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My self-summary
Hello, I'm Yami for now X3 It means Darkness~ My Dream is to make video games that many will love and remember me for, forever! X3 I also want to indirectly make the world a better place in the process as I Share my Personal Ideals, Psychology & Philosophy Studies, and my Love For Game Art in my games aswell!

Personality wise, I'm extremely loyal to those whom move my heart, I love being romantic, poetic, and youthful X3, I'm a nurturing maiden that knows all the right things to say and will always take care of you. master, princess, and Idol. puppet, knight, and admirer. I want to shine light upon everything you've ever wished for, as your soul is embraced by me and kissed the way you always wanted to be <3 I'm a very affectionate and hyperactive cuddler and I'm both dominant and submissive and pretty spontaneous in general, I'm looking for some one who can win all of my trust and open up my heart and make my dreams come true as well X3 I love being completely vulnerable to those I trust the most with all my heart and I'm also a pretty exuberant individual as well XD Always showing physical affection (even in public, Burying my self in the arms of people I love and always kyaa!!ing and heheheing XD) and talking about things I love and do aswell (I love expressing my self in general! ) I'm also pretty compulsive (Not Literally! XD) when it comes to taking care of people too, I tend to take care of everyone! and I do usually know the perfect things to say too... so don't be surprised XD That's kind of the core things about my personality :o Things that vary or I don't consider core is that I can read people pretty easily (I'm always looking into the person's soul <3), when I don't trust people I'm pretty reserved (but yet still always expressing my self in some way, I sometimes come off as the most narcissistic person ever that can do all these awesome things! XD but I'm certainly not the best person as there is no best person, Just always getting closer and closer to the best me <3), I have a very positive side and also a dark side aswell (I find darkness itself beautiful, comforting, and very pleasuring to dwell into although am completely against it in immediate situations out of conversation, enjoyment/fantasies?, and art), Things like those depend completely on my circumstances, One thing that does carry over in all circumstances is that I always love the company of others very much X3

Finally My Beliefs and Ideals :o So People usually find comfort in eachother because of this stuff... And it's true... it does draw the magnets pretty quickly but I think love is also about learning how to understand and work out these things to give eachother our needs aswell, Beliefs and Ideals is the reason why Conflict exists in the first place amongst all other good things, No one is a bad person inside, It's just that we can't easily match the puzzle pieces well enough!

I'm not much of a critical person, I'm pretty peaceful, understanding, and nonjudgemental, I only judge people if I absolutely have to because it helps my emotions get away from them if it were per se an unfixable toxic situation, but I'll never do it because I actually think that about the person, And I also always work on this aspect of my self aswell, I have a difficult time some times staying opened up when people are critical towards me, but If I can really see my self with that person, I'll always believe in them X3 aslong as they aren't abusive... XD haha Being Sophisticated is a must for me. Else we'd never be the princesses we wish to be, treating one so wrongly like that v_v I love when I can trust someone so much that I can be as vulnerable as a kid to them able to ask "what's wrong? :c" if anything happened because it's about the both of us together and genuinely worrying for our concerns and happiness instead of being strong, instinctual, and critical about it all even if it seems the person absolutely wrong. If any of my close friends have a concern, I would prefer they told me how they felt instead of trying to work around it on thier own... cause then I wouldn't feel like I'm being a great friend to them if I'm just an obstacle for them instead... and that hurts me deep inside... that said some people feel they don't deserve to be cared about or understood or expect it but this is what close friendship means and feels like to me <3

Personally I believe that no one is better than anyone, Absolutely everyone is equal and unique in their own way, I believe that the star dust they come from has always been a thing on its own but part of the whole aswell. Even people that feel more amazing than others cause they have more ability, that's just them utilizing their potential inside and you can utilize yours aswell X3 You only have to realize how to always :3 By finding the hope that you can be so amazing!!! Life's energy runs on hope, And when your body and mind is filled with hope, that's when your beautiful soul comes out of your body and shines bright on the outside as it does on the inside in your feelings, dreams/wishes, and uniqueness X3 there is also always some one that will deeply love you for your soul inside too, mutually in eachothers uniqueness X3 (Mind you, not everyone can see your soul especially when they have difficulties freeing theirs...)

