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My self-summary
Hi! You've reached my insanely long and detailed profile! This is due to the fact that I ramble and have too much free time currently as I'm on summer break!

I'm 18 as of April. So to those of you who are in your thirties or trying to contact me for sex, please realize how creepy that is, I was jailbait last spring. I'm not looking for a relationship involving sex. I plan to stay chaste until marriage, or at the very least until I finish college (that'd be 5+ years). If you came to solicit me for anything sexual, or were hoping to start a relationship that will turn sexual before marriage, please leave now.

I'm currently in China, so I'm not actually looking for a relationship at the moment, talking as friends or whatever online is fine but I have too much to do and too much on my mind to try to date anyone. I have trouble enough fending off guys on the street sometimes (foreigner + blonde hair = major target for guys) -_-" I got stalked home once. So I don't want a boyfriend right now, I don't want to deal with that crap while I'm here. I'm only looking for online people to chat with.

I'm a very honest person. This is because I really don't feel like keeping secrets, if you ask me something I'll tell you an honest answer, if you ask me about my life I'll give you a synopsis of it that will be both long and more personal than most people would share with a stranger. I tend to be an open book. Yeah I've had experiences that I don't want to share with other people but I've mentally blocked most of them out so thoroughly that I couldn't even tell you about them if I tried.

My observation skills suck. I am off in my own little world for a good majority of the day and will be the last to notice a change in my surroundings. "Where did that poster come from?" 'Um, it's been hanging up there for two weeks' "Oh..."

I'm one of the most confident people I know. I think I became this way after being bullied from kindergarten onward. Once I got to fifth grade I just took a step back and realized that it's not what you are but what people think you are. Thus, seem confident and capable and people will never bully you again. And as this continued to work the confidence wasn't an act anymore. I understood how the system worked and how to handle myself and gain respect.

I want to be a polyglot (one who can speak many languages) and I am trying to teach myself many languages via books, movies, songs, the internet etc.

I know a bit of (in order of most to least and all extremely poorly, thus they aren't on my profile details):
Spanish, Italian, German, Japanese, Portuguese, French, Russian, Swedish/other assorted Scandinavian languages

I'm semi-fluent in Chinese after taking it for 4 years in high school and I'm currently in China studying it right now

I enjoy traveling. I've been to countries on four continents. China, Asia: Brazil, South America: UK & France, Europe: and many countries in North America mostly in the Caribbean.

I live with my parents, my younger sister, one dog and two snakes. Yes, snakes; they're adorable. My cornsnake's name is Pinkeye (Pinky for short), my sister owns the other one (Checkers, aka Check for short) but they both live in her room. My dog's name is Buddy, but he answers to many names. Generally we call him Buddog.

Now that the boring stats are done.

I'm on here partially out of an impulsive decision to join sparked by my friend joining. "Hey we can do it together!" *clicks button* I don't completely know what I want to get out of this because I plan on being in China until June and then I'll go to college so it's not like I have a timeline that is conducive to finding my soul mate or whatever. And I'm not looking for non-serious "fun and intimate" relationship fling thing cause that's NOT me. I just don't know.

One of the patterns I've seen in what happens when I date people is that I slip into "the girlfriend" role. I act more submissive and observant trying to make sure that I'm reading my date correctly. I don't say what I want completely if it sounds rude or demanding because I don't want to be impolite. IT SUCKS! It's not me at all. And whoever I'm dating, they won't see any act, and won't catch on that I don't want to do this or that. Plus, I don't know how to take off the act, I automatically do it, and come off as the perfect girlfriend. Only to have whatever guy I'm dating fall for me immediately, and start saying things like "I love you" and I get freaked, cut and run cause I don't feel the same, feel smothered and freaked out and on top of that, they don't even know me or who I actually am. I had a guy once casually mention marriage in a hypothetical case. I KNEW HIM FOR LESS THAN TWO WEEKS! I wanted to burst into tears. If you really got to know me you'd find out that I'm extremely outgoing, usually have something to say and am a naturally dominant personality around people that I know well and feel comfortable with, but if I don't know you well, I'm unlikely to push anything or make requests as I don't want to upset the other person, this usually leads to me being uncomfortable or annoyed with myself.

