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My self-summary
Moved back out west for the first time since I was 8. Hopefully my postmodern punk personality can find a few kindred spirits haha.

Genderqueer. Zhe/Zher/Zhim.

Cool with: Polyamory and Open Relationships
Not Cool with: casual or short-term dating. Don't get me wrong I love to meet as many people as possible and if that's you then do you. I just have PTSD and Borderline so I REALLY don't have the mental/emotional energy for it anymore.

http://endel4.tumblr.com/ describes me better than I could put into words.

IMPORTANT: If you're only interested in "success," "peace & quiet," or have a problem with a radical/political or fun/experience-based lifestyle, don't even entertain the thought of a relationship with me. I am only interested in dating dynamic individuals.

Nerdy party ghost. I like depressing artsy shit and radical poetry. I spend all my time going to concerts. I epitomize my astrological signs (taurus, leo moon and leo ascendant), and I quite enjoy a drink. I'm very passionate about social and economic justice and I love to have fun, yeah!! *90's skateboard high-five* Music is my everything. I immerse myself in the Humanities, and I always enjoy talking about them. I'm a 4w5 XNFP who is Chaotic Good (more like Chaotic Mad tbqh), haha.

I LOVE cities and the snow. I have this weird fantasy of dancing to lo-fi music with my significant other in the late hours of the night. I'm a giant romantic, sob. I'm also attracted to silent, small, secret places out in the middle of the woods only I know about. That kinda stuff makes me pretty emotional, actually. Also, gHOSTS. I love ghosts in a way I can't even begin to understand.

Other weird things about me uhh,
- I am very much extremely incredibly super passionate about mental health pride & activism and anti-imperialism (I'm working on this thing called Neuroanarchism, like radical mental health but explicitly anarchist)
- I'm an insurrectionary (probably) anarcho-communist queer pro-feminist who is the enemy of 'edgy' comedians. Capital and Nations must end.
- Again ghosts okay I just really love ghosts. And no, I don't believe in ghosts but I have like a spiritual connection with them (ahaha)
- I'm so into surrealism and existentialism dude u have no idea. Love post-structural stuff too, as well as critical, social and conflict theory.
- I really love music history! I used to do college radio and I really enjoy talking about regional scenes and genre emergence. A part of me really wishes I could live in the Rocky Mountain region in the 1990's so I could have been part of the zine culture there.
- I love studying religions! Ex-Catholic and former Reform Druid as well. I guess I still really identify with Neopaganism even though I'm adamantly atheistic and irreligious. I guess I just feel like it's a huge part of who I am? Anyways, I thoroughly enjoy studying pretty much any religion! TALK TO ME ABOUT ZOROASTRIANISM, *PLZ*

My sexuality can be most easily described as asexual queeromantic.

ALSO IMPORTANT: I'm very neuroatypical. I have diagnosed Major Depressive Disorder, OCD, ADHD, and High Anxiety. I have undiagnosed PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder. If that's a problem to anyone or makes you view me as anything less than human, you can fuck right off.
What I’m doing with my life
Being a literal ghost. Getting everything sorted out to return to school at Temple for a double Communications (Emergent Media & Political Advocacy)/Sociology Major with a minor in LGBT Studies. [had to leave bc of paperwork and finance minutia]

These days I'm a much more antifascist punk so expect to see me at protests and fighting bigots and nationalists.

I have a billion or so dreams about my future, but I'm still really aimless. If you're an adventurous person, we'll get along great. I could tell life stories about squad hijinks for days.

My eventual dream is to move to Toronto. It's been my dream for a really long time and if my life had a story arc, I'd guess I'd say it'd be getting there.

I also wanna visit Lappland. It's so beautiful. Maybe even go to the Ice Hotel.
I’m really good at
If it had to be one thing, it'd be getting people hyped up for something, or bringing people together to do a thing. I can do computers and philosophy and I'm really knowledgeable when it comes to politics, debating, and history. I also have the ability to learn in-depth and in concise detail about things to an unreasonable extent on a whim.

I also argue a lot with "fellow" atheists and "egalitarians/liberals" on the internet. Especially YouTube but now also Twitter!
The first things people usually notice about me
People who don't know me too well say that my dry humor and tone is hilarious. Those who do know me well laugh at the idea that I have any chill at all. (I'm laid back and I hate tension but love conflict. I don't do well when people expect a lot from me but at the same time I derive energy and excitement from challenge. I'm also very passionate and emotional but I love relaxation and I'm spontaneous as hell. Basically just your run-of-the-mill free-spirited XXFP) I love dancing even though I'm pretty sure I'm terrible at it.

