Hopefully going to U of M for undergrad. Looking for long distance friends until then. My mom used to live in Missoula and I left my heart and soul there. I'm reclaiming it. Let's talk! This bio is old; I need to rewrite it.
Every time I come back to OKC, I read my profile and realize I am a completely different person that when I wrote it. Sometimes I feel like a better person, and sometimes a worse person.
The most important thing to know about me is that I am a living, breathing, oxymoron. By that I mean that my thoughts and opinions constantly contradict my life. Examples include: being a lgbt+ activist but shying away from actually socializing with that specific community, desiring social interaction and conversation but only ascertaining it safely from behind my computer screen, appreciating a strong work ethic and "hard work" but trying to get a degree where I can teach and not have to work with my hands any longer, and many others.
I seriously struggle with bipolar disorder and panic anxiety. We can totally talk about it if you want, but it is not something I am proud of or really feel like talking about in a public forum.
I am very disenchanted by the world of romanticism. To be completely honest, I don't know that I am a relationship-oriented person. Most friendships in my life have been so intense that I feel like I receive the same affection and emotional benefits that I would from a partner. Because of this, I feel like I can't distinguish the difference between a friendship and a relationship. This has made me really romantically confused. I'm trying to consider my options and find what works best for me.
I don't have commitment issues, but I just do not think that I'll ever find one person that will satisfy all of my being. I'm not opposed to a relationship, I just haven't found anyone that I could not live without.
Let's talk about sex. I am a highly sexual person given the right stimuli. I do not require any emotional attachment to someone to have sex. It is simply sex to me; to be honest, sex without previous emotional attachment is usually better in my opinion. That does not mean that I can't have sex with someone that I am attached to and it be meaningful, it just simply means that I do not require that to have sex.
I am attracted to masculinity. That is not to say that I'm an effeminate bottom and need to be dominated. If you need to define people with those labels, we probably aren't compatible. Also, that is not gender-specific. I have met plenty of masculine women that really turn me on. (OITNB is full of them if you need reference) However, I struggle with gender. As vulgar or promiscuous as this may sound to you, I just really like the male anatomy. I can not imagine being in a successful relationship without it. I have no problems at all with dating women, I'm just not sure that the sex would really work... which ultimately would result in a failing relationship.
However, all that being said, I am most attracted to intelligence. If you can teach me something, you'll have my attention. I love math, languages, and the internet in general. If you can teach me something about those, or something entirely different, I will be very receptive. That does not mean that you have to have a P.h.D to impress me. Education is important to me, but it does not define intelligence.
Physically, I am attracted to average-looking people. I am not attracted to people who appreciate being able to see their ribs and I am not attracted to people that are morbidly obese. I appreciate a belly and some body hair. I do not want any to spend any amount of time wondering if I think they are "attractive enough". That is self-deprecating and terrible. Yes, I have standards, but I assure you they are far looser than what your average Grindr user is looking for. Just throwing this out there: size matters. (You know what I mean.)
Finally, I have literally laid everything on the table. The good, bad, and ugly. Feel free to send me a message and ask me questions. I love to Skype or use Google Hangouts. My intent was really not to offend anyone or come off as a judgmental jackass. I am simply just tired of going through the motions of getting to know someone just to realize that it will never grow to fruition. I can be friends with anyone, and I would love to expand my circle.
Cat's Cradle, The Poisonwood Bible, The Bean Trees, 1984, Animal Farm, Slaughterhouse Five, God Bless You Dr. Kavorkian, The House on Mango Street, Artemis Fowl (Series), The Chronicles of Narnia, Skinny Bitch, Pigs in Heaven, Fight Club, The Book of Life, The Scarlet Letter, Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God, A Model of Christian Charity, Anne Bradstreet, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
Spirited Away, Beautiful Thing, Fight Club, Girl Interrupted, Requiem for a Dream, Pi, The Secretary, Ghost World, The Science of Sleep, Spun, Crazy/Beautiful, SAW, Where the Heart Is, Precious, Dream Girls, Chicago, The Emperor's New Groove, Alice in Wonderland, Toy Story, Gia, The Changeling, Gamer, Pirates of the Caribbean, Despicable Me, Precious, PARTY MONSTER, Wreck it Ralph, Sinister, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Harry Potter, ANYTHING Melissa McCarthy (Identify Theft, Bridesmaids, The Heat)
I mostly listen to classical music. Vivaldi and Beethoven's Cello Suites are some of my favorites. Other than that, Panic at the Disco and Tears for Fears are my favorite bands. Make of that what you will.
I don't watch a lot of TV, so sorry if this is outdated.
United State of Tara, SVU, Elementary, Heroes, Transparent, Glee, America's Got Talent, Britain's Got Talent, Orange is the New Black
2. Computer with fast internet
3. My curiosity
6. My mom
-You need a friend
-You need someone to talk to
-You can teach me French, German, or ASL
-You know about the world of polyamory