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My self-summary
"You know what? I can over think everything and find a million ways to doubt myself. I've just come to realize that, we're only here briefly. And while I'm here, I wanna allow myself joy. So fuck it."

Lately, I have been letting this quote sink in. It is from the late 2013 movie "Her." I watched it for the first time recently, and by the time it was over, I knew that it was already my favorite film... set to replace Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I remember lying in bed thinking... "I do not think I ever need to see another movie again."

The movie depicts love in different ways... through different types of relationships. One thing that seemed prevalent throughout all of these portrayals was suffering. Reflecting on the movie after watching it once, my mind ponders that fact.... the truth of love and suffering being synonymous. Even when we experience an orgasm, the most intensely physical pleasure we can experience, our facial expression can be confused for one of pain.

Throughout my explorations in philosophy and religion, specifically Buddhism, I came across a concept on multiple occasions...

Life is suffering.

It sounds so bleak at first, but the more you explore... the more you question... the more you experience, you begin to understand the layers of that statement.
What I’m doing with my life
I am an artist.

Recently, I have worked towards making a career out of photography. It is a slow, but steady process. I am also an avid music lover and musician who sings, plays piano and writes lyrics and song arrangements. I am also a certified audio engineer. Off and on, I also explore Graphic Design, Web Design, Drawing, 2D and 3D painting, voice acting, writing short stories and poems and so much more.
I’m really good at
I find myself intrigued with the subject of communication and I find it to be a very important, if not the most important, aspect of any type of relationship. I feel that I have great communication skills.

I tend to excel at any form of art that I put my heart and soul into, but I have to be careful not to spread myself too thin. Given that, I am really great at focusing on one thing and putting every ounce of my being into it. On the contrast, I am terrible at multitasking.

I am great with all forms of technology and find myself often dazzled by new inventions and concepts, yet at the same time, you will hear me often speak of technology with an intense dismay. I find that I require a computer for pretty much every form of art I indulge in... and yet I despise computers.

I am good at putting myself in another's frame of mind in order to see a situation from their perspective. This helps in moments of conflict.
The first things people usually notice about me
Probably the odd blend of style that I have... which contains elements of goth, a modern graphic designer, a hipster, and a Buddhist Monk.

Other than looks, I would hope that anyone I encounter notices my friendly and approachable demeanor.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Music is very important to me and I find myself to become quite depressed when I am not involved in it in some fashion. I am a pianist, singer, lyric writer, song writer and audio engineer. Currently, I lack a piano because I had to sell mine due to financial issues. I dearly miss my instrument and long for the day when I can purchase another. I like most genres except for modern country and Christian music. Some of my favorite current bands include Radiohead, Hozier, Glass Animals, Alt-J, Future Islands, Arctic Monkeys, Depeche Mode, Chopin, Nine Inch Nails, Lorde, Arcade Fire, CHVRCHES, Louis Armstrong, Die Antword, Justin Timberlake, Gotye, Daft Punk, Pink Floyd, Deadmau5, Phantogram, The Knife, Deftones, The Preatures, Chairlift, Massive Attack, Puscifer, The Naked and Famous, A Perfect Circle, Ramona Lisa, Electric Guest, The Smashing Pumpkins, Static-X, TV on the Radio... and so many more...

I am also a huge fan of film. I like all genres really. Lately, I have been infatuated with unique love stories like Her, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Let the Right One In.... but I tend to stay way from generic romantic comedies. I love horror, thriller, action, drama, sci-fi, fantasy, documentary... pretty much anything.

I don't own a TV (by choice), but I watch shows on iTunes or Netflix. I have enjoyed Lost, Portlandia, Breaking Bad, Doctor Who, Dexter, True Blood, 30 Rock, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Full Metal Alchemist, Death Note, Samurai Jack, Invader Zim and some others.

I love to read and enjoy books on poetry, eastern philosophy, quantum physics, the human condition and horror.
Six things I could never do without
My camera
My piano
My voice
My eyes
My fingers

I spend a lot of time thinking about
The complexity of the human experience
The admiration of duality
The beauty in both happiness and tragedy
The unity of passion and suffering
On a typical Friday night I am
Friday nights are my nights to go out and spend time with friends. I like to go to karaoke, play video games, go on walks and have great conversations

Every so often, I will go out alone just to observe life and sometimes photograph it.

Sometimes, but rarely... you will find me at Missy B's. Missy's is pretty much the only dance club that I go to.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I get sort of lost in my mind from time to time. This is something that I am working on. We spend so much time in the past or future in our minds, that we rarely experience the life we are actually living.
You should message me if
Message me if you are looking for...

Real conversations
Long lasting friendships
The Sound Between
The two of us