it!!!--- THAT'S MY GOAL here--- to FIND HIM!] It doesn't take ALOT (materialistically!) to make me happy; just the basics at least; but it DOES TAKE my being 'ME', being WHO I AM! And being a Homemaker is intrinsically intertwined with that!
I was born and raised in North Carolina in a very small town, much like a real-life "MAYBERRY"! This was a time and place in America where the women role models I saw as I grew up were genuine "Aunt Bees", bringing HEART to their HOMES and HOMEMADE pickles and pies to church picnics. It was a time when you had better get your milk, bread, and gasoline by Saturday evening, because on Sunday ALL BUSINESSES WERE CLOSED to SHOW RESPECT FOR THE LORD with A DAY OF REST as He commanded people to observe once every week. Women and men largely had very different, well-defined roles from each other then, complementary and both equally important. I think there was a sweetness about that lifestyle, and a real need that each had for the other, then. The current divorce rate, gang violence, senseless killings, Rx and street drug abuse, most societal dysfunction that we suffer today, were all very nearly nonexistent in those times with the cultural values in place then. I CAN REMEMBER what that LOOKED like, and what it FELT like, and I FOR ONE REALLY YEARN FOR THAT IN MY LIFE NOW, as our society seems to be so insincere, restless, disrespectful, confused, hostile, dishonest, abusive, uncaring, etc., now, in FAR TOO MANY WAYS! I still like things simple, and sweet--- the plain daisy is my favorite flower, the one famous for "He loves me; he loves me not. . . "; hoping at some point that my daisy's petals finally land on "HE LOVES ME!". I won't love or not love a man for having or not having money; his value and worth in my eyes and estimation will come from other aspects of who he is as a man. Your billfold is not my target; rather a respected and cherished place in your heart and even in your soul is what I hope and pray for. I have no money to bring to the table, myself, but really cherish the basic things I have in this life, moreso than when they came easier to me in better financial times than this. I THANK GOD, NOW, for things like: I have fresh, running water; a roof over my head; a Bible to study; Christian TV over-the-air by antenna since I don't have cable TV; songs in my heart to sing, and praises in my spirit to PRAISE GOD! This, I suppose, is a good start, as a foundation to build on, at describing who I am as a person; as a woman; what matters to me.
I am motivated by love! Foremost, God's Love for me and mine for Him. I get my (self-expressive) joy from nurturing, blessing, helping, teaching/imparting (to enlarge someone's world with new skills and/or awareness that I am able to share with them to their benefit, such as when I 'minister' to someone from my Faith), caretaking (of my apartment 'home'), and caregiving (to my loved ones; whether they be friends, pet, houseplants . . . whatever living things I give care to!). Real love causes anything it touches to somehow thrive!
trying to truly have what I contribute to this world, through my life-choices and actions, point to Jesus and His Love, Truth, and Light
trying to find THIS, here, with THE RIGHT MAN for ME ("the chief among ten thousand to my soul!"): "[Joyfully the radiant bride turned to him, the one altogether lovely, the chief among ten thousand to her soul, and with unconcealed eagerness to begin her life of sweet companionship with him, she answered] Make haste, my beloved, and come quickly, like a gazelle or a young hart [and take me to our waiting home] . . . ." SONG OF SOLOMON 8:14 AMP
helping a tiny, timid animal (bird) feel loved by me and safe with me by my patience, consistency, gentleness, praise, meeting his needs
noticing that others besides me have needs and trying to meet those needs if I am in any way able to do that within my creed or means
knowing that I am truly blessed, even when or if I am in the midst of painful or trying times, and feeling daily gratitude for those blessings
not looking or acting 'old' for my age, especially in comparison to many people this age by what I have seen represented here online
other things . . . . : )
Alot of people say to me that I seem 'so friendly and open', but that can be misleading for them as their perception of me, as I also am MORESO very PRIVATE about my own life as I live it, and have very conservative core values which include: I am a big fan of things like honesty, integrity, honor, determining and doing the 'right' thing as best you know what that is; also treating others as you would like to be treated by them, if only to contribute that (hopefully!) positive energy toward making this world a better place for all of us to live!
I like ALOT of things in each of these categories. I like reality better than fiction; laughing rather than being scared; inspiration whenever possible; probably the only person I know that does not like pasta.
The Bible which is God's 'Love Letter' to us, revealing His Heart
Music that moves me whether I just listen, or sing, or dance to it
The unconditional love and sweet/trusting dependency of a small pet
Expressing 'myself' as I go about my daily tasks in life on this Earth
All the fun and fulfilling things which eating, cooking, and baking offer, that intertwine with our thoughts of "home"
Defragmenting my hard disk . . . . (No, that is NOT 'kinky'! LOL)
Looking for YOU, the man my HEART will CHERISH, because I don't believe I will find you in a bar, or even here in Omaha, quite likely.
Knowing God's Holy Spirit INTIMATELY and His Love shown me, which is so precious, gentle, sweet, caring, unconditional, etc., HAS 'SPOILED ME' for MOST human versions of 'love', making it difficult for me to 'settle' for 'less' after living my life, now, in the 'MORE'! I have done BETTER with PETS than MEN, due to that, because PETS ALSO LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY, and people JUST DON'T SEEM TO, although EVERYONE WANTS SOMEONE to love THEM unconditionally even though THEY CAN'T GIVE THAT! LOL Anyway, I finally realized that MY ONLY HOPE with a MAN is to find one that HAS THE HOLY SPIRIT living WITHIN him, so that I will 'feel at home' enough with his love to be ABLE to BELIEVE IN IT, and BE INVOLVED WITH IT. Here are some of the aspects of God's Holy Spirit which I have experienced that I hope to see represented and reflected in my man, therefore, as well: The Holy Spirit is sweetly loving, all wise, responsively helpful, truly fun just to 'be' with, a thoughtful companion, a joyful dancer, sensitive yet strong, protective, capable and desirous of true intimacy, and draws people toward Jesus Christ!