i can be rather long-winded. If you aren't intimidated you yet, shut up and keep reading :p
"Admit it. You aren't like them. You're not even close. You may occasionally dress yourself up as one of them, watch the same mindless television shows as they do, maybe even eat the same fast food sometimes, but it seems that the more you try to fit in, the more you feel like an outsider, watching the 'normal people' as they go about their automatic existences. For every time you say club passwords like 'Have a nice day' and 'Weather's awful today, eh?', you yearn inside to say forbidden things like 'Tell me something that makes you cry' or 'What do you think deja vu is for?' Face it, you even want to talk to that girl in the elevator. What if that girl in the elevator (and the balding man who walks past your cubicle at work) are thinking the same thing? Who knows what you might learn from taking a chance on conversation with a stranger? Everyone carries a piece of the puzzle. Nobody comes into your life by mere coincidence. Trust your instincts. Do the unexpected. Find the others…" - Timothy Leary
i journey to find The Others <3
So let me tell you what i've been up to: i've been thinking. i've been philosophizing. i've been discussing the good legalized marijuana would do to the economy. i've been reading (biographies, transgressional fiction, intelligent fantasy, science-fiction, essay collections, science articles, polyamory community boards, tantric yoga pamphlets, Bradbury, et cetera) and jump-starting my renewed love of writing. i've been talking and asking questions and getting asked questions.
my New Year's resolution was to stop being self-conscious or scared of the Universe and its machinations; i now read oracle for whomever asks.
i've realized that taking responsibility for both actions and words is incredibly attractive to me.
Financial independence is hot.
Books make me _____.
i have been living.
i am always learning.
i have been evolving and adapting on all levels.
Ask me about my childhood; ask me about my scars. Ask me why i believe in God. Ask me how often i cry and how much i love to cook in the kitchen. Ask me why i'm absolutely nuts and what my favorite animal is. Ask what my favorite time of day is, what tattoos i have, what i plan to do in the future, and what i daydream about. Ask me if i belong to any Orlando groups or meetups, what websites i frequent, my stand on evolution or revolutions, or if i'm Team Edward of Team Jacob. Ask about my sexuality.
Start a conversation about my anti-feminist/feminist standpoint. Talk to me with beautiful words; paint me a picture with adjectives and commas.
Ask me anything.
Tell me anything.
Converse with me for real; cut the bullshit small talk.
Maybe we'll both learn something new and exciting <3
Oh. Right. You can call me michi :) or Phoebe or Pheebz or Ramona or Rammy. Been trying on some different names lately.
Also, ask me for more information about the "available" but not "single" status.
i work five to six days a week in coffee.
Typically, my eyes burn from and my joints ache because of my insomnia..
my best friend and i make sure to have a conversation at least once a week.
i'm have had background plans to some day become a Suicide Girl or an alternative-wig model.
Marlboro Red boxes are slowly taking over my room; i plan on creating art with the remnants of my cancer-habit.
►Why am i no longer in school?◄
►If money was no object, what would you go to school for?◄
Call me a hippie or bohemian, a Goth or Victorian-era gypsy; label me a starchild or the deranged psychic child in those creepy horror movies that foretell your imminent future. i love staring out at nature late at night or early in the morning while sucking down smoke from some source.
Sometimes, i mourn the fact that i don't have a cigarette buddy with me to share my time with anymore. Message me when i'm online late at night and woo me with words of the Universe <3
Words and unweaving dreams are my specialties.
i Real-Talk my friends a lot. Somebody's gotta give them a good shaking when they've been too long asleep.
Cooking is a fabulous sport <3
Just watch me as i dance to the music in my mind, the stuff I hear from other dimensions long away from here.
i am, however, always Asian :)
►What did you first notice?◄
"As lame as this is gonna sound, your smile."
Child of Fortune, Kushiel's Dart and the ensuing series, Blood And Chocolate, Hard Love, Razzle, Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist, P.S. I Love You, Feed, The Android's Dream, Beautiful Creatures, Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy and its three sequels, Ender's Shadow, The Giver, The Troy Game trilogy, the Twilight saga, Stargirl, the His Dark Materials trilogy, This Lullaby, The Missing Piece, The Giving Tree, The Lorax, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, The Bradbury Chronicles: The Life of Ray Bradbury, etc.
Books are a huge turn-on. If you can recommend me some really amazing any-genre title, i'd love it :)
Some of my favorite authors are:
Ray Bradbury, Ellen Wittlinger, Sarah Dessen, Francesca Lia Block, Charles de Lint, Douglas Adams, Jacqueline Carey, and Sara Douglass.