I don't believe in things like jail and so on cause I believe that people don't really have a choice over the things they do and that no one deserves to be limited towards their dreams and soul either, Most problems happen technically because of misunderstandings, So to list some more ideals/values: deep communication, other peoples happiness and health X3 (Especially in thier dreams and mental health, I love psychology), always saying the truth!, not limiting a person (I'm against revenge, punishment (value prevention and guidance <3), physical violence or any of that type of power over anyone no matter the reason, forcing people into things, using people, etc), And value being a moral person in general, It's also important to note that I also kind of have an obsession with having the best most full proof answers to things, there is always something deeper, alternative, or maybe even obviating? to learn, so I do a looot of studying to figure out how I could live the life most effective towards my dreams, and how others around me could live the most effective lives towards their dreams and friendships aswell. I deeply cherish a pure world where we could all be our best selves <3 Good Leadership is also extremely important to me, I deeply admire any one who can bring close friends together and actually care for them and their needs. (Unlike my sifu when I used to go to kung fu that permanently injured multiple people in his school for things that could have easily been solved with more caution in understanding the things he makes the students go through DX) Things like that are my ideals X3 Hard as fuck to explain rather than just feel X'D

Because of my experiences that built up to all of these things I'm also very... How do I put it, If some one I really admired said, "I wish I had a best friend...", I'd probably be sobbing like a kid crawling up to them <3 so.... XD yeah haha

That's my self summary X3
I. Identity/Passion
II. Personality/Way of Being
III. Ideals(Values)/Beliefs
The more we match all 3 the better!
I respect and like all sorts of people tho X3
But my true love, we shouldn't need respect!
We should just be <3

Next Up!
IV. Hobbies and Ability
V. Loves and Interests
VI. Status and Life
VII. Finally Closure...
What I’m doing with my life
My aim for things is self employment because I work better on my own terms and want to do things for my self and the close ones around me. Mainly it's going to be through video game development but possibly through app developing, freelancing, book writing, or even youtube too!!!

I plan to make video games using Game Maker 2 :3
I'm getting better, but I still need to work up all my skills!!!

Here is a List of things I work(ed) on
Writing - Noob I just know some important things
Drawing - My Art is starting to become realllyyy good X3
Music Theory - Noob
Guitar - Great At but Slowed down, I wish I had better recorded songs... https://soundcloud.com/receptor4darkness but here X3
Singing - Noob
Japanese - Beginner but doing well with kanji :3 300ish so far~
Psychology - It happens to be what I'm best at X3 I even made my own theories and therapies that go deeper into fixing problems that were seen as incurable before *pshhh, it's a big part of the reason why I tend to know the perfect things to say >.> but don't tell any one my secret ok? :3 And... It's also a result of my compulsive behavior..... X'D* I wanna heal and protect your soul <3
Programming - I can code but not well enough to freelance yet
Parkour - I was good at but slowed down
Martial Arts - Noob but I did it for half a year
Transition - Near Done but Not Done
Style - It's no where neeearr done XD It's just set up well enough to express what I'm about, but not even everything, I love Gothy Like Stuff the most DX so yeah X3

Anyways This is all a big part of what I alwaaaaaaaaays do with my life
I'm always working on some aspect of my self and am always talking about it XD So Join me! <3

