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My self-summary
Guess what. I am not 109 years old.

Cliff Notes version (for the tl;dr):
I'm a ballroom dancing, world traveling, stargazing, philosophizing, rugged, rosy glasses wearing, marathon running, intellectual adventurer. I'm down to earth, practical, logical, but also empathetic and idealistic. I live for action and want to run wild and dance in the rain. But, I'm just as happy relaxing on the couch with a good video game, book or movie. A child of dual extremes, I push both my mind and my body as far as they can go because I want to experience everything life has to offer. I'm a Marine and a librarian (there's a joke in there somewhere).

However, do not be dissuaded by my intensity. I might seem a little intimidating, but I am quite calm, level-headed and easy-going (is that grammatically correct or should it be dehyphenated??). Giving a good massage to the person I care about while spending a quiet evening at home, cuddling on the couch or staying in bed until one or two on a Saturday after a night out to the theater or dancing is my idea of a day well spent.
Full Version:
Hmm... this is waaaay to long. I will edit it. Read it all if you have time, if not check back later.

I'm a lifelong student (not the delegation but in the sense that I always am driven to learn all the time), librarian, (a library technician for all those in the field) and full time enthusiast of everything the world has to offer. I am a military vet and proud of the duty I was able to serve my country and the places and world view that I was able to build from being in it. I love life, the universe and everything. I also love academia and would stay in school learning forever. But, lately I've been feeling the need to "settle down" with somebody--actually, I think "settle down" is a bad choice of phrase. I want to find somebody to share and experience my adventures with. To dance in a downpour and laugh about it after, to visit exotic landscapes and take goofy pictures, to lay out and watch the stars while talking about the meaning of life, to curl up in bed at watch a movie or just read a good book while enjoying a nice glass of wine. That sounds awfully cliche, doesn't it? So be it. Cliches have to start somewhere, right?

Don't--under that description--assume I'm some hipster or yuppie new-age man though. I like being active, getting rough and dirty, working on my car and think a day of working hard outside is more fulfilling than sitting in a cushy office sending emails (although I currently do the latter). I love hockey and football, but much rather be--and have been--in the mix than being at the game, and much, much more than sitting in an armchair watching it at my house. I enjoy the outdoors and find it liberating to throw society aside for a week or so and enjoy nature's bounty.

I have a deep love of history, philosophy, science, language and books. I want to learn everything there is to know and be able to pass that knowledge on and see the interconnection of everything. I'm one of the people who always wondered how vampires get tired of "living." Loneliness? Maybe. Boredom? Really?!? You must suck at everything cool. I could have a millennium and still not read and learn everything I wanted to. It's probably why I don't sleep very much. No time!! But I digress...

When I'm not out having a blast and enjoying theater, cook outs, dances, musicals, going to theme parks and on adventures, I am recuperating or hanging out at my house with friends or by myself. I am just as comfortable curling up on the couch and watching a movie, playing a video game, reading a book or working on whatever I am "practicing regularly" that day (see "I'm really good at").

I'm a cuddler, and think that I could easily have been happy as a cat (Plus, 9 lives? BONUS!). Curling up next to somebody in front of a fireplace, reading a good book and enjoying a drink is amazing. Don't get me wrong, I'm a passionate guy and love the infatuation and draw of a new relationship. But, like being comfortable too. That moment when you don't have to be doing anything, because just being in the presence of the other is enjoyable.

Now on to the /slightly/ negative stuff.

As you can probably tell by now, I can come across as a bit verbose, but I always like to listen too. A successful relationship should be an equal give and take, and not one person shouldering the burdens of the other.

I abhor politics, politicians and gossip, reality tv, religious debate. That being said, I don't mind talking about religion or having religious discussions with informed, levelheaded individuals who understand their respective religious texts and do not degenerate others beliefs because they are different in doctrine, faith or practice. I hold spirituality and truth over dogma and feel if more people were to try and understand others, most of the world's excuses for hate would be solved. And since this has come up before recently, if you are an indoctrinated creationist, that is okay. As long as you are willing to accept somebody who believes that evolution and creation can co-exist. Why does religious discussion always go there? My personal view is: what does it matter what you believe or do not believe in? If the two parties care about each other, things will work out.

I've seen a lot of horror and devastation in my life--more than anybody has a right to see--and I think living through it has enabled me to truly love what has been provided to us, not just as Americans, but as people. Often times, this leads me to be disappointed with humans as a species because I feel there is so much potential in people to help one another and make the world a better place and they fail to live up to it--and no, I am not a hippie.

