I find myself quite entertained, amused & somewhat fascinated in reading all your profiles. & I'm somewhat convinced that most of y'all are full of shit, looking for a fantasy, or some kind of email scam. Besides that right now I'm happy just looking for friends to start out with anyways, It's a solid basis thing. Or perhaps you could excellent as a partner in crime, that would be nice, where trust is key. I've always found a fonder connection with women in general anyways. But to find my soul mate would be a dream come true. Oh well, maybe but only in a dream. I'd like to surround myself with positive realistic people. & to be honest I may not be relationship material anyways. Due to the train wreaks & disasters I've already gone through with many others in the past. But then again, who hasn't? Like many of you I've been rejected, lied to, deceived, jacked, cheated on, ratted out, pissed on & dissed on. So I may be damaged goods. Or perhaps the love for me was never that strong to begin with. Such a Greek tragedy, where has my youth gone? Ha ha.
O.K. then, the first two paragraphs didn't scare you off eh? Well I guess you must have some sort of gumption. Well then here's some more of my personal aspirations. Needless to say I think it would be nice to build a life & home with somebody in the long run. So I believe that reciprocation & consideration along with respect while giving 110% on both sides is the key. & so is meeting or exceeding what we bring to the table we sit at like devotion, dedication, & sacrifice. I don't mean monetarily either. I got mine & don't need yours. But I realize we won't excel as partner's if we don't do the principle thing for each other from the beginning. I try to be somewhat of a realist. & I'm not looking for nor do I wish for the pretense of perfection. I don't expect anything from anybody that I wouldn't first expect from myself. & I'm into the time I invest with somebody. I don't want it wasted on dumb drama or unhealthy, emotionally sapping situations. I've also never really been into looks as well. I look for personality more than anything, like charisma. Although attractions always a plus. I love the natural down to earth types. Or perhaps the plain Jane girl next door. I don't think I'm very materialistic. & I don't get too much into the high maintenance thing. Although I do like to get my lady's nails done for her once in a while, because I live vicariously through the happiness of the people I love.
I'm also kinda looking to love somebody through their imperfections or flaws. So long as it don't make me feel too indifferent, out of place, or disrupts my balance of harmony too much. Because I feel we don't grow as people any other way sometimes. Plus I kinda believe opposites attract. I also believe we've all made our mistakes & perhaps we all may have a few regrets throughout our pasts. I'm the type that believes that redemption is one of the finer things in life. I'm the type that prefers to confront & take care of issues rather than run away from them. I'm kinda challenging like that. I don't believe in deceiving or hiding things from my partner. & nothing gets resolved running away from issues. I'd love to find a powerful woman that can give it to me straight. Or isn't afraid to put me straight if I'm slippin. I'm humble enough to know I can admit when I'm wrong. & I'd like a lady that can be the dominant strong woman in charge of shit sometimes. So confidence is a plus. I'm the guy that can work through the tough times, if you can as well. Because I don't get mixed up in fantasy, I understand life's not perfect all the time & shit happens. But I also know it goes the other way as well. Like good memories & fun times.
I'd like to think I'm a mystery. So if I told ya everything I'd be in a disposition of giving you nothing new to learn about me. Hmmm, or would I? Well let's just say I can be dark, not that I prefer to be. But at the same time I like to balance things out by doing a good deed or committing a kind act at least once a day. I'm street smart & I'm also confident, affectionate, sensual, generous & realistic. I don't like to be advantageous or selfish. & I allow the free will of others to take its course, even when I know better that the situations against me. I feel things happen for a reason & we all have our own course in life to travel. Like a bunch of puzzle pieces with their part in making a complete picture. I prefer to never to be forceful. As I like to treat other people the way I'd like to be treated.
I've never been married nor do I have any children. I have strawberry blonde hair. I have a few tattoos. I dress nice & I like to smell nice as well. I absolutely love to snowboard, it's my solace. I'm honest to a fault. I don't mind admitting when I'm wrong, because my mother raised me to accept responsibility for my actions. I prefer to be polite by saying please & thank you. Yes, I do have manners believe it or not. I also believe in chivalry. I've studied martial arts most my life. & I've competed in full contact martial arts tournaments in the past. Ya, I've won a couple trophies for it. But I've learned more getting my ass kicked by some of the worlds toughest black belts. Lets just say I've been through a lot & have also seen my fare share of dark times throughout my time in this life. & I'm thankful for it because I believe it's built me to be the man I am today.
