No, listen, what happened was this: they lied to you, sold you ideas of good & evil, gave you distrust of your body & shame for your prophethood of chaos, invented words of disgust for your molecular love, mesmerized you with inattention, bored you with civilization & all its usurious emotions.
There is no becoming, no revolution, no struggle, no path; already you're the monarch of your own skin--your inviolable freedom waits to be completed only by the love of other monarchs: a politics of dream, urgent as the blueness of sky."
-Hakim Bey (T.A.Z.)
For me to know and you to never know, even though you never know.
Complex - Happy - Busy - Passionate - Physical - Intellectual
Bind : Sever
Stupid : Clever
Coarse : Fine
Gladly : Never
You : Me
Chained : Free
Varried : Plain
Wants : Need
Lies : Trust
Pride : Lust
Fresh : Drunk
Wrong : Just
Well : Bunk
Searching : Bust
Gift : Junk
Informed : Naive
Sailing : Sunk
I grew up horse and cattle ranching. I know what it feels like to earn every meal w/ manual labor. I grew up fast and left home extremely early, spent many years rambling, exploring... happy to be lost in this or that ghost-town of the American West.
I'm good at empathizing with others, not only to invite a sense of compassion and peace into my life, but also to understand their thoughts, actions, motivations, and pit-falls.
I have no idea what people think when they first meet me, I've known myself for twenty five years and I have little understanding of myself or my interactions with the world. No-one you ever meet really knows what's going on -the ones that tell you they do should be ferociously avoided.
I have high cheekbones and a prominent brow... roman nose, green-blue eyes. I have a couple tattoos; I'm a fan, not at all fanatic... I think people have more to say than can be conveyed through body art alone.
A Clockwork Orange, Memento, A Scanner Darkly, Total Recall, The Labrynth, Apocolypse Now, Full Metal Jacket, American Psyco, Fried Green Tomatoes, Ghostbusters, Pulp Fiction, Reservoir Dogs, Jackie Brown, Inglorious Basterds, The Deer Hunter, Natural Born Killers, Alien series, Predator, Bottle Rockets, The Way of the Gun, Shindler's List (makes me cry errytime), Titus, Trainspotting
Aronofsky, Kubrick, Scorsese, Eastwood, Tarantino
I am "agnostic" in that I believe that spirit runs through all things however I do not seek to deny the possibility that certain religeous figures ever existed. Having said that I have read many selections from The Bible, The Koran, The I Ching (Chinese Book of Changes), The Tibetan Book of the Dead, The Mexica (Aztec) and Mayan Codexes that still exist, various Hindi as well as Budhist texts.
Red Dragon, Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal
A Brave New World, 1984, Farenheit 451, The Road
A lot of Phillip K. Dick, Robert A. Heinlein, Frank Herbert
-As far as non-fiction I read an untellable amount of "radical" leftist material.
How to adequately respect my reality.
"What happens when I turn my back on my Vision and spend my time and energy getting the stuff of the American Dream? I become agitated, uncomfortable in my own skin, because the guilt of abandoning my 'Self/self,' of deserting my Vision, forces me to apologize for my existence, to need to prove myself by approaching life as if it's a competition. I have to keep getting stuff in an attempt to appease and satisfy that vague sense of discontent that worms its way through me."
-Hubert Selby, Jr. (the guy who wrote "Requiem for a Dream")
"All ideology in essence involves the substitution of alien (or incomplete) concepts or images for human subjectivity. Ideologies are systems of false consciousness in which people no longer see themselves directly as subjects in their relation to their world. Instead they conceive of themselves in some manner as subordinate to one type or another of abstract entity or entities which are mistaken as the real subjects or actors in their world." "Whether the abstraction is God, the State, the Party, the Organization, Technology, the Family, Humanity, Peace, Ecology, Nature, Work, Love, or even Freedom; if it is conceived and presented as if it is an active subject with a being of its own which makes demands of us, then it is the center of an ideology."
- Jason McQuinn
She doesn't exist, fuck it.