I am a natural philosopher (the study of Nature and the physical universe).
We are rare (strange!) creatures, ones who seek truth and substance in a world that cares mainly for myth and appearance. It is a lonely life in some ways, takes courage, but it is the only path to a beautiful aware life. (And i do love how the great philosophers write - they make me smile, and think!)
"I don't know anything that gives me greater pleasure, or profit either, than talking or listening to philosophy. But when it comes to ordinary conversation, such as the stuff you talk about financiers and the money market, well, I find it pretty tiresome personally, and I feel sorry that my friends should think they're being very busy when they're really doing absolutely nothing. Of course, I know your idea of me: you think I'm just a poor unfortunate, and I shouldn't wonder if you're right. But then I don't THINK that you're unfortunate - I know you are." (Plato)
"The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself." (Friedrich Nietzsche)
Youngest child / black sheep in a smart family.
Very good at playing pinball, which I did a lot of rather than going to school!
Very good field hockey player.
Maths and Science Teacher for three years (hated it!).
Invented Quasar Space Games (Q-zar in USA) and sold it to company owned by U2 in 1990 at age 30 and retired from work.
Based on my evolutionary views of life, and my dislike of the pollution of cities (noise, concrete, cars, chemicals, radiation) I moved to the country, first to farmland, then 16 years ago to this amazing piece of Nature, 600 acres surrounded by beautiful sandy beaches and national park. I love the beauty and tranquillity of Nature, I love it here!
From my experience living on a farm in the early 1990's (on which I planted 100,000 trees), the chemical monoculture agriculture that now dominates the world, I came to the conclusion that Nature was dying, that Humanity was insane in its seeking short term profit while destroying Nature.
My conclusion though, was that people are fundamentally nice, it is our customs that lead us astray, thus the only solution is truth. We must know the truth about things to think and act wisely. (I became a natural philosopher without realising, it was my nature.)
I had a very scientific mind that believed we must understand evolution to understand ourselves, both our genetic and cultural evolution. So I set out studying the evolution of human knowledge from the ancients to the present, with the aim of finding the truth about our ultimate evolution, the physical evolution of the universe (physical reality).
In 1997 it occurred to me that matter was really just a wave structure of space, that it was space that really existed, matter/energy just different wave patterns in this space (thus explaining the dynamic unity of reality, the foundation of metaphysics and philosophy for the past 2,500 years).
In 2012 I finally worked out the maths physics for these wave structures, based on complex quaternion wave equations. From this foundation of waves in three dimensional space (all around us) we can now deduce all of modern physics, a complete simple unification of Einstein's relativity and quantum physics. You can search google to confirm this for yourselves (do not trust me, we should trust nothing other than reason and evidence from our senses).
Currently I am cultivating beautiful space on this property for ponds and orchards and veggie gardens, while working on a book on 'Truth and Reality' and I hope to make some very interesting films / documentaries.
So yes, I live a serious life, as Plato wrote;
"When a man no longer has to work for his living, he should, 'practice excellence'." (Plato)
But I also have two young girls (age 5 and 7) half my life, and I am very silly, stupid and absurd a lot of the time with them. Humour is very important to me, a necessary survival strategy in a crazy fucked up world, a world of ugliness and beauty, cruelty and kindness, love and hate, truth and deception.
With our feeble minds, our limited freedom in a complexly connected world, it is up to us to create the future we want, to create a beautiful life.
And ultimately I think life should be fun, we should seek happiness and pleasure, but morally, kindly, in harmony with Nature. And if we have talents we should use them to do good creative things, to try and make our world much kinder and wiser, our only chance of long term survival really!
Written with Einstein's ideals of kindness, beauty, truth,
PS - A few of my favourite quotes about philosophy / philosophers!
