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My self-summary
I crash landed in Sac on a tour in 2010 and have been here ever since. I'm originally from Jacksonville, FL. I've been a composer/musician and a student of the occult for half of my life, and have been heavily interested in information security the past few years. I am very interested in exploring new mediums for creative expression, and am fascinated by identity and power structures. I try not to talk too much.

Some of my favorite study topics include:
Ontology, Epistemology, Combinatorics, Kabbalah, Holonomics, Cymatics, Qi Gong, Semantics, Cosmology, Identity Politics, Metrology, Cryptocurrencies, Taoism, Astrology, Linguistics, Psychology, Set Theory, Etymology, Hermetic Philosophy, Computer Science, Novelty Theory, Eschatology, Sociology, Astronomy, Symbology, Hylozoics, Technology, Chaos Theory, History, Quantum Mechanics, Nuclear Physics, Sexuality, Discordianism, Theology, Economics, the Middle East, Entheogens, Transhumanism, etc.

I enjoy listening to what others have to say about anything, so don't think I require all my conversation to be heavy/philosophical at all times. I am intensely curious about everything and love talking for hours, but I am also just as satisfied with sharing total peace and quiet. I am not looking to judge anyone, just learn.

Life > Time
Rhythm = Gnosis
What I’m doing with my life
The plan is to understand the sphere of information security over the next few years as it gradually becomes the cornerstone of America's power structure. Other than that, there's constant music happening. Currently, I'm in 2 bands, composing solo stuff almost daily, and formulating lesson plans for percussion instruction. I'm sort of writing a book/play/experiment, too. My professional and creative aspirations are more intertwined than they may appear...

I read all the time, and I'm starting to get back into making visual art. I'm also looking to do more physical stuff outside the house. I just got a car, and I love to go on adventures. I can't travel enough.
I’m really good at
This isn't for me to say.
The first things people usually notice about me
Might be dependent on what they're looking for.

“People often discard first intuitions until they reach the end of a friendship, the end of a love, and then this long-buried first impression reappears only to prove that the animal senses in human beings warning them clearly of dangers, of traps, may be accurate but are often discarded in favor of a blind compulsion in the opposite direction to that of self-preservation. Proving that human beings have a sense of danger but that some other desire, some other compulsion, lures and draws them precisely toward these traps, toward self-destruction.”
The Four Chambered Heart - Anaïs Nin
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
"The Kabbalistic Mirror of Genesis" and "The Sacrificial Universe" by David Chaim Smith
"Rites and Symbols of Initiation" and "The Forge and the Crucible" by Mircea Eliade
"The Power of Myth," "Occidental Mythology", and anything else by Joseph Campbell
"Balderdash: A Treatise on Ethics" by Antti P. Balk
"Genesis of a Music" by Harry Partch
"Liber Kaos," "Liber Null & Psychonaut," and "The Octavo" by Peter J. Carroll
"Rhythmajik" by Z'ev
"Sefer Yetzirah: The Book of Creation" by Aryeh Kaplan
"Flow" by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi
"Art & Physics" by Leonard Shlain
"By Way of Deception" by Victor Ostrovsky
"A Garden of Pomegranates," "The Middle Pillar," and "The Eye in the Triangle" by Israel Regardie
"Ham On Rye," "Post Office," and "Women" by Charles Bukowski
"Cosmic Trigger," "Prometheus Rising," and just about anything else by Robert Anton Wilson
"Condensed Chaos" and "Prime Chaos" by Phil Hine
"The Kybalion" by Three Initiates
"A New Model of the Universe", "The Fourth Way," and "Symbolism of the Tarot" by P.D. Ouspensky
"Qabalah, Qliphoth and Goetic Magic" by Thomas Karlsson
"Harmonies of Heaven and Earth" by Joscelyn Godwin
"A Knowledge of Reality" by Henry T. Laurency
"The Temporary Autonomous Zone" by Hakim Bey
"PiHKAL" and "TiHKAL" by Sasha Shulgin

also, various works by:

David Bohm
Austin Osman Spare
Manly P. Hall
Alan Watts
H.P. Blavatsky
A.E. Waite
Aleister Crowley
Timothy Leary
G.I. Gurdjieff
Guy Debord
Lao Tzu
Mantak Chia
Aldous Huxley
C.G. Jung
Arthur E. Powell
Lewis Spence
Charles Leadbeater
Christopher S. Hyatt
Antero Alli
Michio Kaku
Rainer Maria Rilke
Gershom Scholem
and many others....

Alejandro Jodorowsky, Fellini.