P.S. Transition has been the hardest hurdle in my life...
I’m really good at
I'm actually really slow when it comes to certain types of thought :o I would always get double time when test taking, I have no in the moment memory past my feelings and prior stored information because transgender medicine (lack of testosterone and progesterone), and I have difficulties telling people what I mean (Good at explaining other things, just not my self and what I'm thinking about), before I was completely unaware of this but now I just have to process it a bit, that said, there is a certain type of thought processing that I'm extremely good at X3 That is Pattern Reading! It's basically when you catch on to patterns of things, like math theory in itself is all life patterns, social phenomena has tons of patterns in it, different preciously designed games do too X3 and take those patterns to make connections/calculations with them, that part's what we call Intuition! Consciously or Unconsciously new things just pop up in your head And you just know X3 When you do that you can interpret anything in the world down to fine detail without needing to see it X3 through a limited lense tho :D you can always dig deeper and that's what I love about it!!! Tho that sort of imaginative curiousity for things is all I mostly did in my childhood, and is probably the reason why I suck at other types of thought other wise XD I see the whole world through systems me and my ancestors built in my head <3
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
I'm Going to look at this as what are my favorite things in general. Many of the things here mean something meaningful to me and I think they are all super artistically beautiful! I'm not going to specify what the meaningful aspects of those are, but it varies from, Strong Romantic Feelings in me, Transgender Inspirations, to Desires for Spiritual Kinship X3 etc.

Books : StarGirl, Fight Club, Scott Pilgrim

Manga/JP Books: BERSERK, Gantz, Elfen Lied, Danganronpa Zero: Books 1 and 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-fMDaPFXME ~Danganronpa
Dark Beach Vibes~

Movies : FightClub, Scott Pilgrim, Azumi, Watchmen, Queen of The Damned

Anime : Hunter X Hunter, One Piece, Gintama, Mirai Nikki, Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood, Danganronpa 3: The End of Hope Peak's Academy, Stein's Gate, Durarara!!, Monster, Elfen Lied, Kaiba!, Jojo's Bizarre Adventure, Hitman Reborn!, FLCL, Code Geass, Love Lab, Tonari no Kaibatsu-Kun, Higurashi no Naku Koro ni
^^^ I actually know how to play most of this song on guitar X3 Bass Piano Notes and High Voice notes at the same time :D

Music :
Mostly Video game Music -> Any Fromsoftware OST (Demon's souls and King's field, etc), Any Spike Chunsoft Visual Novel OST (Danganronpa and Zero Escape), Many NES OST, Zelda OST, Lots of other games....

Secondly Japanese Metal/Rock -> Dir En Grey, Malice Mizer, Mejibrey, D, OZ, Aicle, Youhei Teikoku (The Lead Singers Voice Kills me), Many other bands And alot of anime songs
Listen to the hero sing... ;-;

Thirdly Nu-Metal, Dark, Alternative, Heavy Metal, Grungy, Funky, Hoppy Things -> Mudvayne, (Old) KoЯn, (Old) Incubus, Daisy Chainsaw, Coal Chamber, Juice, System of A Down, Slipknot, Elena Siegman, Cold, (Old) Ill Niño, (Old) Linkin Park, Queen's of The Stone Age, Faith No More, Nirvana, and Alice in Chains

Lastly I actually like all kinds of music but those are just my 3 most favorite categories :3 I also listen to romantic japanese songs like buck tick, and screamo bands like alesana :D even some country songs XD but I don't know a loooot of the songs.

Games : The Game I'm most Passionate about is Demon's Souls <3 But here is all of my other favorites by genre X3

- Hardcore Depth Driven Action Rpg -
Demon's Souls, Dark Souls, Bloodborne

- Action-Adventure Rpg -
Legend of Zelda 1/5: OoT/6: MM, 3D Dot Game Heroes

- Story Heavy General Action Rpg-
Folklore, The World Ends With You (Have Not Completed Twewy yet)

- Action-Adventure Hack & Slash -
No More Heroes, Devil May Cry (not 2 3 4 5), Bayonetta

- Hardcore Depth Driven Side Scrollers -
Castlevania 1/2:BR/3/4, Hagane: The Final Conflict, Zelda 2: Link's Adventure, Strider Hiryu Genesis (Got Near the Final Boss on Strider but Took a break XD)