"The life of theoretical philosophy is the best and happiest a man can lead. Few men are capable of it (and then only intermittently). For the rest there is a second-best way of life, that of moral virtue and practical wisdom." (Aristotle, Metaphysics)
"All paid jobs absorb and degrade the mind." (Aristotle)
"And though the philosopher may live remote from business, the genius of philosophy, if carefully cultivated by several, must gradually diffuse itself throughout the whole society, and bestow a similar correctness on every art and calling." (David Hume)
"And those whose hearts are fixed on Reality itself deserve the title of Philosophers." (Plato, Republic, 380BC)
"And isn't it a bad thing to be deceived about the truth, and a good thing to know what the truth is? For I assume that by knowing the truth you mean knowing things as they really are." (Plato)
"The philosopher is in love with truth, that is, not with the changing world of sensation, which is the object of opinion, but with the unchanging reality which is the object of knowledge." (Plato)
"Truthfulness. He will never willingly tolerate an untruth, but will hate it as much as he loves truth. ... And is there anything more closely connected with wisdom than truth?" (Plato)
"What is at issue is the conversion of the mind from the twilight of error to the truth, that climb up into the real world which we shall call true philosophy." (Plato)
"The object of knowledge is what exists and its function to know about reality." (Plato)
"The task is not so much to see what no one yet has seen, but to think what no body yet has thought about that which everyone sees. ... But life is short, and truth works far and lives long: let us speak the truth." (Arthur Schopenhauer, 1818)
"In a time of universal deceit - telling the truth is a revolutionary act." (George Orwell)
"Hell is Truth Seen Too Late." (Thomas Hobbes)
"All that is necessary for evil to succeed is for good people to do nothing." (Edmund Burke)
I love Nature basically, and think the human world is predominantly ugly, stupid and cruel, but amongst this madness there are amazing things we humans create in a most amazing universe.
I am also writing a book on "Truth and Reality" and making films that encompass truth, Nature, beauty and love (reason and emotion) as the central elements of human existence and meaning in life.
But I am not just logical / scientific, I have a mind of the natural philosopher that is also deeply sensitive, easily hurt by stupidity and thoughtlessness, loves Nature, appreciates kindness and beauty as much as truth.
So while I can fix an engine, drive a tractor, I can also write poetry, intelligent provocative erotica, metaphysical treatises on the nature of reality, silly stories to charm my children, ...
A brilliant book from a brilliantly aware and highly moral mind.
Nietzsche, "Beyond Good and Evil"
One of the truly great writers. I share his frustrated madness at the stupidity of humans.
I have read most of the great philosophers from the ancient Greeks to modern.
I love them all for their intelligent awareness.
I have added lots of quotes below - because I have read many great minds over the past 20 years and they reflect deeply on the nature of my mind.
"Somebody who only reads newspapers and at best books of contemporary authors looks to me like an extremely near-sighted person who scorns eyeglasses. He is completely dependent on the prejudices and fashions of his times, since he never gets to see or hear anything else. And what a person thinks on his own without being stimulated by the thoughts and experiences of other people is even in the best case rather paltry and monotonous. There are only a few enlightened people with a lucid mind and style and with good taste within a century. What has been preserved of their work belongs among the most precious possessions of mankind. We owe it to a few writers of antiquity (Plato, Aristotle, etc.) that the people in the Middle Ages could slowly extricate themselves from the superstitions and ignorance that had darkened life for more than half a millennium. Nothing is more needed to overcome the modernist's snobbishness." (Albert Einstein, 1954)
"The sweetest and most inoffensive path of life leads through the avenues of science and learning; and whoever can either remove any obstructions in this way, or open up any new prospect, ought so far to be esteemed a benefactor to mankind. And though these researches may appear painful and fatiguing, it is with some minds as with some bodies, which being endowed with vigorous and florid health, require severe exercise, and reap a pleasure from what, to the generality of mankind, may seem burdensome and laborious. Obscurity, indeed, is painful to the mind as well as to the eye; but to bring light from obscurity, by whatever labour, must needs be delightful and rejoicing. ... Of the same class of virtues with courage is that undisturbed philosophical tranquillity, superior to pain, sorrow, anxiety, and each assault of adverse fortune. Conscious of his own virtue, say the philosophers, the sage elevates himself above every accident of life; and securely placed in the temple of wisdom, looks down on inferior mortals engaged in pursuit of honours, riches, reputation, and every frivolous enjoyment. ... And the nearer we can approach in practice to this sublime tranquility and indifference (for we must distinguish it from a stupid insensibility), the more secure enjoyment shall we attain within ourselves, and the more greatness of mind shall we discover to the world."
(David Hume, 1737)
"The scientist does not study nature because it is useful;
he studies it because he delights in it, and he delights in it because it is beautiful.