But of course, nobody ever sees my real emotions. Literally, even my own family can't guess when I'm sad or not. It's so frustrating. So I just sit there on dates, contemplating why I can't seem to communicate anything non-verbally to people. And wonder how people can let themselves fall in love with someone they don't even know.

Long story short, don't tell me you love me and don't freak me out with romantic shit. I will run away and you will never hear from me again.

Now I guess I should put the warning stuff that might scare you away.

I have clinical depression. You wouldn't know it by looking at me, I look perfectly happy and confident whenever I'm in public. I'm not goth or emo or whatever. I don't really have a label. If you had to choose one, I suppose you could say I look sort of preppy, but then I'd attack you. However, I've struggled with clinical depression since fifth grade on and off as my medication has changed with my chemical make-up. My lowest point was March 2012 when I dropped out of school for a month and couldn't bring myself to even get out of bed for anything but the most basic necessities, and even then I barely ate, one meal a day maybe. It was during that time that I was waiting for admittance to a residential treatment center where I spent four months away from home attempting to get better. I recovered enough to function, although I was by no means better. Since then I've spent the past year working on adjusting the medication with my doctor and (finally) I think we might have found the right dosage. [To those of you who don't believe in medication, please note, I've been going through depression for years and have been through more therapy than some therapists have practiced, it takes more than just will power to deal with depression. It's an illness just like cancer, it has no cure and in bad situations it can kill you]

I've also been diagnosed with even more mental disorders, although they don't really affect my daily life. ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder); OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder); GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)

GAD can be a problem sometimes when combined with my depression, but generally it's not a big deal. My OCD is now confined to small quirks and project perfectionism rather than debilitating rituals. ADD sucks since I space a lot, but I can still focus and think clearly when I'm given a task so I still function. And my Depression is being controlled for now so I'm doing pretty well overall.
What I’m doing with my life
I'm currently on Gap Year in Kunming, China through a program called Minds Abroad. I study Chinese for college credit, then I intern/work and on the weekends I hang out with friends and sometimes go to clubs and get free drinks. After my Gap Year I'll have earned some college credit and so I will apply as a transfer student to a college or university (probably the University of Minnesota) and continue my studies. I plan to double major in East Asian Studies (hoping to make it a Masters) and International Studies, with a possible minor in Chinese, and a minor in Italian (because I want to). After that it's pretty vague but there's a good possibility that I'll move to China after college and start a career there.
I’m really good at
Learning languages (I want to be a polyglot)
School and learning in general
Spitting off random facts that make everyone in the room look at you like "Why the F do you know that?!"
Being a friend
Cussing people out? (I generally don't, I just can, in more than one language too XD)
Being Awesome (jk)
The first things people usually notice about me
My confidence, my intelligence, my smile, my hair, my eyes, my personality.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Favorite book/series: Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card and other books from that series and it's partner shadow series

Other books I like: "Welcome to the Monkey House: a collection of short stories" by Kurt Vonnegut. "The Hunger Games" and "Catching Fire" by Suzanne Collins. "Enchantment" by Orson Scott Card. "Pathfinder" by Orson Scott Card. "Anthem" by Ayn Rand. "Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom.

Basically I like well written Fiction, especially Fantasy or Science fiction. It needs to have a good plot.

Favorite author: Orson Scott Card
Least favorite author: Ray Bradbury

I don't have an absolute favorite movie.

Favorite genres: Comedy, Animation, Adventure/Action, Romance (probably in that order)

Again, I prefer well developed plots in my movies just like in my books. No amount of special effects or gore will make up for a lack of story.

Favorite food: Pastaaaa!!!!

I also like pretty much anything with chocolate in it (dark over milk over white, white chocolate sucks).
I like dumplings/potstickers and my father makes amazing chicken and rice, and amazing pasta sauce. I Love Steak.

I won't eat meat if it tastes sweet, that means Barbecue sauce, ketchup, sweet and sour chicken, nothing. Meat should taste like meat and sweet flavors are for fruit or dessert.

I'll spend a lot of time watching the history channel, national geographic, discovery channel, and H2. I'll also end up watching the science channel, the military channel, and animal planet depending on what's on.

