Way way too long.
I never seem to have the time to edit it ( although apparently had the time to write it?)
I apologize in advance, should you attempt to read this tangential ramble..
OK. I begin...,
" We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."
- Oscar Wilde
" Is not the whole world a vast house of assignation to which the filing system has been lost?"
- Quentin Qrisp
" What is a cynic? A man who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing"
- Oscar Wilde
Had to quote him again....he's
one of my favorite Irishmen, for being wise and funny and brave and quote worthy as hell.
Pretty sure he said something about people who quote others as lacking in imagination.
I should quote it but can't find it at the moment....
All you can do is give it your best shot. Hey, I'm trying... Every day is a chance to
" take arms against a sea of trouble"
OK! The " quote-a-master" portion of this broadcast is done ( for now. l just can't help myself )
My name is not Penny.
I'm not really 5ft 4...I've said I am for so long I even had myself fooled. But so, I'm closer to 5ft 3....if I stand reallyreeeally straight...
I was born in Tokyo, Japan to American parents, grew up in the unbelievably beautiful city/ country of Geneva, Switzerland...moved to the U.S. for the first time as a young teen, and I still feel like a stranger in a strange land at times.
That's my Big Opening Line. I tend to introduce myself that way, you know, bc it gives an aura of mystery...ha.
All that just speaks mostly to my parent's interesting lives, i suppose.
Btw, this profile has gotten away from me, as far as length. I need to edit this thing, forGODsake!
So many people here say they're "good at making people laugh". I think humans often make each other laugh. This is where "show" not "tell" comes into play. I do have to admit I really don't understand when people state how " smart" and "funny" they are. I can't imagine meeting someone and declaring myself to be those things.
There seems to be a very large amount of " laid back" and " drama free" people here as well.
So i suppose one can infer that there are lots of semi- comatose, yet hilariously funny people out in okc land.
Give me some energy! Life is exciting and dramatic... I hope never to be " drama free", forgodsake.
Btw, I'm not meaning crazy " acting out" drama. More that I love excitement and adventure.
Oh, and feel free to help with any editing.
I swear I've tried.
ENFP, in case that's of any interest.
SO, anyway....most of my teenage years were spent in Woodstock, where my family moved to after Switzerland. I was very very lucky to have been able to experience that town when I did. So many artists and bands, from the Stones ( who did Some Girls here) to The Psychedelic Furs, The B - 52's...all showed up in town to record albums at Todd Rundgren's Utopia Studios ( Todd lived here....on Mink Hollow road, of course?) The Stones played an impromptu gig at a local place, which is the kind of thing that happened a lot back then.
Btw, Mick Jagger seduced, and spent the weekend with my (18 year old) friend, who said he was "really nice and grrrreat in bed!" and has a good story to tell ( along with thousands of other women...). All kinds of people came through.... Hendrix, Thelonius Monk, The Band, of course.
I won't do all the name dropping I could, as I want to come off as unassuming and modest.
I will say I was in Rick Danko's
(The Band) living room when he sang " It Makes No Difference " while playing the piano.
He invited me to sing the harmony, and said " it's like flying with the angels when it all works" ( don't think he meant my harmony though...ha)
Albert Grossman lived here, which brought all of the artists he managed to the town at one time or another, Dylan and Joplin among them.
Levon Helm , the great drummer and singer from The Band lived here until his recent death, and did really wonderful shows all the time at his home/studio.
Dave Brubeck, Donald Fagan, half of Steely Dan (who still does). People are "too cool" in Woodstock to fawn over celebrities. I don't think Bob Dylan was quite so fortunate. Locals were OK, but people from far and wide made pilgramiges to see him, thinking he was some kind of guru. I like when he answered back to a reporter " Hey, I'm just a song 'n dance man". I didn't mention him in my ridiculously long list of "likes", but I don't know if there's anyone in his league, as far as songwriting and just, well, greatness.
It was pretty interesting considering Woodstock was, and still is a small town. Just about everyone I knew played something, and the best times I can remember having were hanging out with friends and either listening to or playing music.
It was a time when great music and musicians were everywhere.
I want to go 'off topic' for a moment. The age ranges that I put down for me are really ball park figures. Age really is so damn relative, and there are young people who seem 'old' and 'old' people who are young. That being said, originally, I had a somewhat higher 'age range' here, and I was getting messages from much older guys who really were, well, older......in appearance and attitude. To be totally honest, I also started to get annoyed by all the men my age who had 25-40 as their 'range', so I decided to go much lower. That was also influenced by some 'lovely messages' (to quote OKC) from younger fellows, and even some lovelier meetings and dates that resulted from them, which got me thinking.....why not? I'm not obsessed with age, and I aint no cougar, homie. Why is there not a word like that for a man, Is the thing? Ok! Glad we had this talk.