If nature were not beautiful, it would not be worth knowing,
and if nature were not worth knowing, life would not be worth living."
(Jules Henri Poincare)
"If it comes to pride with a philosopher then it is a great pride. His work never refers him to a public, the applause of the masses, and the hailing chorus of contemporaries. To wander lonely along his path belongs to the nature of the philosopher. His talents are the most rare, in a certain sense the most unnatural and at the same time exclusive and hostile even to kindred talents. The wall of his self sufficiency must be of diamond, if it is not to be demolished and broken, for everything is in motion against him. His journey to immortality is more cumbersome and impeded than any other and yet nobody can believe more firmly than the philosopher that he will attain the goal by that journey. He has truth; the wheel of time may roll whither it pleases, never can it escape from truth. It is important to hear that such men have lived."
(Friedrich Nietzsche, 1890)
"Suppose, then, that all men were sick or deranged, save one or two of them who were healthy and of right mind. It would then be the latter two who would be thought to be sick and deranged and the former not!"
(Aristotle, Metaphysics 340BC)
"I don't know anything that gives me greater pleasure, or profit either, than talking or listening to philosophy. But when it comes to ordinary conversation, such as the stuff you talk about financiers and the money market, well, I find it pretty tiresome personally, and I feel sorry that my friends should think they're being very busy when they're really doing absolutely nothing. Of course, I know your idea of me: you think I'm just a poor unfortunate, and I shouldn't wonder if your right. But then I don't THINK that you're unfortunate - I know you are. ...
When a man no longer has to work for his living, he should, 'practice excellence'."
"For myself, I found that I was fitted for nothing so well as for the study of Truth; as having a mind nimble and versatile enough to catch the resemblances of things … and at the same time steady enough to fix and distinguish their subtler differences; as being gifted by nature with desire to seek, patience to doubt, fondness to meditate, slowness to assert, readiness to consider, carefulness to dispose and set in order; and as being a man that neither affects what is new nor admires what is old, and that hates every kind of imposture." (Francis Bacon on critical thinking, 1605)
"To inquire after the meaning or object of one's own existence or that of all creatures has always seemed absurd from an objective point of view. And yet everybody has certain ideals which determine the direction of his endeavors and judgments. In this sense I have never looked upon ease and happiness as ends in themselves-this ethical basis I call the ideal of a pigsty. The ideals which have lighted my way, and time after time have given me new courage to face life cheerfully, have been Kindness, Beauty and Truth. Without the sense of kinship with men of like mind, without the occupation with the objective world, the eternally unattainable in the field of art and scientific endeavors, life would have seemed to me empty. The trite objects of human efforts-possessions, outward success, luxury-have always seemed to me contemptible.
My passionate sense of social justice and social responsibility has always contrasted oddly with my pronounced lack of need for direct contact with other human beings and human communities. I am truly a 'lone traveler' and have never belonged to my country, my home, my friends, or even my immediate family, with my whole heart; in the face of all these ties, I have never lost a sense of distance and a need for solitude - feelings which increase with the years. One becomes sharply aware, but without regret, of the limits of mutual understanding and consonance with other people. No doubt, such a person loses some of his innocence and unconcern; on the other hand, he is largely independent of the opinions, habits, and judgements of his fellows and avoids the temptation to build his inner equilibrium upon such insecure foundations.
(Albert Einstein - Ideas and Opinions, 1954)
"My dear children:
I rejoice to see you before me today, happy youth of a sunny and fortunate land.
Bear in mind that the wonderful things that you learn in your schools are the work of many generations, produced by enthusiastic effort and infinite labour in every country of the world. All this is put into your hands as your inheritance in order that you may receive it, honour it, and add to it, and one day faithfully hand it on to your children. Thus do we mortals achieve immortality in the permanent things which we create in common.
