Like many, I am largely motivated by sex and attractive people, but I cultivate ideals to temper my folly. Although generous to a fault, highly sentimental, and easy going, I enjoy a fetishy, alpha type personality and am extremely bossy in the bedroom. (Yes, my name is a command.) I aspire to an egalitarian, Christian-Anarchist perspective, and try to enjoy everyone's uniqueness, but I'm weary of dull, jaded hipster-clones. I occasionally fret and fuss over futile minutiae, but ultimately rest in the knowledge that Destiny gives each of us what we need. I'm a loner with many friends, yet I always want more. I prefer the fast lane, but I'm cautious and indicate before making a turn. I have a keen eye for nuance and innuendo, but often miss what's in plain view. I squint hard at the last purple before X-rays. Poised on the last rung of confidence before it becomes cocky, I'm secretly a bit shy. Reverent yet perverted. (Perverent?)
I like to greet every day with serenity and enthusiasm. Although a bit of a dandy fop myself, I am only snobbish toward poorly dressed people if they have a matching attitude. In general, I strive to be harder on myself than I am on others, because I believe this is the basis of good character. When I get angry or upset, I usually find a way to be alone until my nerves are steady. To maintain my flexibility, I regularly take long, solitary walks through unfamiliar neighborhoods. I recently asked my Dad why, for all my intense sociability, I truly enjoy being entirely alone without being bothered for long periods of time, and he told me I was "a product of judicious neglect."
I am often trying to repair the rift between my true self and the persona I project, but there are more important things in life than an integrated identity. I can't think of what they might be, but I'm quite sure of it.
I'm convinced that everything modern and technologically advanced is draining us of a certain vitality, though in many instances I'm willing to risk it for the excitement and convenience. I finally got a cell phone when I moved to LA, but until then I didn't feel pressured to get one. My resistance wasn't just to be different, they just seemed like a real pain in the ass. (Now, I must admit, I love having one!) I guess I'm a bit proud of resisting silly trends, and take pleasure in maintaining composure when everyone around me is freaking out.
I don't believe there is one right way to view any paradox, and the world is too large and ancient and full of mysteries to get trapped in rigid ideas and expectations.
I do love authentic American culture like old motels, movie theaters, coffee shops, railway stations, penny arcades, and such. I don't think of them as symbols, but as living realities that remind us of what we've lost. I have never seen an ugly or unappealing cemetery, and I live for flea markets, estate sales, record and book stores. Although I strive not to live in the past, I miss the days when cities were literally filled with used record and book stores. Young people may be surprised to know that once upon a time you literally could not walk a few blocks in any major city without finding a little shop full of cool stuff old and new. I'm eager for another road trip, but can't find the right driving partner.
I prefer conspiracy and muckraker books to true crime, but I'd like to hear more about successful criminals, since I have always held a certain distaste for the Law. That said, I acknowledge this antisocial tendency as a product of contemporary radical individualism, and not a trait to flaunt or pursue.
Also: Sex is a high art which I take very seriously.
A few writers I've always enjoyed: Céline, Lewis Carroll, Philip K Dick, Charles Willeford, Jean Genet, Astrid Lindgren, Emily Bronte, Charlotte Bronte, Juan Goytisolo, Italo Calvino, Opal Whiteley, Mary Shelley, Gilbert Sorrentino, Lord Byron, Gaston Bachelard, Mark Twain, Rob Hardin, G. K. Chesterton, John Hawkes, Flann O'Brien, Julio Cortazar, The Marquis de Sade, Rainer Maria Rilke, Novalis, Goethe, Schiller, Emerson, Dostoevsky, Gogol, Rudolf Steiner. I am a comics freak and I also read a lot about parapsychology, esoteric studies, conspiracy and antigravity/ufo type stuff, sexual politics, and I'm fairly knowledgeable on these subjects.
Some of my favorite movies: Mr. Arkadin, The Brood, eXistenZ, Videodrome, Eyes Without a Face, The Tenant, Pippi Goes on Board, Eraserhead, Female Trouble, Teorema, The Saragossa Manuscript, Don't Look Now, Hump of the Sado Queen, Galaxy Quest, Mudhoney, Beyond the Valley of the Dolls, L'Age d'Or, Los Olvidados, Belle de Jour, Score, Bedazzled, The Curse of Her Flesh, Shampoo, Duck Soup, The Creature from the Black Lagoon, Carnival of Souls, The Decameron, Autobiography of a Flea, Dead of Night, The Fallen Idol, Shampoo, Welcome Home Brother Charles, Spider Baby, Behind The Green Door, Spirited Away, Marketa Lazarova, A History of Violence, Let the Right One In, I Know Where I'm Going!, Salo, Curse of the Demon, The Holy Mountain, Phantom of the Paradise, Curse of the Cat People, Point Blank, Dead of Night, Billy Liar, The Erotic Rites of Frankenstein, anything with Edward G. Robinson, Lon Chaney, Sr., Buster Keaton, Charles Laughton, Robert Mitchum, Humphrey Bogart, Sidney Greenstreet, Veronica Lake, Julie Christie.
Owning 4000 LPs makes it hard to choose, but I really love The Beatles, The Bee Gees, The Byrds, The Hollies, Big Star, The Kinks, The Zombies, The Move, The Pretty Things, Queen, Os Mutantes, Scott Walker, Colin Blunstone, Duncan Browne, Nick Drake, John Cale, Pink Floyd, The Monkees, Jethro Tull, The Beach Boys, Hawkwind, Steve Hillage, Bo Hansson, Gong, Faust, Agitation Free, Amon Duul II, Cluster, Kraftwerk, Tangerine Dream, Fairport Convention, Donovan, The Shaggs, Sly & The Family Stone, Parliament-Funkadelic, Curtis Mayfield, Family, Genesis, Yes , King Crimson, Van Der Graaf Generator, Peter Hammill, Caravan, Hatfield and the North, Camel, Magma, Heldon, Le Orme, Ange, Slapp Happy, Durutti Column, Wire, Public Image Ltd., John Foxx, Joy Division, Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark, Echo and the Bunnymen, Blondie, Chrome, DOME, Devo, The Go-Betweens, Cocteau Twins, Felt, Dungen, The Cardigans, Belle & Sebastian, Astor Piazzola, Charles Mingus, Slim Gaillard, Alice Coltrane, Lonnie Liston Smith, Fleetwood Mac, Popol Vuh, Captain Beefheart, Robert Wyatt, Brian Eno, The Cure, Ultravox!, Tuxedomoon, Au Revoir Simone, Miranda Lee Richards, The Four Seasons, Iggy Pop, Syd Barrett, Buzzcocks, Small Faces, The Monks, The Young Marble Giants, and so on... Really, I could go for pages. Music is very important to me, and I appreciate popular and esoteric music equally.
great books and movies
love and sex
So, now that I have you thinking my way, let's elaborate our shared outlook a bit further: To effectively subvert the prevalent world-view — which is reductive, reactionary, morbid, dogmatic, materialistic, technophiliac, and otherwise wrongheaded in countless ways — we must replace it with something better. Human beings are social creatures and we cannot survive separate from the truth. If our lives be theater, we should perform with dignity, stagecraft and a respectful wink to the almighty. Yea, so be it.
Ah, but enough about me! ... Well, on second thought, here is some more about me:
You don't use the word 'random' when you mean arbitrary, surprising, unexpected, or unknown.
You don't mind standing and walking on my right side most of the time.
You occasionally drool, or think you might enjoy drooling on occasion.
You've read my entire profile and think, "I need to know this guy!"