I love language, words...."riffing" on life ( a friend once said I did that. I'm not exactly lsure what he meant, but it sounds good?). Lived in France when I was in my 20s, married a French guy, (who, it turned out, loved himself enough for the both of us) and learned to speak French. Not necessarily in that order, though. I have somewhat of a passion for justice/ against injustice ( obviously subjective) and admire people who fight the good fight, big and small picture. I try to. This describing one's self thing is super uncomfortable.
Well, ok, I'm starting to warm up, but really, i'm better at showing off in person? So many "I " sentences......goodgrief. Maybe that's a healthy reaction to it. OK, moving on.
I often laugh loud and hard if I think something is funny. On occasion , friends have been known to move a seat or two down the aisle in a movie theater, if Im getting too sort of loud....but I really do try and keep a handle on it.
Somehow I've raised a bright and lovely daughter, who is smarter, wiser and cooler than me.
It's fair to say "the student has surpassed the teacher".
She is a young woman out in the world now, and while I am always her mom, we are friends, and I don't just love her, I really respect and like her too.
One more thing. I must comment on the questions and results of same. The "OK Cupid" graph says I'm ' less mannered', 'more aggressive', 'kinkier', ' less romantic' and more 'indie' than other women. The thing is, I did answer the questions as honestly as I could, given the fact that some.of the choices were very constraining. And btw, I still can't believe I even answered most of those sex questions, mygod. But then I think, well, what's the big deal. That being said, I'm a serious person, and I am not here to find casual sex. That is easy enough to get, if one so desires it ( hey...did I imagine it, or did I just hear a chorus of " REALLY? Tell me where all this casual sex is, that you claim is " so easy" to get?)... I would hope for something more meaningful than that. And many of the 'conclusions' aren't really all that true. The 'indie' thing, i'm ok with, but not so much the rest of it. First of all, I believe in manners, which I think are pretty damn important, as far as human behavior goes, and I am polite and really have a strong aversion to selfishness and rudeness( for example, I don't like to hurt peoples' feelings, I mean, I avoid even hurting my dogs' feelings, which is pretty much every time I leave my house without them, so thats really tough, and I think its more than rude to not give a crap about treating our planet kindly and gently ). As for the kinky reference, I am not here for anything shallow? I grew up with pretty hip liberal parents who didn't put a lot of shame or guilt around the whole subject of sexuality, but I am not a casual person. That doesn't mean something needs to be a big huge deal? I am romantic, but not so much in the western sense ( well, OK, I realize the word itself is derived from Western sensibilities ) that implies all the things our culture has made it into, and reduced it to. I hope this helps to offset some of the 'staff robot's' conclusions, even a little bit forgodsake.
One thing I'm good at is (ironically)
editing. Just not myself I suppose?
I love language, and I have a pretty good knack for guessing where someone is from based on their accent. I also like 'doing' accents and while I wouldn't compare myself to...say, Meryl Streep, I'm pretty good at it.
It's so interesting to me how distinct our voices are, and how we can often recognize someone instantly by their voice on the phone, even if we've not seen or heard them in years.
This is almost too silly to answer.
How do I know? How does anyone really know?
The only answer I've read that really struck me was a guy who was a paraplegic.
He said "my wheelchair ", and ofc as hard as it is to realize how true that is, it made perfect sense.
I do want to say I dislike the OKC choices for body type. I put it "curvy" because it was the only close option. However, my daughter mentioned that "curvy" is often an 'e-dating' euphamism for large, and not that there's anything wrong with large, I am not large.
I suppose the answer depends on who is doing the 'noticing'?
I'm pretty sure my humility and modesty jump out at folks right away? This part of the profile makes me a bit queasy ( as per my modesty). I have been described as friendly.
But this is asking what 'people' notice, and therefor, although I am a 'person', I don't feel qualified to answer......