People assume I'm a very shy, quiet nerd. I am not. I'm actually very sociable, just introverted. If I'm shy around you it probably means I think you're hella and I don't want you to think I'm a total loser.

People also think I'm a gloomy negative nihilist. I'm actually very much a romantic and optimist. I get really passionate about things and I'm pretty sensitive, but, I actually pride myself on that. I was raised and socialized to see emotion as weakness, when in reality I was just surrounded by ableist "libertarian" assholes. I know far too many neurotypical people who default to cruel indifference and call it "intellectualism."
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Books: Catcher in the Rye, The Divine Comedy, Sharp Teeth, Lord of the Rings, Redwall Series, The Conquest of Bread, Post-Scarcity Anarchism, Capital in the Twenty-First Century, A Peoples' History of the United States, Culture and Imperialism, lots of Noam Chomsky
Movies: Lord of the Rings, Watchmen, Titan AE, Scott Pilgrim, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Koyaanisqatsi, Fight Club, Kick-Ass, The Mist, Monty Python, Spirited Away, Kaze no Youni, Kumo no Youni, Donnie Darko, The Big Lebowski, Trainspotting, All the Captain America movies (he's the best)
Shows: Steven Universe, Bar Rescue, Anthony Bourdain, The Simpsons, Workaholics, Walking Dead, Always Sunny, DANNY PHANTOM, Star Trek, Al Jazeera, The Young Turks, Free Speech TV, Democracy Now!, Gay USA, Colbert Report, Daily Show, Regular Show, Adventure Time, Breaking Bad, The Sopranos, White Collar, New Girl, Better Call Saul, King of the Hill, The Eric Andre Show, many many anime
http://www.last.fm/user/Endel4/library/artists I also live for Joel Plaskett
Anime: Fate/Zero, Lucky Star, D.Gray Man, Blood+, Code Geass R2, FLCL, Darker than BLACK: Ryuusei no Gemini, Hellsing Ultimate, Trinity Blood, Panty & Stocking, Nerima Daikon Brothers, Tokyo Ghoul, Danganronpa
Webcomics: Pictures for Sad Children, Homestuck, Problem Sleuth, Boxer Hockey, And It Don't Stop, 8-Bit Theatre, Penny Arcade
Video Games: OFF, Kingdom Hearts, Civilization, Final Fantasy, StarCraft, Metal Gear Solid, KillZone, WarCraft, WoW, SaGa, The World Ends With You, No More Heroes
Podcasts: Democracy at Work, Welcome to Night Vale, Alice Isn't Dead, Politically Reactive, Yo, Is This Racist?, Fake The Nation
The six things I could never do without
Music, Internet, My Friends, Civilization, Coffee, Prose Poetry
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Ian Curtis and Victor Jara 4evr

Anything and everything. I'm really thoughtful, but also a little (very) morose. I can find myself getting stuck in the trappings of my memories. (Trauma does that to you) I also find a song to go along with whatever mood I'm in, since I binge-listen to music.

I also LOVE soaking in some quality media, independent or otherwise. I've always been fascinated with emerging trends, and am planning on getting a Communications degree.

Political radicalism has roots in disenfranchised communities, yet is so gated off via education, so I want to be able to one day communicate it properly and in an effective way that can reach all people.

I can't make up my mind about primitivism vs transhumanism, so I'll just say I'm green.

Neurotypicals and Reactionaries must be stopped at all costs. I'm really tired of everyone who isn't far left tbqh.

I hate liberal brolosophers, who unfortunately make up the majority of all nerds. Ok I just hate liberals, there I said it.
On a typical Friday night I am
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
Symbolic interactionism is very ehhhhhhhhh. I love it and agree with it and its superbly interesting but its so damn short-sighted.

If you get me drunk enough I will start playing like Gogol Bordello or Los Cubanos or Incompetentes or Inti Illimani or Quilapayún and yell about politics in Spanish.

I am actually 50% Sea, 50% Weed. I'm also weird as fuck for someone who's ace.

Apparently I'm a massive tease.
You should message me if
you care a lot about social and economic injustice or love tabletop gaming. Or if you know how to cut your own hair, that's pretty radd.

You should DEFINITELY talk to me if your memories have an echo-ish sound to them, or if you like the snow, or the nighttime. Or even better, a snowy night. OR ALSO, if you love soft grunge/pastel goth~

These days I'm more queer anarcho post-punk though.

You want me to read yr turkish coffee fortune.

Leftists (maybe post-leftists too) only please.