If you always keep that in mind you will find meaning in life and work and acquire the right attitude towards other nations and ages." (Albert Einstein - Ideas and Opinions, 1954)
"A human being is part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. We experience ourselves, our thoughts and feelings as something separate from the rest. A kind of optical delusion of consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from the prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty… The true value of a human being is determined primarily by the measure and the sense in which they have obtained liberation from the self. … We shall require a substantially new manner of thinking if humanity is to survive." (Albert Einstein, 1954)
"Man's most disagreeable habits and idiosyncrasies, his deceit, his cowardice, his lack of reverence, are engendered by his incomplete adjustment to a complicated civilisation. It is the result of the conflict between our instincts and our culture." (Sigmund Freud)
"Analyse any human emotion, no matter how far it may be removed from the sphere of sex, and you are sure to discover somewhere the primal impulse, to which life owes its perpetuation. ... The primitive stages can always be re-established; the primitive mind is, in the fullest meaning of the word, imperishable." (Sigmund Freud, 1915).
"Being entirely honest with oneself is a good exercise." (Sigmund Freud)
"The great question that has never been answered and which I have not yet been able to answer, despite my thirty years of research into the feminine soul, is 'What does a woman want?" (Sigmund Freud)
"The notion that all these fragments is separately existent is evidently an illusion, and this illusion cannot do other than lead to endless conflict and confusion. Indeed, the attempt to live according to the notion that the fragments are really separate is, in essence, what has led to the growing series of extremely urgent crises that is confronting us today. Thus, as is now well known, this way of life has brought about pollution, destruction of the balance of nature, over-population, world-wide economic and political disorder and the creation of an overall environment that is neither physically nor mentally healthy for most of the people who live in it. Individually there has developed a widespread feeling of helplessness and despair, in the face of what seems to be an overwhelming mass of disparate social forces, going beyond the control and even the comprehension of the human beings who are caught up in it." (David Bohm, Wholeness and the Implicate Order, 1980)
"Reality cannot be found except in One single source, because of the interconnection of all things with one another. ... I maintain also that substances, whether material or immaterial, cannot be conceived in their bare essence without any activity, activity being of the essence of substance in general." (Gottfried Leibniz, 1670)
"We may agree, perhaps, to understand by Metaphysics an attempt to know reality as against mere appearance, or the study of first principles or ultimate truths, or again the effort to comprehend the universe, not simply piecemeal or by fragments, but somehow as a whole." (Bradley, 1846-1924)
"The first philosophy (Metaphysics) is universal and is exclusively concerned with primary substance. ... And here we will have the science to study that which is, both in its essence and in the properties which, just as a thing that is, it has. ... That among entities there must be some cause which moves and combines things. ... There must then be a principle of such a kind that its substance is activity." (Aristotle, 340BC)
NOTE: To understand the above metaphysics quotes you need to be aware of the Wave Structure of Matter, that the one substance that exists is Space and it is active / dynamic because it is vibrating, matter is just wave patterns in space.
"A new scientific truth does not triumph by convincing its opponents and making them see the light, but rather because its opponents eventually die, and a new generation grows up that is familiar with it." (Max Planck, 1920)
"Ignorance more frequently begets confidence than does knowledge: it is those who know little, not those who know much, who so positively assert that this or that problem will never be solved by science." (Charles Darwin, Introduction to The Descent of Man, 1871)
My god, where to start?? I have watched thousands of films (I have a full HD projector and film quality camera and indoor film theater).
Good films are intelligent and have emotional depth, they tell profound stories using beautiful visual images and aware dialogue.
Will add a list of films later...
I like most types of music. Music must have emotional depth and complexity for me to really like it (e.g. Opera, Nirvana).
I like lots of different food, but really like Indian (Saag Gosht) with beer or red wine! I eat a mainly evolutionary /palaeolithic diet (we did not evolve to eat a high carbohydrate / simple grass sugars diet).
And over time I hope to grow a lot of my own food, free from the toxic crap that is found in our modern corporate agricultural chemical based system that simply seeks short term profit rather than what is good for humanity / life on earth.
But here are some things I like;
Truth Nature beauty. I live in Nature, I study truth, and I try to appreciate beauty.
Love kindness sex. I think love and sex with a beautiful kind woman who loves you is the most profoundly beautiful experience in the universe.
My children. I have two young girls, aged 5 and 7 for half of each week. They are delightful happy cheeky children, we are good friends, we have fun together.
Clever machines. e.g. Wind generators, solar panels, electric motors, computers, film cameras, projectors, Iphones (except their toxic radiation) tractors (other than their stinky noisy motors, but very useful machines!) and a very beautiful timber boat, a 60 foot Ketch, with three large rooms within a lovely curved wooden hull.
