Our bodies have changed. But our hearts have not. We dream: The candle-lit dinner completed, the band begins to play our song. Our fingers touch, and we glide onto the dance floor. I hold you close and whisper sweet nothings into your ear. As the music stops, just standing there, melting into each other's arms, feeling the gentle heartbeat and the softness of your flesh. Walking arm in arm along a deserted moonlit beach, listening to the song of the crashing waves as they rush onto the shore. Then, as we reached the doorstep of our home we laugh, jump and play like children. We rush up the stairs leading to an outdoor balcony, where our nest overlooking the moon-lit sea awaits us. And then, oh joy, wonder and delight as we move into the mystery of the night. Is this your dream also?
Our exterior appearance has changed, that's inevitable. It is not as attractive as it once was. Yet internally, the opposite is true, for we have lived life, and gained some wisdom. In reality, the external appearance is unimportant, for it is fleeting and always changing, what is really important is the unchanging character of the soul. This is the source of true love, that lasts a lifetime.
The key to any love relationship is complete and honest communication, of the mind, heart, body, and soul, without the fear of judgement. This is the ability to be who you are which is necessary for love to flower and flourish.
One of my favorite quotes, and one I always try to live by is: "This above all: to thine own self be true, And it must follow, as the night the day, Thou canst not then be false to any man." This is essential for living a good life, and sensible advice for anyone on a site like this, where we are trying to connect with like-minded people. After all, if a person is not true to themselves and others, the only person they ultimately fool is themselves.
Of course, I'm biased about myself, so this may all be delusional (like Donald Trump). But I see myself as being eclectic, faithful, intelligent, a free-spirit yet responsible, honest, affectionate, and playfully cheerful. Oh yes, also a hopeless romantic. I have a warped sense of humor, can laugh at myself, and enjoy life in all its aspects. While I am not dogmatically religious, I am very spiritual, and appreciate the beauty and wonder of creation. My puppy-dog will vouch that I am kind, considerate, and friendly.
I have had a fairly interesting life. My first love and I were ripped apart by "Cold War" politics. (The story is documented by a Romanian magazine at http://revistatango.ro/tora-vasilescu-si-marea-ei-iubire-pierduta-2669 ). I was a Stage Technician on Broadway and later an officer in the technician's union. When microcomputers were first being introduced, I recognized the possibilities offered by them. Most experts thought they would never be more then a toy. I became a part owner of the company that developed the "Dow Jones Market Analyzer". It was the first "home" computer program that accessed a main-frame for data - 10 years before the Internet. I was a pioneer in the revolution which would change the world. This provided me the financial security to retire at age 40 to the tropical island paradise I had always dreamed about.
I now seek something we all know, yet it can not be easily defined. It exists in many different forms, and each is a joy beyond words alone. A bridge that can enable two souls to find each other, and unite into one spirit. A tender spark that can become a fiery passion.
It is love that I seek, but I am not sure if it will be the pure love found in friendship, or that very special kind of love found with a life partner. In any case, whatever we find, it will be love and I invite you to share it with me, for it will enrich both our lives.
However, if you are seeking an immediate partner to physically be with, I am not the one you are searching for. "Casual Dating" would not be an option for us in the early part of our relationship. There is an ocean between us. While New York is officially my home, I have resided for many years on various Caribbean Islands, fulfilling a dream I had as a young man. But as I write this, I am temporarily in Connecticut being treated for a cataract in my right eye.
We must realize whatever our ultimate relationship is, it will begin with an eMail friendship. While our bodies may not touch, our minds can. We can grow in intimacy, exploring every nook and cranny of each other's mind and soul. Yet, even as we exchanged eMails and developed a relationship, I would anticipate and assume, until we mutually agreed otherwise, you would be dating locally. I am not jealous or possessive. I would hope you felt the same way.
However, I return to the States often to visit family and friends, and you will be a friend. And then we can go dancing on a Moonlit night and who knows what dreams will come true. Our relationship can not be forced, it must flow naturally from itself, and that will take time.
I indicate that I am looking for women between 18 and 99 because wisdom and friendship can be found at any age. I am not just looking for a romantic relationship.
I have never been able to understand, how beliefs about something we can know nothing about with any certainty, can cause conflict and so much pain. What made people believe: "9-11", "suicide bombing", "Jonestown", "the Inquisition" or the causing any kind of pain was the expression of God's will? To me, what I conceive of as God, would only want His creations to treat each other (including nature) with respect, tolerance, understanding, and love.