Peter Brötzmann, Indricothere, P.O.N., Zu, Aksak Maboul, Gorguts, Super Freego, Iannis Xenakis, Boredoms, Patife Band, Cecil Taylor, Olivier Messiaen, Toshiki Kadomatsu, Hermann Szobel, Present, Hans Reichel, Gorge Trio, Tipographica, Egberto Gismonti, Ultralyd, Pseu, Krzysztof Penderecki, Cloud Rat, Albert Ayler, Deutsch-Amerikanische Freundschaft, Unbeltipo, Rascal Reporters, Orthotontics, Diamanda Galas, 5uu's, Soft Machine, National Health, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Gilgamesh, Brand X, Magma, Timeghoul, Rich Woodson's Ellipsis, Tatsuya Yoshida, Dysrhythmia, Autechre, Pocket Orchestra, Eider Stellaire, Black Flag, U Totem, Mick Barr, Octis, Igor Stravinsky, The Molecules, Harry Partch, Art Zoyd, Tortoise, Orthrelm, Weidorje, Khanate, Thinking Plague, Franz Liszt, Fred Frith, Sergei Rachmaninoff, HET, No Trend, Albert Marcoeur, Yusef Lateef, Organum, Zach Hill, Kenso, John Zorn, Iceberg, Eskaton, Ornette Coleman, The Flying Luttenbachers, Behold... The Arctopus, Phut, Suicide, Weather Report, Univers Zéro, Wire, Ocrilim, Ruins, Miles Davis, Yowie, Frank Zappa, Conlon Nancarrow, Many Arms, Burning Witch, King Crimson, Electric Masada, Carla Kihlstedt, Art Zoyd, Graves At Sea, Mahavishnu Orchestra, Hella, Man is the Bastard, Anata, Christian Vander, Spazz, Child Abuse, SunnO))), Ezra Sims, Naked City, Kayo Dot, Crass, John Mclaughlin, Darkthrone, Spastic Ink, Flux of Pink Indians, Normal Love, Today is the Day, Boards of Canada, Friendly Bears, Decomposing Serenity, Crime in Choir, Los Crudos, Rudimentary Peni, Upsilon Acrux, Uakti, Nina Hagen, etc.
Six things I could never do without
Rhythm, oxygen, water, food, sleep, and friendship.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
How much time I spend thinking about how much time I spend thinking.

Just kidding. I don't actually think.

Seriously, though, usually stuff like this:

It is insanely assumptive to speak on behalf of a group that accounts for half of the world’s population, and even more assumptive to speak for a group to which you do not find yourself identified. All groups are comprised of individuals, and until we start treating people as such, we will all continue to oppress each other in ways we may never even come to understand. Identity itself seems to be a psychosocial construct, and knowledge itself seems to be but a theory. We play with the power of definition often; we should constantly ask ourselves if we are using that power to further articulate our differences, or, rather, to create new realities wherein these differences are inconsequential.

(Please excuse any usage of “is” or “should” for the sake of brevity.)
On a typical Friday night I am
Somewhere new.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
There are times I enjoy being objectified, and I feel that many others feel the same, but are afraid to admit it. I feel that even just by existing as separate beings, we all become objects to each other, and this ultimately feeds our fascination with sex and death. I think many people are terrified of acknowledging that they are titillated by conflict when it comes to their actual lives, and are thus incapable of learning from the inevitable bullshit that occurs within them. Most people are quick to steadfastly proclaim their abhorrence of "drama" unless it's contained within a work of "art" that can easily be held and observed comfortably outside the boundaries of the self. I find myself becoming increasingly restless when enforcing a model of reality which separates "art" and "self." However, it seems most people tend to favor this model, as rejecting it can have some stark implications, such as the realization of all creative output as being essentially equal in value to waste. I am ok with this, and as such, have learned to recognize and appreciate the pleasures of being an object. I see many people spending vast amounts of their time fighting to further assert their identity, only to wallow in their own shame later when they are finally forced to confront the ever-changing nature of the world and their inevitably changing place within it. Many people are so determined to define themselves in juxtaposition to their surroundings, they cannot even bear the thought of not being the constant subject. Ergo, they fetishize objectification and attach stigmas to behaviors which promote or encourage it, especially when it comes to large-scale facets of identity like sexuality. People are addicted to the eustress of being cast as the underdog hero of their own story, which causes them to subconsciously create the context necessary for the constant "drama" in their lives. It helps them cope with the fact that they have no idea what the hell they are, or what a self even is, or what time and space even are, much less any meaning or purpose of anything. It is comforting to "know" about these things, so we structure our lives around constant definition and classification of all phenomena. In other words, we constantly objectify everything to reassure ourselves of the validity of our own subjective experience. I, for one, do not feel a need for this reassurance; the chaos of nature thrills me, and as such, I delight in consciously and actively participating in the creation/destruction processes of my selves as they, like everything else in nature, constantly shift. I find it difficult to be offended by being objectified when I cannot even say what a self is. As such, I find great fun in being the object of someone's judgement, be it kind or insulting. How are people supposed to connect with one another without first recognizing the other person as being separate from themselves, the subject? "Drama" in a social context need not always be perceived as negative. On the contrary; it's what we live for. As the subjects of our own experiences, we only know the beauty of life's dramas through the total objectification of everything (and everyone) outside of ourselves.
You should message me if
You are open-minded enough to consider that your definition of open-mindedness could quite possibly be far narrower than you currently realize.
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