I am involved in many endeavors that involve my computer and several hundred people, I have a plan to travel again, I am an entertainer and a more than capable guitarist who plays not only concerts and clubs but also played for church services. It is proof that I am not afraid to try new things because I was not raised on Rock but have playing Rock Gospel music and it was not only challenging but fun too. I loved the people I interacted with...so much nicer than having someone blow alcohol breath in my face. I don't mind what others want to do to themselves but I don't think it is fair for them to expect me to do what they do.
I don't believe in controlling and I certainly am not one to be controlled. I don't take orders but I do take requests. I won't work for you but I will work with you. I believe that if it is fun it is worth doing...if it isn't fun, do it only if you have to but not for long. I love the open road, traveling in my van...I don't much care what it looks like but I do care how it runs. I don't judge people by what they don't have. I don't like being judgmental, but there is a natural reaction to inappropriate behavior or lack of appropriate action. I cheer for the underdog and I'm not too crazy about the hypocrite. I feel sorry for people who do things out of habit and don't even know why they do it nor do they even know the history of how the habit begin. I am not a perfect person so no one should expect to find that in me. What you see is what you get. But I do believe that if you come looking for trouble or weaknesses you will probably find it. I do take real people at face value and I am not interested in changing them nor can I be interested too long in anyone who starts out with me trying to change me. I believe in "live and let live." If I act like a carpet it is only to see how far a person will go to walk on me but I am done with allowing people to walk over me for long...been there, done that, not gonna do that anymore. If anyone that thinks they knew me a long time ago thinks they know me now, they are mistaken. Life teaches and I have learned much since I was a kid...and anyone who has raised a child knows, the experience of being a parent, alone, makes you grow.
I take care of mine and I don't expect anyone to take care of me. But if someone would want to take care of me, I will take care of them too. There will be no more lopsided relationships for me. Have been down that road, too. I'm not going down that road anymore, it is exhausting.
I don't like drama. As I've told my God Daughter time and time again, she may be the drama queen, but I am the drama king. I won't be a drama king if you don't be a drama queen. I love her, I am so proud of her. She is 14 and becoming what I had hoped she would 14 years ago when I walked out of the hospital with her in my arms. I believe that if you want to know something about the parents, just look at and listen to the kids and you'll know all you need to know. Anyone who is fortunate enough to meet my God Daughter will like her and when they realize that she is a product of me, they'll love me, even if they don't like my methods.
At times I have a crusty exterior but in dealing with me people who really care should know: I am not from the hood but I've been to a hood or two. I am not from the ghetto but I've been to a ghetto or two. There are times when I feel like I am able to leap over buildings and mountains and there are times when I can barely raise my eyelids. I am gentle until it is required of me to be rough. I prefer to turn and go the other way in times of danger but I will not allow physical mayhem committed on me or mine. You can say what you want to me but what you do to me requires my permission.
Of course all this "He man" talk is cool until I meet the one that melts me and turns me into a teddy bear.
I am COOL, CALM, and COLLECTED