- Tactics/Strategy Rpg -
Valkyria Chronicals, Disgaea 1/3/4

- Survival Horror/SH Rpg/SH Rail Shooter -
Resident Evil 1/2/Code Veronica: X/Zero, Bioshock 1/2, Dead Space 1/2/Extraction, Sweet Home, Killer 7

- First Person Rpg -
King's Field 1/2/3/4 (Exploration/Atmosphere Rich)
Shadow Tower 1/2:Abyss (Variety/Survival Rich)

- Stealth - (Or shall I say >.> Tactical Espionage Action X3c)
Metal Gear 1/2/3/4, Sly Cooper 1/2/3, Tenchu: Wrath of Heaven
Epic Spy Jaaazzzzz

- Innovative Rpg -

- Visual Novel/Graphic Interactive Adventure/VN Action/VN Puzzle -
Danganronpa 1/2/AE, Zero Escape: 999, Life Is Strange

- Fighting/Other Combat - (I want to get better at other fighters >.<)
Mortal Kombat 9, Smash Bros Melee/4, Twisted Metal 2/Black/Black 2: Harbor City/Head-on/2012

- Online Shooters - (I tend to suck at shooters so yeah XD)
Metal Gear Online 2 (Closed D;), Bioshock 2

^No particular order for all of this
Obviously My favorite video game companies are Fromsoftware, Old Capcom, Old Konami, Nintendo, and Spike Chunsoft XD

Food : Fish and Spicey stuff, I try to stick to healthier food ingeneral too
Six things I could never do without
1. Close friends and people that care about/for me
2. Video Games With Godly Artistic Design ♡♡♡
3. Virtue, Grounded Insightful Beliefs, and Strong Values/Idealz
4. Cuddlez <3 My Energy Source... I love them so much XD
5. My ability to learn and do amazing things X3
6. Tongue Brushers, There is no better Hygiene tool, Everyone should use it
I spend a lot of time thinking about
My Dreams
I want to get to a point in my life where it's just existing in it
Instead of working towards it endlessly
The unreal <3
On a typical Friday night I am
Speaking japanese at a japanese conversation group I go to, I'm always just looking for stuff around new york that seems interesting when ever I'm not home in my self teaching palace XD likely learning outside instead, even if it's just about learning culture to Arts and Hobbies. I also need to get serious in networking by the end of this year, I plan to see if I can get inside of some universities with out being a student cause... >.> This would benefit me the most in everything XD I want to remake my own beautiful friend circle to do all this kind of stuff and more with someday too. I had one before but I think I was expecting to much from the wrong people v_v we loved each other regardless.
You should message me if
You're a moral person and don't mind I take a while to get used to people, I actually haven't had the best life so it's hard feeling comfortable in certain situations, if you can understand that, you get double points :3

Being a caring and understanding person is best thing you can do to win me over. I'm a really caring and understanding person, so if you have any concern you can tell me <3

I noticed that I like all sorts of different things in people quite a lot, I guess I don't have a defined dream girlfriend other than a few essential qualities some of which you can sorta infere by reading my profile XD Personally I want to be loved for me and love the person for the person too but it'd also be nice if we could do things for eachother aswell X3

My main goal how ever is to have a lover I can make video games with because that's what would be most beneficial to my main path in life... but I'm up for meeting other people as well!!! Maybe you can inspire me with your things or maybe I can inspire you with mine! or maybe we can just date and that's it X3 Only requirement is that you must atleast become my close friend <3

So That's my profile :3 Feel Free to read it again~
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VIII. Creative Ideas and Expression
IX. Yami History and Resolutions
X. Etc etc etc! XD
You have to buy the rest of the book :P
If you like me you should message me X3
Or else I'll never ever eeevarr trevor evar never know you.....
The two of us