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My self-summary
• Edited by Infinite Thrills: Uhm, you're kind of ridiculously AMAZING, and your inbox is full... so I figured I would attempt to leave you a message in some clever fashion and let you know I dig you massively. Peace. •

I ponder the questions of a scientist, and the philosophies of thinkers, but I wield the mind of a dreamer and the imagination of an artist.

I HATE filling these sections out. I am never sure what to say, and my mind just always seems to end up somehow extracting a complete blank. Then, even in the event of my eventually managing to cough up an acceptable blurb, I can't help but feel incredibly lame.

On another hand, if I don't vouch for myself, then who will? This is MY profile, after all. Therefore, I'll confess to being human, or rather to being stubborn and selfish; and despite the somber appearance, i'm an incredibly caring, sweet, empathetic, and loving person; who enjoys the small parts of life, and tries to not take others or herself too seriously. In other words, i'm a mushy sentimental schmuck, whose a huge geek in disguise and very sensitive. (I like to think of myself as substantially being an intellectual, a hopeless romantic, and perhaps in partial, a jaded idealist.)

I'm also very big on loyalty. I cherish the few friends I have and can be one of the best friends ever. When I love, I love deeply and with all my heart.

A little side bonus for those familiar with Myers-Briggs: A few years ago I was a decent example of an INFP personality. However, I recently retook one of their tests, and I came out as an even better example of an ISFP. This doesn't completely surprise me to be honest. I actually expect, nor find it far fetched for a person to be persistently enduring the teeter between different versions of themselves. Though, this in spite of the sensation that I am sporadically wavering through a lack of complete equilibrium.


It seems worth mentioning right up front, I am thoroughly grateful for whatever initiative you took, to step out of the shadows. I'm sure you put in immense thought, time and effort into your product, and thus emerge to present me with an amazingly ingenious, brilliant and prodigious piece of literal work. Except I must admit I suffer from a few really bad communication habits.

Except I must admit I suffer from a few really bad communication habits. One characteristic of my personality is that I either talk quite a bit or say very little.

So, the capacity for putting up with fairly long messages, and/or the ability to not take it personally, if you don't get a response from me right away, are both favorable, and beneficial requisite(s).


I am Sarcastic, Cynical, and Adorable
What I’m doing with my life
Er... that was from finitethrills, by the by.

Well, we only get one life to live, and only one chance. I'm alive, kicking and floating around; or rather and better yet, my autobiography is still a work in progress, and my story is still being written.

I used to sit around pondering the meaning of it all, and sought to find some grand epiphany. Yet, nevertheless, it suddenly hit me one day, that it were very well possible that I could spend a lifetime trying to figure out my life.

That was right about the time where I decided to pull myself together, and went on to attack my studies with a newfound vigor.

I now have an associate degree, and I was lucky enough to have been accepted into the The S.I. Newhouse School of Public Communications at Syracuse University, where I am majoring in Magazine Journalism.

In essence, I am no longer stuck without a clue about what exactly I want to do. I will probably always feel a little clueless, but then again who doesn't?
I’m really good at
I've been told that i'm cute, clever, charming, relatable, modest, and a lot of fun. As well as being quite perceptive, articulate, witty, and observant. I truly am a very unique individual; Many people have said they found me to be special and/ or strange and/or different- and I believe them.
The first things people usually notice about me
I tend to come off as very withdrawn and reserved, carrying an "aura" of mystery, and always donning dark attire. I am brooding, moody, and weird (according to some). I have a tendency to shut people out; and I am working to rectify it.

This is also more like something that has been failed to notice, but I am usually greeted with gasps when I state my actual age, as people constantly mistake me for being anywhere from five to ten years younger. I don't completely disagree, though I do think it's an over-reaction.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Books: Anything by Neil Gaiman, Chuck Palahniuk, Philip K. Dick, Kurt Vonnegut, Charles Bukowski, William S. Burroughs, Bret Easton Ellis, Jeff Noon, Rudy von Bitter Rucker, Terry Pratchett, Piers Anthony, Salman Rushie, William Gibson, Neal Stephenson, Anne Rice, Poppy Z Brite. I mainly dabble in horror/science fiction/fantasy/Cyberpunk, or work that is "postmodern" or "satirical", AKA black comedy. Nevertheless, being an aspiring Journalist, I have also very recently become drawn to works from the new Non-Fiction (that would include Biographies, Memoirs, True Crime stories, Real-Life Adventures, Documentaries and the like.)

The Movies and Music question, could require several pages to answer...