TV shows I love: Big Bang Theory, Defiance, Ancients behaving badly, Taboo, and specials on the history channel
TV shows I watch occasionally when they're on: How it's made, Modern Marvels, Family Guy, American Dad, The Simpsons, How Sex Changed the World, Toddlers in Tiaras


I love music in other languages. I'm not picky about genre, I'll listen to everything, from heavy folk metal or death metal German rap to classical piano pieces and Spanish lullabies. I still listen to music in English and music from my own country, but I figure that there's this entire world of music that I can explore and if I limit myself to one language, the music only from my own country, or only to what's playing on the radio, then I'm cutting myself off from an entire plethora of music that I could enjoy.

I think the only genres that I don't enjoy are pure rap (like no singing or chorus whatsoever), hardcore screamo (a little screamo is ok but a lot is too much), dubstep (I'll sometimes like it but usually I don't), and country generally. Other than that, I'll listen to anything from Vocaloid to Oldies, from Rap to Pop.

So far, I have over 25 languages on my iPod and well over 200 songs in different languages.

My favorite song is an Italian song called "In Italia" by Fabri Fibra.


I really enjoy watching anime, movies and shows, although I regret to say that I haven't watched as much of it as I would like to.
I don't have a preference as to whether sub or dub is better. Sometimes dub can be better if the voices are good, but sometimes the dub sucks and sub is better. It varies so I don't choose sides.

My favorite anime series is Hetalia, any season.

I've also liked Deathnote, Ouran High School Host Club, Fruits Basket (minus the last few episodes), and Rosario+Vampire (except there was WAY to much fanservice, but it was an interesting concept).

First anime I ever watched was probably either Sailor moon or Pokemon, I was really little when I first was introduced to it, but didn't find the subculture until I found my highschool's anime club from one of their posters.

My favorite Anime Movie is undecided, they're all good.

I've especially liked Hetalia: Paint it white, Spirited Away, The Girl Who Lept Through Time

My first Anime Movie: Kiki's Delivery Service


Not as into it as Anime, although I've read a lot of it. I just think there's too many cereal box plots and way too many shojo novels xp

Favorite manga series: Deathnote
The six things I could never do without
-Google translate: it is my best friend and worst enemy, how it can translate euthanasia from Finish but can't translate tomato? Come on!
-The internet: (especially google, youtube, and wikapedia) where I look up fast facts on the gist of historical events until I realize that I've spent hours on the computer
-TV (especially the history channel, national geographic etc)
-Books, anything that's interesting but especially well written fiction
-Music/my ipod: it's my life, especially foreign music
I spend a lot of time thinking about
being sucked into a time-warp where I end up in another point of time in history and attempt to survive and adjust to the times and perhaps gain power/avoid trouble by using the knowledge that I know of history from that time. It's my favorite thing to daydream about.
On a typical Friday night I am
At home, being a hermit. lol
But when I'm in America I am at home, reading or watching the history channel, or sleeping
Since I've been in China that's all changed. I might be out shopping downtown, at Walmart (it's huge here, 3 freaking stories!) getting food and stuff for the week to survive, watching my friend at her Brazilian Jujitsu practice (I'm still deciding on whether or not I want to join), or I might be a bar with friends drinking before we hit the club.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I cosplay...
Oh, and I will dress up randomly sometimes and go to school wearing a costume or dressed in hippy clothes or whatever. No reason, it's just fun. I'll just randomly wear something to school or whatever, on my last day of school I wore angel wings and a halo, I'll upload the picture on here eventually...

So on Halloween last year (2012) I tried to make myself look goth, but due to a series of random events pertaining to needing to wear orange for anti-bullying day and my being cold that morning (thus I put on my leather jacket) instead of looking goth, I came to school looking like a streetwalker. It was both hilarious and mildly embarrassing. The saddest part was everything I was wearing (fishnets, leather skirt, stilettos, makeup, leather jacket) was all school appropriate according to our school dress-code since the skirt was long enough. So apparently, dress-codes are completely useless at keeping students looking 'decent'
You should message me if
You aren't trying to solicit me for sex. I am chaste and you will only piss me off.

You aren't going to start the conversation with a pick-up line or a comment about how "beautiful" or "hot" I am. It gets annoying after a while hearing "Hey beautiful" and you start to question whether people mean it or not until every time someone says it, it just makes you feel more insecure about how you look sort of like "do you actually mean that or are you just saying that?" sort of thing

You are within a seven year range of age difference. I try not to go higher than that since seven years is over a third of my age and close to almost half my life...

You actually read all of this