These are some of the movies i love:
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Rent, Moulin Rouge, Sliding Doors, 10 Things I Hate About You, Repo! The Genetic Opera, Empire Records, Sweet November, Hellboy II: The Golden Army, The Matrix, Limitless, The Fountain, Music & Lyrics, Oldboy, Across the Universe, V for Vendetta, The Truman Show, Thank You For Smoking, Clerks II, Dogma, Youth in Revolt, Reality Bites, Eurotrip, American Wedding, Beta House, Band Camp, Fight Club, Gamer, The Fellowship of the Rings, Amelie, Dark City, Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World, Les Nom des Gens, Thirst, Shutter Island
►The list is so diverse. What do i like about the movies?◄
►Who is one of your favorite directors?◄
i also like the following TV shows:
Fringe (my current obsession), Firefly, Farscape, Bones, Invader Zim, Dollhouse, The Riches, South Park, Drawn Together, Glee, Angel, The Big Bang Theory, Weeds (i actually hate the show, but i'm hooked)
i don't game often, nor do games typically hold my attention, but some of my favorites have been:
Bayonetta, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy IX,Borderlands, The Chase: Felix Meets Felicity, Tetris, lots of Pokemon games, Dragon Age Origins, Halo online multiplayer, Eternal Sonata, League of Legends, and Diablo II
i adore music... A sampling of what i listen to:
Jack Johnson, Motion City Soundtrack, Emilie Autumn, Coheed & Cambria, Rebelution, The Morning Light, Cash Cash, Paul Oakenfold, Infected Mushroom, The Vitamin String Quartet, Breaking Benjamin, The Goo Goo Dolls, Tribal Seeds, The Dresden Dolls, Sarah McLachlan, Anberlin, Florence + The Machine, Rihanna, Switchfoot, Vertical Horizon, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Weezer, Within Temptation, Muse, A Day to Remember, Owl City, Zebrahead, Marilyn Manson, Noisuf-X, Zombie Nation, Trivium, Everclear, Lady Gaga, Ke$ha, Artist Vs. Poet, Mumford & Sons, OneRepublic, Skrillex, Pendulum, Of Monsters and Men, Deadmau5, etc.
►i have been delving into the realm of foreign symphonic metal, industrial, folk, electronica, bad punk, reggae, calypso, and stuff like Nicki Minaj (don't judge) lately. What's some good stuff you can recommend?◄
Quotes to live by:
"It's a lot harder to be a fucking villain. Role models are mannequins, villains make problems and problems are what changes the world. All artists are villains, and that's what I like to be." - Marilyn Manson
"Science is not only compatible with spirituality; it is a profound source of spirituality." - Carl Sagan
"I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn't." - Marilyn Monroe
"[...] I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way that this: where I does not exist, nor you, so close that your hand on my chest is my hand, so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep." - Pablo Neruda
"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." - Marilyn Monroe
"All knowledge is worth having." - Jacqueline Carey
-knowledge / ideas
All Is Full of Love
One of the questions presented to me by OKC was this:
Which of the following do you find to be the most inspirational?
The choices were 1) Art or music; 2) Love; 3) Faith
i chose Faith above even love.
►Why? Ask me.◄
my secondary six:
-intermingling of pain and pleasure
-the movements of the body
i enjoy discussions about faith. Religion and rituals are fascinating. Let's exchange philosophies on God, love, the Universe, beauty, death, trust, sex and sexuality, genders and gender roles in society, social interactions and social trends, relationships, friendship, and so many, many other things. i'm a very open-minded person. I want to know all of the things from all of the viewpoints.
Depending on when you happen to catch me, i am either an ENFP or ENTP. Both are most definitely me. As of late, i've been exploring being an ENFJ. It's been... rather interesting.
i like to think that i am caught between chaotic good and chaotic neutral, although i have also been known as lawful good, but i think that's stupid and a little too boring for me :p
If there's anything you want to talk to me about, do it. The worst i can do is ignore you, or disagree.
"We need not think alike to love alike." - Francis David
Maybe you saw me when the local band Deja played at Crane's Roost by the Altamonte Mall.
Maybe come have a beer with me at Shotski's.
i'm an emotional and mental handful... but i can behave; promise. Part of the problem of swinging from being an ENTP to ENFP, i suppose, is that i feel way too much, then trying to figure out why i felt like that five minutes ago and berating myself for it.
Socially awkward doesn't even begin to cover it (but this isn't a private thing; everyone knows this :p).
Some of my dreams have come true. Literally.
-you'd like to wax intellectual with me--about anything: books, movies, religion* (*see first point), faith, conspiracy theories, the philosophy of love, spirituality, intelligent life on other planets, artificial intelligence, the zen of cooking, herbalism, whatever
-something about my profile intrigues you
-you're not going to want cybersex--that'll just earn you silence
-you're going to be at least somewhat coherent in the grammar, punctuation, spelling, and overall word-department
-you also love as thou wilt
-one of my ►suggestions◄ intrigued you enough to ask the question