Movies: How about Directors?- Stanley Kubrick, The Coen Brothers, Terry Gilliam, Oliver Stone, Richard Linklater, Quentin Tarantino, John Waters, David Lynch, Darren Aronofsky, Ridley Scott, Robert Rodriguez, Woody Allen, Tim Burton, David Cronenberg, Jim Jarmusch, Brian DePalma...
I'm somewhat of a film buff, and I get into movies in general, and appreciate cinema as an art form.

(If this clues you in to my tastes at all, the most frequently used tags in my personal movie word cloud include: Surreal, Twist Ending, Atmospheric, Dark Humor, Psychological, Stylized, Quirky, Thought-Provoking, Dystopia, Social Commentary, and Post-Apocalyptic)

Music: How about genres?- Electronica, EBM, Industrial, SynthPop, Neofolk, Neoclassical, Ambient, Ethereal, DeathRock, AggroTech, PowerNoise, IDM, Gothic, FuturePop, Dark Wave, Trance ...This is actually crucially important to me; music plays a big factor in my life, because it's among the few saviors of my sanity.

For those who are curious about more specific selections, instead of typing out the obligatory endless list of bands, i'll link you to my Last.Fm Chart

Food: I try to do organic, healthy, and whole wheat, whenever and wherever I can. Aside from that I like tastes that are ethnic or eccentric, such as Thai or Indian dishes, I also love Greek salad/gyros, Anything Italian and I could probably eat my body weight in Sushi.
Six things I could never do without
Only six...?!? (I won't state music, that's an obvious given)

-An Internet Connection/Technology






-Companionship/Intimacy (I'm sorry I threw a last item in to make it a lucky seven)

Good conversation isn't mandatory, but something highly cherished/desired.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
I possess a myriad of passions; but mostly about my search for truth, and always striving for a better understanding of myself, as well as seeking to broaden my horizons..in every sense of the word. I guess it's safe to say I think outside the box- i'm constantly lost in analysis- observing my surroundings, while simultaneously attempting to self reflect....(I've gained A LOT through introspection
On a typical Friday night I am
I was once a party girl, but i've "matured" into a grown up, so i've retired to being a "homebody" or "square". I now spend my lesiure time, and/or am interested in: Reading, Internet Surfing, Playing Keyboard, Role Playing Games (or Video Games in general), Water color painting, Watching Anime/Hentai, Photography, Dancing, Writing poems/short stories, Creating, Digital art/graphics, Going for long walks, Experimenting with makeup, Sewing my own clothes, Yoga, Studying Art History, Designing a web page, Programming in HTML, Drawing/Sketching/Scribbling, Being fascinated and terrified by the vastness of outer space and the ocean floor, Zoning out to the history/discovery channel, Contemplating, Pondering, investigating esoteric scientific/mathematical/philosophical theories, immersing in [[Erotica, and when I get REALLY bored I seek new, obscure, bizarre fetishes, or just my regular everyday "porn" which is usually of a kinky/BDSM based nature...

I'm also fairly adeptly skilled at word games, as I am often doing a Crossword Puzzle or Word Search, or playing Scrabble, Boggle, or Text Twist.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
Occasionally, folks will mistake me as an aloof bitch, or antisocial, due to my blunt, sharp, bitter, edgy exterior; it's really my nerves; i'm very shy and self-conscious, yet bold and spontaneous at the same time- pretty much a living, breathing paradox.

Most of the time, I prefer to be alone and be left alone; only because i'm socially retarded...No really, I am.

If that's truly not private enough, I'll throw caution to the wind and admit that I have a bizarre fascination with circuses and particularly sideshow freaks, as well as incest (siblings/cousins), serial killers, mental illnesses, birth defects/deformities, rare medical conditions, body modifications, extreme cultural rituals, sex toys and porn stars (not necessarily porn itself, but the people who star in it.)

Yeah, I'm also a bit of a pervert...(Seriously...?!?) *blushes*
You should message me if
You have a sense of humor, a brain, a heart, you're educated, and stop to ask questions. Additionally, someone who feels comfortable being themself, who absolutely means every word which escapes from their mouth. I'm fairly open to the idea of meeting new conscious entities. Ultimately, if you think we could be compatible, then make an attempt to establish contact!!!

If we have a high match percent, it might be worth a shot. For, I have found the algorithm on this site, to be surprisingly accurate. That isn't to say that I would deem it as gospel, more so that it's more reliable than a horoscope. Basically, if the numbers say we will get along, than chances are we most likely will.

The odds are that you shall be granted a chance, as long as something about you doesn't rub me the wrong way. I'm actually quite easy to talk to (or at least not as harsh as I sound???)
If you're capable of deep/complex thought and can appreciate/tolerate my flaws, then i'll think you're spiffy and terrific.
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