I have a panic disorder. I've made a lot of progress, but I'm not going to hide from it. For one thing, it's impractical; because the purpose of this site is to meet new people, which is a pretty reliable trigger for anxiety.
That is easily the most private thing I'm going to be able to offer in this entire profile, and I'm LEADING with it. Talk about fucking bold.
Beyond that, the details are hazy. I want to work in local government at the state level in the Southeast. I don't believe there are a lot of voices like mine involved in the discussion in this particular area of the country and I believe that there should be.
I love music. I collect records. I collect used books. I'm probably a little OCD about both of those things. I'm rarely at peace, but a good book or the crackles and pops of an old country record will often do the job.
I don't believe in God, but I believe in people. For a large part of my adult life I mistook cynicism for it's own sake as intelligence.
I'm much more complicated than I want to believe that I am.
I will be interning for Organizing For America in the fall. I don't want to become an operative for a political party, but I am interested in connecting to the political temperature of the region.
Less good at saving face.
I'm pretty goddamn funny though; so I guess the first thing people notice about me is that they just shit their pants because i'm so unrelentingly goddamn funny.
Raiders of the Lost Ark is my favorite movie. Upstream Color is the best movie I've seen this year. The Room is probably the best movie of all time.
I watch a lot of sports. Any sports really. Sports mystify me. I've never been good at them, which is probably why I find them fascinating.
The Wire is my favorite show of all time. It legitimately made me a better person. Friday Night Lights is the only piece of visual media that has made me cry since I became an adult.
I love music. I'm not even going to attempt to parse a selection of bands or songs from memory that will do that statement justice. If you want to talk about music, I can talk to you forever.
I harbor a lot of guilt about food. Like, I love eating chocolate, but so much chocolate available to us is a direct product of West African slavery. I love eating steak, but raising cattle at the pace we do in America is devastating to the environment. I would be more at peace if I could transition to vegetarianism. I whole-heartedly intend to try one of these days.
Specifically I've been pouring over the line "If you're so clever, then why are you on your own tonight?" from "I Know It's Over" by The Smiths.
What the fuck, Morrissey? I thought you had my back.
That entire portion of the song has to be the most devastating artistic statement of the last 50 years.
I want to use my second effort at this Internet dating thing as an exercise in trying to cut through the bullshit that accompanies the modern Western courtship process. I want to be transparent for once. I want to be unguarded and vulnerable. I want to see what happens when you tell the truth to someone from the start. And not just the truth as it pertains to one's historical record, but the living truth. Why I am where I am. The things about me that don't define who I am but nonetheless currently effect how I live. The reasons I feel compelled to be saying this here rather than saying something more conventionally charming to some woman at a bar somewhere. The truth is where you've been and where you want to go. The living truth is how you intend to get there and it's messy and complicated and we try every day to hide it from one another because we're embarrassed or ashamed or because it complicates things too quickly. I believe that things are already complicated. They are complicated for me, and they are complicated for you (even if I don't know who you are yet) and they won't get any less complicated when they are added together. So let's own those complications from the beginning.