Right now I just feel lost, alone, and as I think of it - pathetic. Maybe I just need to quit thinking of all of this and get on with life. Dating is not what I remember it to be. Most women my age are looking for someone much younger. Those that aren't are wanting someone to take care of them that is the perfect image that their mother's told them to hold out for. I don't want to play those games. A good friend that can laugh with me, cry with me, point out my errors in this new world, understand that right now a permanent relationship for me is a buddy and not a wife - that would be good for now.
I retired from Law Enforcement, Phototechnology and general contract work. I like photography and working with my hands. If I am making or building something, I am happy. If I am helping other people, I am happy. I like working in my yard, going to movies, (or watching a good movie at home), visiting casino's (although I havent been to one in four years and I am not a big gambler), selling stuff on E-bay is a good pastime, and spending time with my grandchildren (when their mother finds it convenient).
I am not a sports fan. I can't stand smokers. I will not tolerate a liar or a thief. I am not impressed by people that do not take care of themselves!
I guess that should frighten the meek. I sometimes go off in a different direction when I am just sitting and thinking about what to write.