When you can't find a light, to guide you through a cloudy day.
When the stars are not shining bright, and you feel like you lost your way.
When the candle light of home, burns so very far away.
You gotta let your Soulshine.
Just like my Daddy used to say.
I'm Talking about Soulshine.
Its better than Sunshine.
It's better than Moonshine.
Damn sure better than Rain.
I am ontime, dependable, and truthful
Up-Date:My son has Graduated and is now in the process of moving out and heading off to College.
What am I doing?Well to be honest not much.I am learning that Fathers can get Empty Nest Syndrome also.Some people may call me a type B personality.That is far from the truth.I just don't get to worked up.I tend to always be planning what to do next but 3 steps ahead of where I am.I guess I do this so I can act like nothing surprises me kind of like expected that to happen and I knew that might happen.
Up-date.This is old guess I need to up-date more often or rewrite.So old that my youngest son is now a Jr in College and is totally out on his own.So the nest is really empty now.
Up Date:I have shaved my hair and donated it to Locks for Love.A friend has cancer and her hair has started to fall out.I went to the Tribal Elders and told them and they gave me permission to cut my hair in support of her.It feels weird to be bald but small price to pay to show someone that you are with them all the way.Plus I told her when the Chemo is over and hers starts to grow back I will start to grow mine again and we can race to see who gets to the ear lobes first.
Up-Date on hair:My braids were very important to me.My hair was donated to Locks For Love and I received a nice thank you card from them.Now the bummer part.The woman I cut my hair for turned out to be not that good of a friend as I thought.Although it went to a good cause for wigs for kids I gave up a piece of me for the wrong person.I hope it grows back faster than last time.
My best friend John
The Great Creator
I find myself thinking about Losses.Not games but chances and just Time.Also my children,Their growth as young adults.Ups and downs.Also how can I still be Daddy to my Daughter and Dad to my sons.
Finding someone to be with. What to tell people about me.If you would like a more deep answer Please read my Journal and feel free to respond.I could use the help.Also what the hell am I going to do when my youngest son goes off to college.I also think about the things we did in the Military.I lost 7 very close friends while I was in.And I wonder about Karma because of the saying what goes around comes around.Well Uncle Sam didn't send us to some of the places we were sent to be Ambassadors of good will.I know they say God forgives but do people?Then again can I forgive myself.
Up-Date:Friday nights are wide open.So are all the others.How Pathetic.Hope that does not stay typical.I am up for anything now.
Up-Date:Sons track season is over now.He made it to State in the 6A 110 meters Hurdles.I cried again.So I guess I can admit I am not afraid to cry.
Also I talk in my sleep so people like to carry on conversations with me while I sleep then make fun of me later.