Film (and projector, I built my house extension as a film theater too).
My potbelly stove, I love wood, I love fire, I love the sight and smell of drifting smoke through sunshine and shady trees, I love its warmth and soft red light, how it heats my house and my water and me!
Dark chocolate, red wine, beer, Indian food, weed. I eat most food and enjoy it / appreciate it (children do starve to death every few seconds). I do not eat grass based food, e.g. wheat, rye, barley, oats, breads and pastas, etc. (I think I am gluten intolerant, but we did not evolve to eat grasses, they are not good for you.)
Books, particularly by the philosophers - these beautiful creative minds that genuinely seek truth and wisdom.
Humor - life is cruel at times, humor helps! And it is a noble aim to make life FUN! (A great lesson to learn from children!)
Music. The power of waves! I like lots of different music. Quality music created by talented artists.
And while I was with my partner, most nights centered around sex, such a profoundly beautiful part of life and love!
Most disturbing, the destruction / pollution of Nature is both cruel and insane, will have catastrophic consequences for humanity (our children) and life on Earth.
"What is strong wins: that is the universal law.
If only it were not so often precisely what is stupid and evil!"
(Friedrich Nietzsche, Notes, 1873)
"We must not conceal from ourselves that no improvement in the present depressing situation is possible without a severe struggle; for the handful of those who are really determined to do something is minute in comparison with the mass of the lukewarm and the misguided." (Albert Einstein, 1934)
I am actually looking for a younger woman (or a woman who is young of mind, e.g. curious, open, playful). This relates to being a natural philosopher, the desire to creatively cultivate beautiful things together.
Probably a similar nature as displayed by the ancient Greek philosophers (except they took young men as lovers and students, I don't have their homosexual customs and find women delightfully beautiful and sexual).
Kinda relates to Freud's comment;
"What a distressing contrast there is between the radiant intelligence of the child and the feeble mentality of the average adult." (Sigmund Freud)
I live isolated partly because I love Nature, and partly because I find most adults dull to be honest, and the world they are creating pretty toxic and ugly. Sad but true.
I have had two long term partners in the past 30 years, my second partner was 20 when I met her (I was 38) and we were together 14 years, have two gorgeous little girls!
She left because she decided she did not want to live with a philosopher, she wanted a simple life!
This was very painful to me, the most suffering I have ever experienced in life, and a very good cure for my anger and depression at the world, at stupidity, that caused me to see the ugly side of life, of my partner, that eventually killed our relationship.
The truth is she was a beautiful woman that was not always able to live to the standards of philosophy, and nor was I in my anger and frustration at times
So though I am 55, it is only now that I think I have the life experiences to be a true philosopher, to be a noble philosopher prince (my aim in life).
And I am fit and strong and young of mind, partly because my partner was 34, my children just 2 and 4 when we separated, and partly because I have the mind of a philosopher that just keeps exploring and learning, my mind just bigger, more complex, more creative, and I hope much more beautiful.
I so want to find a woman that cares about the world, loves truth and Nature, kindness and beauty, wants to be creative making films, writing books, cultivating orchards and beautiful spaces on a most amazing piece of Nature / wilderness. A woman who loves me as deeply as I love them, loves working and hanging out with me, loves fucking me, because we are beautiful and kind and truthful, we are in love.
So write to me if you are interested in exploring a very different life, life in nature with a natural philosopher, a unique and challenging creative life, but I believe it to be the best of all possible lives, to be truly aware of your existence in the universe, an amazing universe when you really think about it (few do)!
"Something might be true although at the same time harmful and dangerous in the highest degree; indeed, it could pertain to the fundamental nature of existence that a complete knowledge of it would destroy one - so that the strength of the spirit could be measured by how much 'truth' it could take, more clearly, to what degree it needed it attenuated, veiled, sweetened, blunted, falsified." (Friedrich Nietzsche)
"Was it not for you the glacier today exchanged its grey for roses? The brook seeks you; and wind and clouds press higher in the blue, longingly they crowd aloft to look for you. For you have I prepared my table in the highest height - who lives so near the stars as I, or who so near the depths of the abyss?" (Friedrich Nietzsche)