That being said, I am also a realist. I may shift to a hyper-logical state when confronted by important decisions and plan and adapt to my environment immediately and overcome the obstacles. I was trained to. I can see the other side of an argument and use it to objectively come to a compromise or suggestion that will diffuse bad situations and arguments--which can be frustrating for people who like to stay angry for the sake of stress relief (it's a valid form of relief, just--from experience--tends to not work with my style of discuss, consensus, make-up). I was raised in a "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all" household and apply that when I am angry, in order to mentally calm down before I say something that might hurt somebody's feelings or that I might regret saying later.
What I’m doing with my life
Full time school, work and research. What I am not doing? Sleeping.
I phase throughout the year on what I'm doing when I should be sleeping. I'll try to keep this updated. Currently my phase is:

-->Television ---> READING --> Creativity-->
I’m really good at
Nothing, and proud of it. Now, before you think, "Why that's a dumb thing to be proud of," let me explain...

Everybody starts out at a minimal level of knowledge where they don't know how good they are or not because they haven't tried or applied themselves to learning it. But as we improve, we get to a point where we think, "I'm good at this." After that, however, the better we are at something, the worse we realize we are at a point. We know what we are doing wrong, how much we can improve, and realize how little we actually know.

In order to truly be good at something you have to sacrifice aptitude and time in other things in order to not only maintain, but to succeed further in it. I love too many things and refuse to sacrifice many of my loves in order to concentrate on just one.

So instead, I will list things I enjoy to practice regularly: Drawing, dancing, costume/prop design/construction, writing, working out, running (a lot), playing guitar (mostly classical), researching/learning, creative projects, cooking, and adventuring (and yes, one can practice adventuring)
The first things people usually notice about me
My hair, which is unusually long for a guy (think Sampson w/o the genocide of the Philistines) and my eyes which I'm told are pretty striking. I have the whole "rugged veteran biker" look going with my bandana and leather jacket or I am trimmed up and wearing a suit--"Suit up!!"--and look like a hitman. No in-between, no shorts, no polos.

Currently, looking even more like a biker. Growing a beard and putting on some weight for a D*Con costume.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Editing this section atm:

Oh. My. God.
Why do they always have these? Ugh.
I think the list of what I dislike is more valid, and much, much

STUFF I LOVE (or like but few people would think of):
11-22-63, It, Snow Crash, LotR, The Hobbit, On Stranger Tides, Last Call, Stress of Her Regard, Ender's Game/Shadow Series, Watchmen, Sandman, Dark Tower Series (and it's related titles), Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy series, The Hunger Games, Dune, Harry Potter series... now reading through ALL of Philip K. Dick so far, so good. Read all (that's out) of Game of Thrones

5th Element, Army of Darkness, Groundhog Day, Back to the Future, The Neverending Story, Princess Bride, Beauty and the Beast, Star Trek 4, Indiana Jones, Shaun of the Dead, Eternal Sunshine on the Spotless Mind, The Dark Knight Trilogy, Inception, Matrix, Pan's Labyrinth, Mirrormask, The Mask, Harry Potter series, The New Marvel Movies (including the Amazing Spiderman), Tangled The Hunger Games, Shutter (foreign version), more Asian horror films then I can mention

Movies that I would've loved had 1 or 2 things been different:
the other 2 Matrix Movies (if there had been a hook)
Star War 1-3 (if there had been good writing)
Indiana Jones 4 (without the alien thing)
Butterfly Effect (can't put my finger on it)
Spiderman (respectively: gone with Gwen, if they didn't put out a sun in the ocean, and not re-write the origin in the same series)
Advent Children (with real physics or none at all)

[what I'm currently watching]
Breaking Bad, Burn Notice, How I Met Your Mother, Supernatural, Grimm, Community, Dexter, Bones, South Park, Parks and Rec, Robot Chicken

[some of my favorites that aren't in season or have ended]
Joss Whedon's anything, Archer, Battlestar Galactica, The Guild, Mythbusters, Star Trek:TNG, Doctor Who, Merlin, Sherlock, Faulty Towers, Warehouse 13, X-Files, Walking Dead, GAME OF THRONES

[Currently Playing]
On lent, gave up video games, but what's piled up while I've been on hiatus:
Final Fantasy XI, Final Fantasy XIII-2, Silent Hill: HD Collection, Arkham Asylum, Kid Icarus: Uprising, Ultimate Marvel vs Capcom, Legend of Zelda: Phantom Hourglass, Silent Hill:Downpour. Will I play them all? Probably not, too busy. But, it's a cross-section of some of the games I like. Soo... I never picked FFXI back up, Arkham Asylum made me motion sick (as did L.A.Noire) *sadface*

<3 Industrial, Techno, Classical, Flamenco
Will dance to:
Hustle, Salsa, [any international standard dance--including "polka-doble"], Industrial
Almost anything I've watch a good AMV/music video for
I have a really good musical memory of old school video games and classical music... dunno why

Cuban Sandwiches (my family's recipe), 2AM Chili, BananaRama, Teriyaki Burgers, Chicken Enchiladas, Paella, Crepe Suzettes, a real cheesesteak, a real pizza (basically going through my recipe book)
MEAT!! Like... Monkey D. Luffy style.