Like most people, I had been only a spectator, viewing a world divided by a hate and fear. I would watch the TV as it would show the images of all the broken, bloody bodies of small innocent children killed in a conflict about God. One day after watching the news, as I gazed out my window at local children laughing and playing, a cold shudder went through me. I asked: "Why God, why? The conflict generated in your name is madness." Then a small "Inner Voice" answered me. It said I must do more then ask “Why?” A God who is Spirit, a God who is Love can only act through us. This “Inner Voice” then guided me to start writing a book as the answer to my prayer. This book is an obsession, a "calling", I do not understand. I am not a religious man, why me?
Frankly, the sense that I have a "calling" scares the hell out of me. I do not understand the origin of this book. I am not sure if it is the ranting of a madman, or its source is far beyond my understanding. It feels like the book is writing itself, as the very first thing I was guided to was the following which begins this book:
Where there is hate, let me bring Love –
Where there is offense, let me bring Pardon –
Where there is discord, let me bring Union –
Where there is error, let me bring Truth –
Where there is doubt, let me bring Faith –
Where there is darkness, let me bring Light –
Where there is sadness, let me bring Joy –
May it be, O Lord, that I seek not so much
To be consoled, as to console,
To be understood, as to understand,
To be loved, as to love
--- St Francis of Assisi ---
This brought a tear to my eye, as it sung to me. It expresses the highest aspirations a human can have. Does it also sing to you? Do you hear a small Inner Voice calling out to you? If so we have something in common, and I am glad to meet you. Perhaps we are soulmates. It is no accident that you read this.
I am also really good at being modest. Although
I love myself,
I think I'm grand.
When I go to the movies,
I hold my hand.
I put my arm around my waist,
and when I get fresh, I slap my face.
I guess Don the Con and I have something in common. Let me tweet about my Yuuuuuuge modesty, it is so tremendously Covfefe. This is the most bigly reason why you should be with me.
I am also really good at writing bad poetry:
I am living the good life,
one without any strife.
This is the invitation I make for you,
would you like to live it too.
Since we only have today,
Let's not live life just halfway.
Get ready for a whole new scheme,
it is time you dare to dream.
If you dreamt it would be nice,
to live on a tropical island paradise,
Then this is a dream I share with you,
but I had the means to make it true.
To me, life is an adventure,
so let's make it a shared venture.
Are you willing to take a chance,
and join me in life's dance?
Cold blackened slush drove me from New York City,
I loved it there, so that's a pity;
but living on a tropical island is not so bad,
so I have no reason to be sad.
Half a year in the States,
then it is time for me to migrate,
To the Caribbean, I will go,
this has become my yearly flow.
A land with exotic flowers is where I fled,
its island beauty is widespread.
But the sun, sand, and surf,
are also reasons for my mirth.
An island is surrounded by the Sea,
yet no Mermaids are looking for me.
Life can be perfect, that is true,
that is why I'm here looking for you.
Because we are in different locales,
we must start by being pen pals.
A friendship that we can grow,
will never cause us any woe.
Friendship is a kind of love,
it is a gift from heaven above.
And perhaps it becomes romance,
if we only give it a chance.
The fiery cauldron of love melts ice and snow,
so back to the States I am willing to go.
Back for the one who touches my soul,
the one for whom I will be her beau.
My sense of humor which is goofy, and sees the irony in most things.
My cute little puppy dog who is an endless wellspring of love and affection.
Love of all types.
My computer and Internet
Learning new things
A good conversation
And of course my book.
You started to read my long, boring profile last night and wanted to thank me for a good night's sleep.
You work for the Hallmark card company, and you would like to offer me a job writing bad poems.
If you want to dance under the Moonlite.
You voted for Donald Trump and would like to explain to me how any woman could do so.
No matter your spiritual/religious beliefs or non-beliefs, I would appreciate it if you would be willing to read my book as it is written and give me feedback. I have set up a special eMail account to expedite this: AnInnerVoice@gmail.com Of course, you could still use the regular OKC messaging system if you like. If you are not interested in helping me with the book, but find me otherwise interesting, I am open to a relationship also with you. After all, perhaps I am a little bit crazy. I hope to hear from you soon.
Thank you for your kind attention in reading all this, I know this profile was too long.