But, SO, I have a special love for passionate, life affirming authors, being a passionate, life affirming, well, person ( I do like reading about the dark and macabre side of life as well. It's all part of the spectrum, and what I like/ respond to has more to do with the quality of the writing than anything else). My all time favorite writer in the ' life affirming/passionate' catagory, any catagory really, is Leo Tolstoy. It has been years since I' ve read the classics, but I hold many dear to my heart...from Homer to Joyce, Melville....and there's the great man and poet Walt Whitman, Allan Ginsburg, Emily Dickinson, of course William Burroughs, Jack Kerouac, James Baldwin....and I'll segway on to Henry Miller,who' s stuff I read as a teenager, and re- read again this year. I can't in good conscience leave out the Great Master, Shakespeare, who besides the truth and beauty of his words and weaving a great yarn, influenced the English language possibly more than any other single person. I love me some great Russian writers .....Solzhenitsyn, Chekov, Gogol, Dostoyevski and NO, okc, I do not think Lolita/ Nabakov is " over rated", goodGOD...the man didn't just write beautifully lyrical prose ( and sorry, but calling Lolita " over rated" is beyond pretentious). That novel seeped into modern thought and became shorthand for a certain kind of man and young girl/woman ( that filthy Russian perv sure was great, boy)... Virginia Woolfe, Hermann Hess's Siddhartha was one of my first favorite 'adult' books, as was The Autobiography of Malcom X, Oscar Wilde, Mark Twain, George Orwell, Kurt Vonnegut, Hunter Thompson, who had me laughing so hard while reading his stuff on the train, people stared at me...which takes a lot on a crowded NYC subway. Then there is Hemingway, Fitzgerald, Capote, and for non fiction, I love to read about history and pretty much anything, because so much is so damn interesting. I have trouble sleeping sometimes, so I read in the middle of the night. I always have a few on rotation. Lately I've been reading a lot of stuff by Micheal Pollan, who my daughter turned me on to ( The Botany of Desire is such a beautiful book ) as well as John Krakauer, he is wonderful (" Into The Wild", "Where Men Win Glory" to name a couple) and Bill Bryson, he's funny and brilliant. For films, I like many directors. Even if some of them have made more bad films than good ones, just making one great film is quite a feat. Scorsese, Kubrick, Herzog, Mira Nair, Baz Luhrmann, Wes Anderson, Kurosawa, Ingmar Bergman, Lynch, Mel Brooks, Goddard, Malle, Fellini, The The Big Lebowski, The King's Speech (saw it many times. Could watch it again) , Oh Brother Where Art Thou, Stranger Than Paradise, The Thin Blue Line, Cabaret, Doctor Zhivago, La Strada, Open City, Twelve Angry Men, The Third Man, Dead Man Walking, Citizen Kane(!!) A Dangerous Method, 1900, Fannie and Alexander, The Seventh Seal, High Noon, Shane, Apocolypse Now, Annie Hall, The Godfather, Beasts of the Southern Wild....my god, the list goes on forever? I love Colbert, Mahr, and I have a huge crush on John Oliver....his "British -ness" his dimples....all of him. And of course John Stewart, who kinda started that TV format of great political commentary/satire /comedy. Like everyone, I do netflix rather than TV quite often.... Breaking Bad (brilliant look at how addictive and seductive power is, not to mention the acting, writing. And directing) House of Cards ( so Shakespearean!), Mad Men ( I've watched every episode a couple times. The only actor I don't love is January Jones/ Betty Draper. She's very pretty, but not interesting to watch imo), Orange Is The New Black....I have an affection for Pawn Stars which is oddly addicting. Music 'likes' are all over the map and I'm running out of room and likely losing my audience here with my endlessrambling, but if you 're still here, i'm amazed? I love 'punk' from the good old days when we'd go to cbgb's and feel drops of Iggy Pops sweat on us.... Television, The Velvet Underground, Lou Reed, The Ramones, The NY Dolls, ...The Clash, The Pixies, Elvis Costello, Tom Waits, Leonard Cohen, Otis Redding, Peter Tosh, Bob Marley, Marvin Gaye, Smokey Robinson, Nine Inch Nails, ohboy, how do you talk about music without going on and on. And on. There's jazz , Charlie Parker, Coltrane, Miles Davis, did I mention Charlie Parker? I'm not sure I can think of many things as beautiful as him playing "Loverman"......Billie Holiday, Dinah Washington.....where to stop....the list is endless.....classical, soul, rock and roll, reggae, anything thats done with feeling and style....Johnny Cash, Hank Williams, Patsy Cline....there's so many, so many,its amazing I have time to try and meet someone. Food? I love lots of types and cultures and flavors......and I think dessert can be its own brand of heaven......
I think maybe its more accurate to try and list the things i wouldnt want to live without.
Feeling, Kindness, Justice, passion, love, touch, avocados, music, the beauty and pureness in the eyes of dogs and other living things.
I suppose the only thing that I really can't do without is having some connection to this crazy and amazing world and all the beautiful, and the not so beautiful things in it.
that is....if they sound interesting and veer off from the usual pablum about being a really o"sincere, nice guy" who " works hard and plays hard " and "hates drama" . What does that mean? Life can be exciting and wild and" dramatic". To that end, I love drama.
Not for nothing, if a man thinks flexing his biceps and alluding to ( wink wink) " size" is gonna excite a gal, he might well be right....but i' m not that gal. I think a certain amount of subtlety is much sexier and more confident. There needs to be some substance along with 'style' for me, anyway. Oh, and btw. ..all of that is out the window if you're super hot....ha.
Sometimes I think....although not obsessively....why did I do some of the stuff that I did in my life, and damn if I wouldn't sometimes like to go back and tell my younger self a thing or two, forGODsake.
How many more hours I have until I need to get up. My mom and dad, who are getting so very frail, and except for being there for them as much as I can, I am fairly and completely powerless to change that fact. I think about thinking, and how it does seem to have lost it's popularity sometimes, of course not with ME, no, never.
Oh, and I'm now thinking, why do I use so many 'dotdotdots'/ ellipses....?
BTW, most people say something like " it wouldn't be private" . Usually the same ones that put oxygen and water, etc. for things they can't live without.
The question reads " the most private thing I'm WILLING to admit".