Many of the textbooks I've had to read.
Chaucer: not for content but for style, though I might give it
another go-round now that I am not 14
The Blue Sword: the first chapter was about friggin' orange juice.
I love the OJ, but really? Get to the [anything interesting].

Um... Can't say Twilight because, I haven't watched it. Oh! Those cliche animated films that are poorly written. Like Robots.
Actually, any film that is incredibly horribly written/directed.
Unless, it is intentionally done so--read: Army of Darkness--or so bad it's good to laugh at--read: any Dolph Lundgren/Steven Seagal film. Something with a heavy-handed message that is shoved down the viewer throat. Like Avatar or the Lorax (not the new one, when did that even happen??), if they weren't as enjoyable as they were. Crappy romantic comedies have their place in my heart, so that's okay.

Reality. Television. (Except for Joe Schmoe, that was inventive and

Contemporary Country-Rock or Contemporary Country. Not including
bluegrass (which is AMAZING) and folk (which is pretty good).

Bleu cheese, Limburger cheese or liver and onions. Most of the
bug dishes I've tried in other countries not particularly
appetizing, but that might be psychosomatic.
The six things I could never do without
my mind, my body, my soul, my senses, hope, love. Luckily I have all of those.
more materialistically:
my sketchpad, my guitar, my running leather jacket? my smartphone (I could do without it, just makes me incredibly more efficient), a towel (because I'm a zarkin frood)
I spend a lot of time thinking about
The threads that weave everything together.
Solving the worlds problems (seriously).
How to accomplish everything I want to.
The most efficient way to do [insert anything here]
How to get that platinum trophy or better delegate my time in whatever game I'm currently playing (I have spreadsheets).
The lyrics to that song/musical I can't get out of my head.
On a typical Friday night I am
Having a cookout with my friends, playing video games, or watching a movie. Going on road trips, attending the theater, doing something adventurous.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I'm very playful. I especially like to "hunt" my friends and coworkers (bosses included) to keep them on their toes.
How's that you ask? I hide, crawl, hang from whatever I can and pounce/descend/sneak up to them and do one of the following.
Tap their opposite shoulder; Lean in very close and say, "Boo!" or say "What have you got there?" or possibly attack them in some silly way (like with an imaginary katana). Have to keep them on their toes in case of the Zombie apocalypse.
I will stare somebody down...glare, really...just to mess with them. Gotta keep that penetrating gaze honed.

Current Guilty Pleasure:
Naruto Ninja Storm: Generations *but it's sooooooo fun*
Oh! And collecting my 'lost childhood' (aka games that I always wanted but couldn't afford when I was a kid). Currently: MtG

On a more serious note:
I've been a lot of places and experienced a lot of things that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy, and don't like to talk about it. Some military questions/stories are fine, but asking--read: berating me with--penetrating questions about where I've been and what I've done is not cool. Everybody who's asked, "How many people have you killed?" needs to be slapped, hard. I mean, really...REALLY?!? Crass. <---way too nice an adjective.
You should message me if
You read this and are interested.

You know what my username means without having to google it.

You are a nerd-girl or gamer-chick. I hate the terms, but if you are one you probably have been called a gamer or a nerd or called a fake one...
Another segway:
So yeah. There is controversy about these terms now, so I apologize if some comic-writing douche-bag insulted the population of gamers/nerds that are girls. And to all of his sympathizers, and people that agree with him: Screw you. Just because somebody is not as big a nerd as you, doesn't live in their mom's basement at 40, and doesn't know the difference between golden age and silver age, doesn't make them less of a nerd, you chauvinist jackasses. I'd stuff you in a locker if you'd fit...and you weren't so, so friggin' sad and pitiable. *sigh* Sorry, elitism and sexism really piss me off. Wait, why am I soap-boxing? Dudes aren't going to read this...or are they? *wiggly eyebrow*

Normally I say "fit" in there, but I cannot hold a double standard, once D*Con is over though and I drop the weight again, it will return as well.
And by fit I mean: can keep up with me for a few mile run (I'll keep it under 6), dance for a few hours straight or make it through a session of p90x without dying...much.

And by nerdy or gamer-y (?) I mean you know what a book is, geek out over science discoveries, stargaze, have an overactive imagination, can be painfully logical, handy around the house (like knowing how to maintain your own yard, car or electronics), live on the internet some days, or enjoy being a kid trapped in an adult's body (i.e. eating cap'n crunch while watching cartoons, making blanket forts, having chicken fights in the pool, dancing or racing shopping carts down the aisle of a grocery store, compulsively having to play with the toys in the toy department, and has to dress up for Halloween because of the candy). You don't have to play video games, but you have to be okay with somebody who does.
There is nothing more attractive in this world than a woman who is mentally, emotionally, and physically fit but can geek out over stuff.