Having said that, though, here's the kicker...even though I felt strangely compelled to create an account here, I don't think I'm ready to put myself out there yet. Although I'm terribly lonely after my wife's death a few months ago, and miss more than I can say having someone to share my life with, to talk about how our days went, to plan trips to Hawaii with, to laugh and cook with and go for walks and watch birds with, to baby-sit the (step)grandchildren with, to play Scrabble and canasta with, to trail behind in the women's clothing departments at the mall, to snuggle on the couch and watch a movie with, to hold hands with and give backrubs and long kisses, it's still HER I want to do those things with and not anyone new, not yet, not until -- I don't know when, but it doesn't seem to be now.
When that time comes I'll come back and give this a rewrite, but will leave it at that for now. Thanks for reading.
(I know, I'm a smartass)