I am a post-doctoral fellow at UC-Berkeley in physical chemistry. I really love my lab, the project, and the professor for whom I work. I study how to more accurately calculate energies using polarizable models of classical electrostatics. Right now, I'm working on making the model more computationally efficient; I'm enjoying the software-engineering aspect.
In what little free time I have, I play keyboards and make ambient music. In terms of my influences, I enjoy all the pioneers like Brian Eno, as well as modern practitioners like Boards of Canada. A big current influence is the drone metal band Sunno))).
I enjoy vintage clothes, women's chunky heel platform shoes from the '90s, and flare pants.
Another big part of my life is that I got divorced last year after 4 years of marriage. The marriage was always awful, fundamentally because my ex-wife had borderline personality disorder due to a hard childhood. There of course were other factors. Moreover, she married me not out of love, but rather as a means to immigrate to the States. She's back in Egypt now!
Anyway, I'm supposed to sell myself in these ads, so here we are:
I feel like I'm more persistent/dogged than others perhaps; I will work on things to extreme exhaustion. I feel like I constantly want to improve myself mentally and physically.
I'm trying to improve my skills in science (right now, programming) and performing interesting music.
Fiction: 'God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater' by Kurt Vonnegut; 'Herzog' by Saul Bellow; 'Rabbit Redux' and 'Rabbit Is Rich' by John Updike;
Non-fiction: 'Quantum Chemistry' by Ira Levine; Hans Wehr's Arabic-English dictionary; 'Molecular Modeling' by Andrew Leach
Movies: Midnight Cowboy, Taxi Driver, About Schmidt, Mulholland Drive, What About Bob?, A Serious Man
Music: '70s progressive rock and jazz fusion(e.g., Genesis, Yes, King Crimson, Soft Machine, Brand X), krautrock (Kraftwerk, Tangerine Dream, Klaus Schulze), other electronic and ambient(Brian Eno, Aphex Twin, et al.) , 20th century Western classical (Bartok, Shostakovich, Ravel, Prokoviev, Steve Reich, Phillip Glass, Terry Riley), & Indian classical are among favorites. But basically I like any music that is challenging, harmonically interesting, has great melodies or chord progressions, great texture or instrumentation, etc.
Food: All flavorful food, but especially Indian, East African, and Mexican.
-Career in science.
-Good music (see above).
-Keyboards/Means to make music
On a personal level, I often wonder whether I'm desirable to girls, and especially whether I'm attractive. I don't feel like I have a masculine face, because it's not angular (e.g., doesn't have a sharp chin/jaw, etc.). I also wear women's pants and chunky heel shoes daily, and I feel like this might be a turnoff to potential dates. I'm not trying to be weird, but I feel more attractive this way. (Also, sometimes girls seem to like my clothes!) I also wonder whether this was a turnoff to my ex-wife (with whom I had major other problems and who told me that my clothes weren't the main issue). So, here I am doing OKCupid.
I also spend a lot of time thinking about whether I will make any major breakthroughs in physical chemistry or computational biology (I have some decent papers, but not breakthroughs). I would ultimately like my research to be able to make predictions on proteins, DNA/RNA that have therapeutic applications, in particular, in brain and spinal cord injury. The therapeutic side was my ultimate inspiration for my current field.
Lastly, I spend time thinking about whether my music will reach a wide audience ever. I've gotten great compliments, like comparisons to Kraftwerk or claims that it was the most frightening piece of music ever heard. On the other hand, there are certain qualities I'd like to attain in music that I'd have to improve in.