Well lets see what else? I'm tall, so if you're tall great. Although I must admit I've always had a freakish attraction to shorties because they can be fun too. & I have a large tattoo piece I'd just recently had finished of an oriental dragon incorporated into my scars I'd received after being hit by a drunken driver. So if you have tatt's, I love ya already. I think Tattoo's are sexy & a turn on. I can also appreciate curves on a woman as well. I also think a pale skin complexion & freckles are sexy as hell. I look for personality traits such as regard & consideration of their partners feelings. & I also believe devotion, dedication, & sensuality are also necessary as well. I like to keep it somewhat classy with a little freak bend to my kink. Because you never know whats around the next corner in life. Nor what you might learn about yourself the next day.
I'm very philosophical & grounded spiritually. I love history & I'd like to think I'm also fairly intuitive & intelligent. I can also tend be theatrical & sarcastic as hell. I'd like to think I can be somewhat funny. I've always tended to be an outlaw, or the lone lion with his own pride, rather than wanting to be a part of group in society. I'm more home & family oriented type. Home is where my hearts at.
I tend to be a somewhat reserved type of guy, more of an observer. & rarely make the first move until I'm comfortable with someone or the situation. Although I've always been flattered when a woman is dominant & has the guts to make the first move on me. I also find it very admirable in these times of fem power & equal lib. & besides that I tend to have no desires unless I'm desired by someone more. I also have an open mind, & try to be very understanding. I try not to judge. Nor am I homophobic or racist. Because I believe gays have more balls than most the dude's I've known. & I also believe black skin is just as beautiful as pale white skin, I love them both. So if you're judgmental we may not get along very well. I also try to be selfless as well. Because I was raised to be crew minded & I believe that being there for the team is more important to me than being a selfish individual. So if you're a selfish individual we may not get along too well either. I believe in putting you ahead of me. So if you could have the same regard & consideration in return then maybe something with strength can be built between us. & perhaps something strong for our future as well.
I feel very fortunate to be here. I also love every breath I take, even when some of the days may not be so good. It's a blessing & simple miracle that any of us are here to experience life with one another within this short amount of time we're allowed. Life is what happens when your making plans for other things. So beyond all that I'm just an average guy seeking the same stimulation's in life we all are. Such as love, harmony & happiness. I believe it'd be nice to share something like that with somebody.
Playing poker on the side following a dream.
& I'm also pushing an invention of mine, It's a complete & compact hydroponic system I've named the "Lotus Blossom", through a patent marketing firm. I'm excited to have just recently signed the press release for it. Now it's in the marketing phase looking for a manufacturer to sign on it.
& I'm also running my small business thing as well called
"LOTUS BLOSSOM HYDROPONICS LLC".
I prefer to make my own music. But other than that I like old school East Coast Hip Hop like the GZA, Jazz as well as Gershwin, Blues like Muddy, BB, & Ray, Digital Electronica, progressive, trance, Dub, Mod, Industrial, Indie Rock Like Modest Mouse, Reggae Like Steel Pulse, Toots, Trip Hop like Tricky, & most female vocalist like Patsy Cline, Beth Orton, & many others. Also like the heavy stuff like Slayer, Pantera & old school Metallica, the Classics Like Hendrix, Doobie Bros., The Who, & the Alman Bros. & Classical Like Motzart, Choppin & Beethoven & many more. I dance to the beat of my own drum in life. & I also make my own songs. I love music, It'll be one of the few things in life I'll miss when I'm gone.
I watch lame crap on utube. I like comedy & old westerns. I also enjoy watching history shows, documentaries, poker or anything else generally educating. I use to be a movie buff. But learning the science behind the performance arts leaves it all kinda played out. & T.V. will rot your brains with all the commercials. I mean how many ways can the same story be told? Although I do enjoy the cinematography of a flick over the story line most the time. Not so much the computer graphics over the lighting, color & angles. But I don't mind cable series shows like Pillars of the Earth, Deadwood, Spartacus, Game of Thrones, Boardwalk Empire, Vikings, Black Sails, or The Walking Dead.
2. My friends, because it always takes a few clowns to make the world go round.
3. Confidence, because it don't grow on trees.
4. Love, because we could all use a little touch of it.
5. Money for the bills, because were all slaves to the society we live in.
6. & hope, because sometimes that's all we got beyond our faith.
Or perhaps if you're looking for something genuine & unique with some substance & depth. I'm actually a pretty cool & laid back kind of guy with a passion & zeal for life. I'm also very respectful through the smoke & mirrors I display as well. I mean why make it easy for those that want something for nothing? It keeps the diggers at bay.
I rarely ever message others due to the lack of engaging response. I find it kind of ironic that most ladies want more than a "hi" or "hey sexy" one liners. But can't put out what they'd expect. So I put an effort to write more when I message someone. & all I get in return are the sound of crickets, ha ha. I don't have time for someone that wont make time for me. So please, don't be shy. I mean really, what have you got to lose?